Missing Piece

You do what you're suppose to do,
with no frown or fuss.
Not because you want to ,
but because you must.
Day after day
It's like a routine.
Don’t have too much to say,
You only do the right thing.
Soon you feel empty,
but you don't know what it could be.
You want no sympathy.
But it's something you can't see
Everything used to make sense,
but now you're lost in a maze.
You feel so tense,
and you pray for better days.
Something just doesn't seem right
You look for an answer that's not there.
You stay awake all night,
But you feel like no one cares.
It's right in your face
and you think it's safe,
or should you forget?
Things don't seem the same,
But what should you do?
You think you should change,
But change for who?
Understanding means nothing to you now.
Your heart is pronounced deceased
This should you allow ,
or find your missing piece?

My Life as Me

I'm lost and confused,miss-treated and miss-used,murdered and abused,Unloved and refused.I was always being excused,I started doing drugs,Dating some other dirty girls.I was being a tease,and getting pleased.I love that life now and I’m stuck,in this rock,restrained from the one I love.screaming inside my mind,even though everyone thinks I’m fine.crying myself to sleep every night,wishing the next day my sister might be in sight.I was dropped in this town,to never be found.I was beatenI was murderI was unloved I was refused and most of all I was confused.

A Woman in the Bus

I was riding at the bus going back home.It was already 8 and i am too late to go home.30 minutes before i get in the bus.I'm sitting between, the two woman.At the right is the old one maybe in age of 45.And in my left sit is the young lady in age of 23.She's wearing in her office attire Maybe she is an agent on the other building.Time is running and so i used to watch television to get over with my dizziness.It was Wilingwille game show and its very nice and fun to watch with all the pasenger out there,i was wondering with the girl in my left side,but i ignore it because i was busy watching t.v.When suddenly a softly voice walk in my ear and its like somebody's crying outta here.TheN i turn my head to the left and i saw young woman crying and she use to hurry wipe her tears to hide it from me.Then i ask her"Are you crying?"the i look at her again...then she faced me and i saw some tears in her eyes.I ask again for the second time"Why?Anything wrong?"She let me speak but her celphone is ringing  before she blow some words to speak with me,then she gave me her phone and let me read what is inside the message and it was from alex saying"I don't love you anymore,eversince we meet.i have my own family with two kids and i am already get married,im so sorry helga,Hope you understand me.I used to pretend that i love you just because i don't see you sad,thats why i let myself to be with you eventhough i have my own family,but now i need to seperate with you,because im much more love my family than you.So don't dare to text me starting this night.Goodbye and stay happy"from alex.Then the girl starting to shed her tears and i see her more lonely than the first time i saw her.I ask her again for the third time"Are you sure your okay?"Then she hug me and i give her a sweet hug too,the (condoktor)speak and said"were here in the pioneer,are those have people going down here in pioneer,now get ready huh" then some of the pasenger are put from the bus..While we are in the moment the girl tell me something "will you please be here for the mean time?" I answer yes,sure im at the way of crossing so i stay here in an hour so stay close to me and ill be grace with you..we hug each other thinking that anybodys is there.I saw in her eyes something going to be okay now,And she supposed to be alright as i was hug her tight then i was in my way now.I ask the driver to atop in the crossing.I stand up and let go with the woman and the last word she say was"I'm happy with your hug,i hope we meet one day,thank you."Then i start to walk far away adn going back home..it was a happy moment i ever had since when was my last time to fall in love and get a broken hearted,but now i understadn the life"Life is not about what you want to have its about how you will feel comfort to the other and give your help as msuch as the people can feel the happiness,Thank you for that woman and now i am ready with the life i am crossing for my goal..its nice story and its a true story base in my experience.theme song is (who am i by casting crowns)not because of who i am no because of what you ve gone,not because of what ive done just because of who you are...i am the flower quickly fading than today and gone tomorrow,wave cross to the ocean vapor in the wind still you hear me whne im calling,Lord you catch me where im falling and you told me WHO I AM,I AM yours,i am yours....

Someone Part of my Past

Naalala ko pa,meron akong girlfriend nuon nung nasa 1st year college ako,,maganda sya,mabait,sweet,,lagi nya ako pinagtatanggol,kase"weak ako"ang masama lang sa kanya ay"masyado syang adik sa paginum..lagi ko sya sinasamahan at lagi naman ako nauunang malasing,,pinaiinum at pinaiinum nya kase ako,pag di ko daw ininum"break na kami"mahal ko sya kaya ginagawa ko yun..hanggang sa isang araw nagkasakit ako-sabi ng doktor"nasobrahan daw ako sa alak at di kinayanan ng kidney ko kaya namaga ang kabilang parte nito.masyadong sensitive daw kase ang tiyan ko kaya pati softdrinks binawal sa akin,ayun,,naconfined ako sa hospitalng ilang linggo,pumayat ako lalo nun at lalong nagmukhang mahina--pagkalabas ko sa hospital ay nakipagkita uli sa akin yung gf ko. Kinuwento ko sa kanya ang nagyari sabi nya"bakit parang ako pa ang sinisisi mo?kasalanan ko ba an mahina ka talaga?yung iba nga jan ee ilang bote pa ang nauubos pero walang epekto.edi kung ako talaga me kasalanan ee di hiwalayan mo na ako,wala ka palang mapapala sa akin ee.(yumuko ako at nagpaliwanag) :hindi kita sinisisi,sinasabi ko lang na di n ako pwede uminum ng alak at kahit softdrinks.Sagot nya"edi wag!yun lang ba?tapusin na natin to'para wala ka ng masisi pa."

Natapos ang lahat sa amin ng ganun lang..pagkatapos ng masasayang alaala namin ay bigla nalang nya akong naisipang hiwalayan,mahirap masakit at mukhang di ko kakayanin,,iba kase pag nakasanayan mo na ang me kasamang nagmamahal,pero iba na ngayun,,siguro tadhana na ang me gawa nito kaya nagyari to,ipinagpalagay ko nalang na"di ko na sya nakilala pa"

Hanggang sa isang araw me bumalita sa akin na isang kaibigan nya na,buntis daw si rosalie,at iniwanan ng lalaki..sabi pa nga ee"adik daw yung lalaki kya nahuli ng mga pulis at ikinulong..ewan ko ba kung anu ang gagawin ko pero di na sya nagpakita pa sa akin mula nung tinapos nya ang lahat sa amin,,sa ngayun sana kung nasaan man sya magingat sya lagi at wag ng magpapakatanga sa kanyang bisyo..