KOMPLETO KANA, ALL IN ONE KUNG BAGA

ewan ko pero kahit anong gawin ko… di parin talga kita makalimutan… siguro dadating yung araw na muli tayong magkakausap o magkikita.. alam ko… at kahit matagalan payun.. maghihintay ako… mahal na mahal parin kita hanggang ngayon„, kahit ngmahl ako ng iba.. mas matimbang padin yung nararamdaman ko para sayo.. sana kung mababasa mo lang to… gusto ko sabihin sayo na… “mula pa noon hanggang ngayon hindi nagbago to. kase ikaw parin” mahal kita sa di ko maintindihan dahilan… gusto ko ng mabuhay ng di ka iniisip kase mas nahihirapan ako lalo nat wala ng pagasa na magkausap man lang tayo„, actually marami namang dahilan para makita kita at makausap kita… pero natatakot ako.. natatakot akong magreak ka na “dimoko kilala”: kase nga iba ako… iba ako sa lahat ng naging boypren mo… pero kahit kelan di ako nagiba ng minamahal…. di kita pinalitan… kahit maraming beses pa ang dumaan at lumipas„ ikaw at ikaw parin kase ang hinahanap ko.. siguro kase ikaw yung pinakamatagal kong minahal…gusto ko dumating yung araw na… sabihin mo kung bakit ka nagbago„, gusto ko malaman kung bakit nawala ka… kung bakit nablok moko sa facebook… minsan gustong gusto ko magtanong sa mga kaibigan mo tungkol sayo kung kamusta kana pero diko kaya gawin.. nasasaktan ako at nahihirapang malaman na “MAY BAGO KANA” kase alam ko naman na lahat sila deserving para sayo.. lahat sla soguradong iingatan at mamahalin ka ng totoo.. kase para sakin “KOMPLETO KANA, ALL IN ONE KUNG BAGA” namimis kita.. namimis ko yung mga pagtatampo mo sa akin kase lagi akong late sa tagpuan… kase minsan wala akong dalang eggpie which is bukod sa pagdalaw ko isa din yun sa mga nagpapasaya at nagpapaexcite sayo para hintayin ako… gusto ko magsorry sa mga bagay na nagawa kop sayo.. yung pagiging makulit ko„ pagsisinungaling ko para lang makaonline ng madaing araw.. na minsan di ko maiwasang magkagusto sa iba kahit alam kong meron naman akong “IKAW” [ara ingatan mahalin at pahalagaha.. gusto ko balang araw magamit ko ulet ang mga linyang sayo ko lang nasabi… yung mga bagay na sayo ko lang ginawa… at yung pagmamahal na sayo kong lang binigay ng tama.. gusto ko makita ka… hindi ko naman din hinihiling na mabalik sa dati ang lahat alam mo kung ano lang ang gusto ko… yung umpisahan ko na magpakakaibigan lang sayo… gusto kase kitang alalayan sa lahat ng bagay.. alam ko may mga bagay ako na di [wedeng ibigay sayo.. pero alam mo yung di kayang ibigay ng iba na ako lang me kakayahan? ” yun yung MANATILI SAYO kahit may iba kana.. :’(

Somebody Who’s worth Waiting For

Sometimes when I’m walking with people and see a couples around I felt so lonely inside my heart… wishing that I also had someone to be with, walking in this hallway… and it breaks my heart knowing that “I don’t have it” … it felt sad because nobody knows how much I missed to have a feeling like what they've had… what kind of feeling when you falls in love.. that you wish you have someone who hold a hands while walking, that feeling when you can’t stop smiling every time when your with her and even when you can’t see her you see her everywhere,,, that feeling when you don’t want to stop that day... because you know tomorrow will never be the same again… maybe tomorrow she shouldn't feel the same way like you do… and then you’ll realize “she’s no longer there” that feeling even when your home and even before you go to sleep… you still can find time just to think about her.. you wonder what she doing right now… to mesmerize every moment you made together… that flashback the memories you shared together… and your afraid to stop that kind of feeling… but you know you can’t hold it forever… to have someone who makes your life alive… who brings joy to your life.. who paints color to your paintings… who you make a hug when you miss each other… who your with in a photograph… that someone you’ll make as a princes in your own palace… a queen of your heart and an angel comes from above… you want to be with that someone… and sometimes you don’t wish for a perfect partner but someone who can’t live without you and who’s willing to stay with you FOREVER…and you know what’s worst about having like this? It’s knowing that “FOREVER ISNT REAL” and you can’t do anything… you never stop reminding  how much she makes your whole wide world change... how much you cherish every moment with her.. And how much you want to spend the rest of your life with her….you wish to have somebody to love… somebody who’s worth waiting for...