KOMPLETO KANA, ALL IN ONE KUNG BAGA

ewan ko pero kahit anong gawin ko… di parin talga kita makalimutan… siguro dadating yung araw na muli tayong magkakausap o magkikita.. alam ko… at kahit matagalan payun.. maghihintay ako… mahal na mahal parin kita hanggang ngayon„, kahit ngmahl ako ng iba.. mas matimbang padin yung nararamdaman ko para sayo.. sana kung mababasa mo lang to… gusto ko sabihin sayo na… “mula pa noon hanggang ngayon hindi nagbago to. kase ikaw parin” mahal kita sa di ko maintindihan dahilan… gusto ko ng mabuhay ng di ka iniisip kase mas nahihirapan ako lalo nat wala ng pagasa na magkausap man lang tayo„, actually marami namang dahilan para makita kita at makausap kita… pero natatakot ako.. natatakot akong magreak ka na “dimoko kilala”: kase nga iba ako… iba ako sa lahat ng naging boypren mo… pero kahit kelan di ako nagiba ng minamahal…. di kita pinalitan… kahit maraming beses pa ang dumaan at lumipas„ ikaw at ikaw parin kase ang hinahanap ko.. siguro kase ikaw yung pinakamatagal kong minahal…gusto ko dumating yung araw na… sabihin mo kung bakit ka nagbago„, gusto ko malaman kung bakit nawala ka… kung bakit nablok moko sa facebook… minsan gustong gusto ko magtanong sa mga kaibigan mo tungkol sayo kung kamusta kana pero diko kaya gawin.. nasasaktan ako at nahihirapang malaman na “MAY BAGO KANA” kase alam ko naman na lahat sila deserving para sayo.. lahat sla soguradong iingatan at mamahalin ka ng totoo.. kase para sakin “KOMPLETO KANA, ALL IN ONE KUNG BAGA” namimis kita.. namimis ko yung mga pagtatampo mo sa akin kase lagi akong late sa tagpuan… kase minsan wala akong dalang eggpie which is bukod sa pagdalaw ko isa din yun sa mga nagpapasaya at nagpapaexcite sayo para hintayin ako… gusto ko magsorry sa mga bagay na nagawa kop sayo.. yung pagiging makulit ko„ pagsisinungaling ko para lang makaonline ng madaing araw.. na minsan di ko maiwasang magkagusto sa iba kahit alam kong meron naman akong “IKAW” [ara ingatan mahalin at pahalagaha.. gusto ko balang araw magamit ko ulet ang mga linyang sayo ko lang nasabi… yung mga bagay na sayo ko lang ginawa… at yung pagmamahal na sayo kong lang binigay ng tama.. gusto ko makita ka… hindi ko naman din hinihiling na mabalik sa dati ang lahat alam mo kung ano lang ang gusto ko… yung umpisahan ko na magpakakaibigan lang sayo… gusto kase kitang alalayan sa lahat ng bagay.. alam ko may mga bagay ako na di [wedeng ibigay sayo.. pero alam mo yung di kayang ibigay ng iba na ako lang me kakayahan? ” yun yung MANATILI SAYO kahit may iba kana.. :’(

Somebody Who’s worth Waiting For

Sometimes when I’m walking with people and see a couples around I felt so lonely inside my heart… wishing that I also had someone to be with, walking in this hallway… and it breaks my heart knowing that “I don’t have it” … it felt sad because nobody knows how much I missed to have a feeling like what they've had… what kind of feeling when you falls in love.. that you wish you have someone who hold a hands while walking, that feeling when you can’t stop smiling every time when your with her and even when you can’t see her you see her everywhere,,, that feeling when you don’t want to stop that day... because you know tomorrow will never be the same again… maybe tomorrow she shouldn't feel the same way like you do… and then you’ll realize “she’s no longer there” that feeling even when your home and even before you go to sleep… you still can find time just to think about her.. you wonder what she doing right now… to mesmerize every moment you made together… that flashback the memories you shared together… and your afraid to stop that kind of feeling… but you know you can’t hold it forever… to have someone who makes your life alive… who brings joy to your life.. who paints color to your paintings… who you make a hug when you miss each other… who your with in a photograph… that someone you’ll make as a princes in your own palace… a queen of your heart and an angel comes from above… you want to be with that someone… and sometimes you don’t wish for a perfect partner but someone who can’t live without you and who’s willing to stay with you FOREVER…and you know what’s worst about having like this? It’s knowing that “FOREVER ISNT REAL” and you can’t do anything… you never stop reminding  how much she makes your whole wide world change... how much you cherish every moment with her.. And how much you want to spend the rest of your life with her….you wish to have somebody to love… somebody who’s worth waiting for...

I was asked awhile ago by someone if I regretted everything that has happened

I was asked awhile ago by someone if I regretted everything that has happened. I said no. I don’t regret anything, especially any relationship, no matter how badly it may have ended. What we learn from those relationships is what makes it all worth while. We learn how to laugh, and how to have a true smile. One of those smiles you only get when you know you’re holding one of the most important people in the world, at least they are to you. You learn how to fall in love, and what love really means. There is no greater feeling in the world than being in love. It’s like every little piece of your life finally fits perfectly, and you realize what you were missing all those years, even though you never realized it. The thing about love is you know when you’re in love. No one is going to tell you, and you’re not going to question it or wonder if you really are. It’s not a maybe thing; it’s definite. You learn how to trust someone with your heart, though you know they’ll probably end up breaking it. But it’s the heartbreaks that we learn the most from. We learn that if you truly love someone, sometimes you have to let them go, even though they were your whole world, even if it was for just a short while. You learn that it is impossible to forget what you had, even years later. There’s something always in the back of your mind, especially with your first true love. You find yourself sub-consciously comparing everyone you’re with to that person that you fell for first. But the most important lesson you learn from relationships is how to forgive. This is also one of the hardest lessons, because you have every excuse in the world to never talk to them, or forgive them. You gave them your whole heart, and they handed it back in pieces, without glue to fix it. But the thing is, it will stay broken until you learn how to forgive them. You never really heal and move on unless you forgive them, and until you can, you will blame future loves for things that the last person did. So this is why I never regret anything I’ve done, or any relationship I’ve had. I would never trade the months of indescribable happiness for anything, even knowing the heartache that ended those blissful months. Because if you’ve never had a broken heart, then you can never really know what it’s like to be so in love, that nothing else in the world matters. And it is totally worth it.

A Lost and Bitter Soul, Longing for Someone to Prove you Wrong

I don’t have many friends. Alot of people that I talk to, that I say hello to. But I don’t consider any of them friends. Friends implies that you know something about that person, that you trust that person. But time and time again, you find out that even though you may think this, there will always be that one that will make you regret it. Because though your enemies may be able to maim you, you can only be betrayed by someone you trusted, right? And when you’ve been fooled into thinking otherwise for as many times as I have, you start to let it affect you. You start to question everything and everyone, until you no longer know who you can trust. And then, in one last resort to keep your heart, your soul, from breaking from the so many knives thats been put through it, when you lose all faith and the good of humanity, and that the world is all evil You become what I have. A lost and bitter soul, longing for someone to prove you wrong.

My Adiction to you Makes Me Feel Happy for A Week

And here I am, thinking about you. It's amazing how my mind can spend hours, even days, thinking in what you said, what you did, where you went, what little smile you gave me :) that's the best memory, you made me feel like there was a fire inside me. During minutes, hours, days and nights I think about u. It's just like an addiction, with the difference that real adictions make u feel horrible, but my adiction to you makes me feel happy for a week...
I know that probably u haven't thought of me for a looong time, but you should know that I don't; I spend my whole day thinkin of you, so I guess the only thing I can do is hope someday you'll love me as much as I do!!!

We Cannot Force Ourselves to Love, Just as we cannot Force Another to Love Us.

why? why do we fall for those who cant catch us, and ignore those who love us. why do we cry over those who only mean to cause us pain, and waste our time on someone who is just trying to bring us down. we cannot force ourselves to love, just as we cannot force another to love us. we can only be someone who is capable of being loved. who you need to be with isn't always the hottest girl or the the one that girl everyone would die to be with. Maybe sometimes the people that we are really meant to be with are the ones that make us smile. the ones that we can share awkward silences with. Maybe we are supposed to be with the one who is so wrong for us that it makes it right. someone who makes us see them for who they really are. I think that we need to accept that our princess may not be what we expected and that maybe... just maybe shes a little bit more ...

DEAR CHILD

Dear child,

Breathe deeply,
Blink away those tears
Step forward
Open your eyes
And walk away from the pain.

I know, its great. It’s a great pain.
The memories, they are precious to you.
Even though that’s all they are,
I know they mean more to you than almost anything.

I know you’re trying to decide between what’s best for you and what you want.
But I promise that if you give it a chance, the one who is better for you will end up being what you want.
I know, it’s difficult.
Each step will hurt like hell,
Because you’re walking away from everything you once believed in.
Walking away from the one you loved.

But there is nothing for you there.
Not anymore.
It’s best to close the door gently as you walk away.
Don’t slam it.
Bitterness isn’t the way to go.
Just slip away into the sunlight.
You shine on your own,
But its time you let the world see you,
And let the sun warm your skin.

You always loved to dance in the rain.
Keep dancing.
You’re good at smiling through the storm.
Even through all the heartbreak,
You never stopped giving hope to everyone else.

You got a little weary.
It’s affected you, certainly.
You’ve cried so many times.
Those bruises on this heart of yours?
They’re a faded yellow,
But I know it seems as though they’ll never fade.

But they will.
Only if you let them.
I know you feel like running away.
Like sinking into the shadows,
To escape the world and all its pain right now.

But what you need to do…
Baby girl, you know this new guy…
He loves you for you.
He loves you,
And  he won’t give up on you.
Run into his arms.
Sink into his love for you.
Show yourself to him.
He wants to see you
To know you.

Breathe deeply,
Blink away those tears
Step forward
Open your eyes
And walk away from the pain.

Because he’ll be there,
With his arms spread wide,
A smile on his face,
So happy to see that you’ve finally come ‘round.

Love,
Your Heart.

Mas Nakakabuti Kung Wag Mo na Muna Syang Ilagay Sa Isip Mo

eto naman siguro yung tamang oras para isipin mo naman din yung sarili mo-tama na yung minsan na pagasa mo sa isang taong alam mo namang di mapapasayo-tama na sa paghihintay sa isang tao na-hindi naman dadating sa buhay mo-magpakatotoo ka-minsan kelangan din natin maranasan masaktan at magkamali sa buhay-hindi ibig sabihin na-araw araw ka ng magiging ganun-kelangan mo din naman syempre lumangoy hindi yung hahayaan mo nalang na anurin ka ng dagat patungo kung san-sa mga lugar na di mo naman alam kung ano ang mapapala mo-tao ka din naman diba-mas nakakabuti siguro na-wag mo na munag isipin yung nakakabuti para sakanya-hayaan mo naman yung sarili mo na isipin din kung san ka talga magiging masaya-pero nasaktan ka diba-naranasan mo kung gaano kasakit ang umasa at magmahal sa isang taong mali- pero isipin mo-pano naman magiging mali yun diba-kung tiyak mo naman na tama yung nararamdaman mo para sa taong yun-hindi ka naman duwag kung hahayaan mo syang mawala-ang akin lamang ee-wag mong sagarin ang sarili mo-kilala mopaba ang sarili mo?harap ka sa salamin at tanungin mo yung taong kaharap mo sa mga oras na yun-makikilala mo kung sino at ano kaba talga-normal lang sa buhay masaktan-mas mabuting gagawin mo ee-gawin mong inspirasyon yung mga taong ayaw sayo-galit sayo-at yung mga taong di makita ang kakayahan mo-masarap mabuhay sa mundo-kung malalaman mo lang kung gaano kasaya kapag ka nabubuhay ng nakakangiti ka ng malaya-siguradong aayawn mo ng mamatay at pumanaw sa mundo-pare pareho tayong tao-sa mundo-hindi ka lang sasaya kundi ppatak pa ang luha mo dahil alam mong-nagawa mo ng tama yung mga mali mo noon-kelangan mo din matuto sa buhay-lahat ng tricks malalaman mo kapag kusa mong pinagaralan yun.. at ang wag na wag mong ggawin sa sarili mo ee-WAG KA MAGSISINUNGALING SA SARILI MO-yan lang ang pinakamabisang paraan para maging masaya ka.

The Best Thing Happen To Me Is Knowing That She love Me too

Sweet Conversation

Girl: I think I like you
Boy: You think? I think you must be mistaken.
Girl: no, I like you
Boy: I don’t think you like me. I think you like the company. I think you like the conversations we have. I think you like that someone listens. You like the feeling that someone is always there for you. But should you remove me from the equation and place someone else in my spot, you would feel the same way. So you see, you like the feeling but not ME.
Girl: Please don’t tell me what I feel. I like you…in fact, I love you.
Boy: Would you do me a favour?
Girl: Anything
Boy: I want you to close your eyes and imagine the following. Imagine yourself in 10 years. I want you to imagine how you look in 10 years. What kind of clothes will you wear. I want you to imagine where you will be working in 10 years. I want you to imagine your family and how they look. I want you to imagine your future car. I want you to imagine your kids on a Saturday afternoon as they play in the backyard. I want you to imagine their first bike ride. I want you to get it all in there. Imagine your house, furniture, everything. I want you to imagine your life.
Okay can you see it all in front of you?
Girl: yeah, I see it.
Boy: Now, did you see me anywhere in there?
Girl: yes I did.
Boy: and where would that be?
Girl: Well, obviously you were right there with the kids…after all you are their father!!!!
Boy: (long pause) I love you too.