Buhay ko to! Kaya Batas ko To!

->Di ko obligasyon na pilitin ang isang taong ayaw.
->Kesa makipagusap o sumama sa isang taong ayaw ko-mas gugustuhin ko pang maglakad lakad magisa.

->may mga taong makikitid ang utak,yung mga tao na kahit anong halaga o dami ng paliwanag mo-hinding hindi ka parin maintindihan

->Madalas nga talga na may mga taong pakialamero/ra o nanghihimasuk sa buhay mo-lalo na yung mga taong mahilig maghukay ng nakaraan-

(bat pa nga ba paguusapan-wala na yun diba-tapos ano iisipin nya na apektado ka pa-nakalimutan na nga kaya di na binabanggit ee tapos ipipilit pa nya sayo-ano gusto nya tumakbo ka paatras?)

->Minsan yung tao alam na nga na mali-magtatanong pa kung ano ba yung nagawa nya-
(anong paliwanag pa ang gusto nyang marinig?yung mga salitang mas masasaktan sya?)
->Mas gugustuhin ko pang matulog buong hapon kesa naman makinig sa mga kwento mong di naman talga nangyayari sa totoong buhay.<-hek ->Hindi ako matalino,kung me mali ka man na nakikita o napapansin sakin-sabihin mo-pero wag ka maghintay ng kung anong komento galing sa bibig ko-kase alam mo na ang sagot dun-natanong mo nga ee sigurado me iniisip ka din na posibleng sagot ko.

->yung mahal mo-kesa naman magkwento sa ibang tao na me taong nagmamahal at nakikiusap sayo para lang mahalin mo sya-di nalang ako magsasalita

->wag kang matakot magkamali at masaktan-kase yung mismong pagsilang sayo-ginagawa ka palang iniisip na ng iba na isa kang pagkakamali-at dun nasaktan ang magulang mo.diba?

->oo wala akong kaibigan-mas gugustuhin ko pang magpanggap na me kaibigan kesa naman magkaron ng mga sinungaling na tropa.

A Boring Day with A Stupid Things

Everyday of my life,i only live just to GET UP-WORK-SLEEP-and then repeat. I wonder how i used to live in almost everyday like this. A feeling of nothing, seen nothing,and hear nothing, it's like i'm the only man who lived here in my own world,but i guess this is what i want,people dont blame me for acting like I-DONT-CARE,when i know that what i feel is what i ACT.but still people doesnt ever learned to understand me,maybe theres a few of them but i dont even know who are they. Everytime i go along with myself outside and stay nowhere to go,i feel like i'm invinsible.Those people who only see me are the people who used to live as a people but when i start to count them into with my fingertips theres still a few numbers of count i always have. I don't know why people disagree what i was about to talk or to speak. I speak what my mind tell me, i can share what my heart feels. i can't see those things i don't wana see,specially when it was all about nonsense or worthless. I know i'm a worse or a loser or whatever people call me but this is me,this is what i am and i can never change it. Love? what do you mean by love? i dont remember i was inlove by someone who just bring me the biggest mistakes in my life but i nver regret having this things. I'm immature, i'm fit like a skinny man walking alone in the street but this is me this is who i am. If you dont understand me, you never learned how to love me for who i am. When a morning comes i get up,and my thoughts works like a superman in the sky,i'm not a genius to make all people answer the stupid questions that even them doesnt ever know. Yeah i know i'm stupid and you dont have to talk to me again-A phylosopy man that doesnt even know how to say SORRY or how to make an apologize. This is the person,one of the god's creating mistakes. If you dont like me-i will actually think you doesnt exist at all- I love talking to strange people its like those things make me feel so much excited,i dont know but when i talk to them i feel so boastful, i can pretend, i can act as if im a winner,as if im a great and as if i dont have any sins or mistakes at all.What a boring day right? Walk alone, go to the market and then buy my own food,i dont have friends to have and feel a good band with them,i with myself,always and forever, i dont wanna teach people to understand me,to love me or to please just to be with me-if they doesnt like me i dont care-.

Depression Thoughts

I just think that all you people need someone to be there for you when you wana cry and everyone of u shud get help....because every single one of u were born 4 a reason...not to jst die wen u wana die...you die when ur supposed 2 die....when thingz get a lil bit tough u cant decide ur going to cut or something you have to pass it time will make you stronger...believing is the key....

I've learned that this darkness that seeks to consume my life is only sharing this body with me.  I will press on, sometimes like the living dead, because I have a right to try.  This is my life too and this depression cannot completely define me or I will cease to be.  Fight for your right to life; death will come in its own time.

one day youll wake up and wonder--isnt it someone missing?then youll shed a tear because you miss the emptiness.

Life is bad. It's just a bunch of aches and pains. When ever there is some good/happiness it's inevitable that it is going to end. I've resolved myself. I'm not going to  expect anything but the worst because it's inevitable. Why be caught by suprise by something you know isn't going to last. Don't be a fool, even if it does get better always know it will come to an end.

it hurts now and it will hurt more 2morrow, i will always have pain and feel sorrow...help me please im blinded by my tears and i just cant see so many devils tryna recycle my soul because where im from there's no possitive foe's.


Blue and white skies outside, blue and white pills inside. The sun is shinning outside, so why do I feel so dark inside?

he had killed me so i will kill him back  becouse it hurts' please help me before its too late.

Im scared of alot of things, but im not scared of the boogyman, the shadow or the thought of dying, the only thing im scared of, is rethinking how dumb i could be to do this to her...i loved her so much.

Life??? that is the true question...

I feel myself slipping more and more every year now. I don't know why i feel the way I do about myself. I just have so much hate in me towards myself. Why I ask myself many times, am I now happy with my life. I'm still waiting for the answer to this day. My past delt with my overcoming my epilpsy disorder which cause me to miss out on most of my life. Two years after the surgery were the toughest. I was glad not to be sick anymore, but yet i felt so empty and alone in this world. The few years after that things were good. I went back to school and am now working a nice job. But for some reason last year I suddenly felt the sadness slowly coming back. I feel that this time it is stronger than it every was before. I've spoken with my doctor and he just says that I have been putting to much on my plate and that i need to relax and try to enjoy life. Prehaps he's right, but Im starting to fear that this sadness may one day overtake me. Ive recently screwed up my relationship I had with a great girl. I think to myself alot as to why am I here, what is my purpose. I know that I have not completed my mission here since I have come close to death a few times but yet I still survived. I'll continue writing more later, I could probably write a book with all i have to say........ Life??? that is the true question...

Tama na sa Pagiyak

Naisip mo na ba na sayang ang luha mo
Dahil sa mga walang kwentang bagay at taong iniiyakan mo
kelan ba nagamot ng luha ang sugat?
Hindi naman diba kaya tama na sa pagiyak
at tama na sa lungkot na lagi mong dinadamayan

Wag kang makinig sa mga sinasabi nila
Wag mong husgahan pati sariling kakayanan
Alam mong tama ka ngunit silay pinakikinggan pa
Hindi naman masama na ikay ngmahal lamang
kaya tama na sa pagiyak at pagmukmok jan

Isang malakas na halakhak ang dapat mong gawin
Bitawan mo ang salitang; hindi ko kayang mawala sya
Dahil hinding hindi ka talga sasaya sa dahilan na yun
Yung tinitibok ng puso mo ikanta mo
Yung sinisigaw ng utak mo isigaw mo tama na sa pagiyak

Hindi ba maganda ka naman
Hindi ba me mga kakayanan ka din naman
Mga bagay na wala sakanya na meron ka
Mga katangian na taglay mo na wala sakanila
Kaya tama na sa pagiyak ngumiti ka nalang kaya

Ayan,dahil sa kagustuhan mong sumaya
Unti unti mo ng naibubuka ang mga labi mo
Unti unti mo ng nilalagyan ng paru paru ang mga mata mo
Sikapin mong makuha ang mga bagay na ayaw ng iba
Pagkat hindi lahat ng tinapon ay wala ng kwenta
Tama na sa pagiyak at hayaan mong mawala ang lahat
hayaan mong problema at alinlangan ay mabura
Upang ang iyong kaligayahan ang syang sumakop sayong kaluluwa
tahan na wag ka ng umiyak at sayang ang luha mo

I'm human, I make mistakes.

I'm human, I make mistakes. I've done things I'm not proud of and I have regrets. Im insecure and at times not very confident. I tend to be shy and reserved at times, but there are also times I'm outspoken and a little crazy. I've been hurt and I've been lied to time and time again, and I don't trust easy. I'm scared of falling again; afraid that the minute I start to fall, I'll end up on the ground again,asking myself, why I keep letting this happen. I'm by no means perfect, and neither is my family. In fact, my family's a little screwed up at times, and sometimes, they hurt me. I hate when people pretend to be something they're not around me. I'm stubborn. I'm judgemental. I'm not the brightest person in the world and I'm sure you can do better. But know that I'm also,curious, looking to experience things I have yet to experience. I like to sing and I want to dance in the middle of the street without any music. I love to laugh and have fun. I want to be kissed in the rain. I want to be held tight and protected. I like taking random walks without a clue as to where I'm going. I love watching movies, especially scary ones. I want somebody to look at me, the way nobody has..I want someone to look at me, in a way they've never looked at anybody. I just want somebody to take my face in their hands, look me in the eyes, and for once, tell me that I'm good enough.

Things I've Learned About Life...

1. Happy endings are for fairy tales.
2. Love is a word that gets thrown around and can cause great pain.
3. Promises are meant to be broken.
4. People change.
5. Hopes and dreams are just wishful thinking.
6. You may find the person of your dreams but chances are they've already found theirs.
7. Never listen to anyone.
8. People kill people, not guns.
9. Life is never fair.
10. After all the bullsh** is over, you die.

Hindi mo Masisisi sa Huli

sa buhay-lahat ng bagay pinagsisisihan sa huli-di naman natin alam-kung ano ang mangyayari bukas-pero alam natin na-nagbabago ang tao sa bawat paglipas ng araw at panahon-maaaring dati mahal ka nya ngayon o bukas hindi kana nya mahal-pwede ding hindi ka nya mahal pero maaari ding sa mga susunod na araw-mahal kana nya yun nga lang me iba ka ng mahal-ganyan lang sa mundo-kaya nga sinabing bilog ang mundo dahil umiikot lang ang lahat sa buhay-minsan naiiyak ka-natutuwa at bigla nalang malulungkot-tapos sasaya na naman-ang mahirap lang kase dun-yun bang nasa pahina kayo na nagmamahalan tapos sya namang pagbitaw ng isa sainyo-maaaring ikaw o sya ang umalis at mawala nalang-hindi naman kase natin hawak ang bawat isa-kahit sarili natin-minsan o napapadalas nabibitawan na din natin-sa ibat ibang dahilan-pero ang mahalaga dun-nagkamali ka man sa huli at nagsisi-nung umpisa naman sumaya ka at natutong ngumiti.

You're too Young to know Pain

How can you know what pain is? You're too young to know pain. You're too young to know real hurt."

"Maybe you're right. I don't know pain. I guess sitting by the phone for hours waiting for someone to call, but knowing they won't isnt pain. Crying myself to sleep for hours, because every word they say cuts me worse than the knife that cuts my wrist isnt pain. I guess having my heart ripped out and thrown around every day by someone new isnt pain. Waking up alone every morning and going to sleep alone every night isnt pain. I guess you're right. I'm too young to know pain."

me and someone else

Meaningful Quotes About Love and Life

Ang buhay parang sapatos lang daw yan na matagal mong naSTOCK sa closet-kung kelan gusto mo ng gamitin saka naman to masisira ng kusa.


Minsan ang tao-mapapansin mo-masaya pa lang sya tapos mamaya nyan umiiyak na-ganyan daw talaga kase-minsan kala mo kaya mo pero pag napatunayan mo na-hindi mo pala talaga kaya-kaya hihingi ka ng tulong sa iba-me mga magbibigay ng tulong-me mga magaalok ng tulong at syempre meron din naman mga taong tatanggihan ka.

Mahirap magmahal lalo na yung di mo man lang nasisilayan ang ngiti nya sa mga labi-di mo man lang napapanood na natutuwa sya at ngsasaya dahil me mga bagay na nagpapaligaya sakanya-okay lang sayo yun-basta makita syang masaya kahit hindi ikaw ang dahilan nito.

Hindi mahirap ang buhay-nasasabi lang yan ng mga taong mahina ang loob-pero mas lalong wla namang mahiang loob kase lahat naman nakakaya diba-kung nakaya nya nga-bakit ikaw-syempre kakayanin mo din-tatayo ka lang lagi kapag nadadapa ka na.

Nabuhay daw ang tao para maging maligaya-ginawa daw ang bibig para gamitin sa pagtawa-pero bakit minsan ang buhay nasasaktan din at ang bibig mismo ang nagpapakita na umiiyak din pala ang kaligayahan na gusto mo.

Ang buhay para ding SAYAW -hindi ko kayang sabayan.


Kung sa tingin mo wala akong pakialam sayo dahil nagagawa ko pang kumain at magpakasaya-pwes nagkakamali ka-dahil ayoko na sirain ang buhay ko dahil gusto ko na ako ang mgbibigay ng lakas ng loob sayo para kayanin ang problema mo.


Pano ka matututo sa buhay kung iniiwasan mong madapa-

Wala naman ako ibang hiniling para sayo diba-di ko naman hiniling na sirain mo ang buhay mo dahil lang sa pagmamahal mo sakin-ang gusto ko lang ee ako yung maging dahilan kung bakit ka nagtatagumpay at kung bakit wala kang pinagsisisihan sa disisyon mo.


Hindi dahil walang ngmamahal sayo iisipin mo nang wala kang silbi at wala kang kwenta-mali ka-dahil meron ka pang pinangangalagaan at yun at kahit kelan di ka iiwanan-

ANINO:

Hindi mo ko masisisi kung mawala man ako sa paningin mo sa tuwing susubukan mong magtago sa kadiliman-andun pa rin ako di mo lang makita kase kelangan mo lang akong pakiramdaman.


kahit maging yoyo man ako sa buhay mo-hindi pa rin ako kaylanman mapapagod na magpabalik balik sa buhay mo-alam mo kung bakit? dahil alam ko na sayo lang ako sasaya at di sa ibang tao.

Kaylan pa ako napagod na humingi ng tawad?-kaylan ba ako nagsawa na suyuin ka?-kaylan ba yung araw na pinabayaan kita?-at kaylan ba ako nawala sa buhay mo?kung meron man-hindi ko na matandaan dahil naisantabi ko na ang buhay ko para sa pagmamahal sayo.

Maybe the world would be a little nicer if everyone…

•Stopped just LISTENING to a friend’s problems and started actually CARING about them. Believe me; they’ll be able to tell the difference.

•Said hello to a random stranger. Some people might give you a weird look, but you never know when you’re missing out on meeting someone amazing because of words unspoken.

•Walked away from an argument before they say something they’ll regret later. Once you set your mind to it, it’s not hard to be the bigger person.

•Stopped caring about what everyone else thinks. If you have time to care, then you’re not really living life.

•Didn’t believe what people who DON'T MATTER say. They’re just trying to hurt you, so don’t bother listening.

•Expressed what they feel. Even anger and hurt are better than no emotion at all.

•Apologized when they know they’re wrong. Pride can’t keep you company on a cold night.

•Allowed themselves to love. It’s better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all.

•Complained about their lives less. Everyone has problems, some worse than others, but complaining never solves anything.

•Tried a little harder to achieve their dreams. Because without dreams, what else are we living for?

•Helped someone even when they didn’t ask for it. Sometimes two simple little words like “Help me” becomes the most difficult thing to say.

•Prayed. It doesn’t matter what you say, how you say it, or what god you say it to, as long as you have enough faith left to care and care enough to have faith.

•Just laughed. Laughing is so much more important than we give it credit for.

•Were a bit more optimistic. We make our hell, our heaven too, with how we act, and what we do.

•Had a best friend. Friendship is a precious gift...try not to lose it.

•Moved past the bad things. There are times in life when there isn’t a solution or an explanation, and we have no other choice but to, Just. Move. On.

•Shared their wisdom. The next generation needs guidance just as much as you once did…even if they won’t admit it.

•Stopped with prejudice. Everyone deserves a chance, so give them one.

And maybe YOUR life would be a little brighter if you…

•Stopped sitting here reading this list and actually went out in the world and made a difference. Be worthwhile, make an impact!

Forget About My Gray Day

sometimes i just close my eyes and keep dreaming
it's like im reaching something
that i know in reality it's hard to reach
something that i dont deserve to have
but i know i never had it all
wishing to have another life after death
hoping to make this things works forever
people feel so much disspointment about it
they say that life is hard to have in the world
i can see the stars falling from the sky
The darkness of the midnight doesnt even have a color
It's a dim-a gray day that i have to forget
It's like waiting for the storm to come soon
I never had this things to make easy as easy
I can live as wierd as i can for whatever they call me
I'm nineteen supposed to be i'm just another teenage boy
A boy with another dream that wishing to come true
But how can i ever be the boy who make his dream come true
For the real people who udnerstand me at all
Parents that never be the parents to me
People who live not actig like a real one
Friends who always there when they need me
And a puppy who shall give me strenght to fight
And when the night was still in my day
I do cry everytime i remember those pains and aches
Those beats that sounds from the brain inside my mind
Then tears shall flow into this fragile face
I dont want to live anymore
I dont want to see people and meet then lie again
It's not the world where i dreamed before
This is not a perfect life
and this is not my perfect world..