I can sit here with you forever

I can sit here with you forever. I don't need to touch you. I don't need to hear your voice. I don't even have to look at you. As long as I know that you are here besides me. If I can smell your scent that I've grown to adore more than that of roses, hear you breathe and feel your warmth in the air around me, I'll be happy all my life...

HOW ANGELS SLEEP

Unsoundly. They toss and turn, trying to understand the mystery of the living. They know so little about what it's like to fill a new prescription for glasses and suddenly see the world again, with a mixture of disappointment and gratitude ... Also, they don't dream. For this reason, they have one less thing to talk about. In a backward way, when they wake up they feel as if there is something they are forgetting to tell each other. There is disagreement among the angels as to whether this is a result of something vestigial, or whether it is the result of the empathy they feel for the Living, so powerful it sometimes makes them weep. In general, they fall into these two camps on the subject of dreams. Even among the angels, there is the sadness of division.

Life??? that is the true question...

I feel myself slipping more and more every year now. I don't know why i feel the way I do about myself. I just have so much hate in me towards myself. Why I ask myself many times, am I now happy with my life. I'm still waiting for the answer to this day. My past delt with my overcoming my epilpsy disorder which cause me to miss out on most of my life. Two years after the surgery were the toughest. I was glad not to be sick anymore, but yet i felt so empty and alone in this world. The few years after that things were good. I went back to school and am now working a nice job. But for some reason last year I suddenly felt the sadness slowly coming back. I feel that this time it is stronger than it every was before. I've spoken with my doctor and he just says that I have been putting to much on my plate and that i need to relax and try to enjoy life. Prehaps he's right, but Im starting to fear that this sadness may one day overtake me. Ive recently screwed up my relationship I had with a great girl. I think to myself alot as to why am I here, what is my purpose. I know that I have not completed my mission here since I have come close to death a few times but yet I still survived. I'll continue writing more later, I could probably write a book with all i have to say........ Life??? that is the true question...

Tama na sa Pagiyak

Naisip mo na ba na sayang ang luha mo
Dahil sa mga walang kwentang bagay at taong iniiyakan mo
kelan ba nagamot ng luha ang sugat?
Hindi naman diba kaya tama na sa pagiyak
at tama na sa lungkot na lagi mong dinadamayan

Wag kang makinig sa mga sinasabi nila
Wag mong husgahan pati sariling kakayanan
Alam mong tama ka ngunit silay pinakikinggan pa
Hindi naman masama na ikay ngmahal lamang
kaya tama na sa pagiyak at pagmukmok jan

Isang malakas na halakhak ang dapat mong gawin
Bitawan mo ang salitang; hindi ko kayang mawala sya
Dahil hinding hindi ka talga sasaya sa dahilan na yun
Yung tinitibok ng puso mo ikanta mo
Yung sinisigaw ng utak mo isigaw mo tama na sa pagiyak

Hindi ba maganda ka naman
Hindi ba me mga kakayanan ka din naman
Mga bagay na wala sakanya na meron ka
Mga katangian na taglay mo na wala sakanila
Kaya tama na sa pagiyak ngumiti ka nalang kaya

Ayan,dahil sa kagustuhan mong sumaya
Unti unti mo ng naibubuka ang mga labi mo
Unti unti mo ng nilalagyan ng paru paru ang mga mata mo
Sikapin mong makuha ang mga bagay na ayaw ng iba
Pagkat hindi lahat ng tinapon ay wala ng kwenta
Tama na sa pagiyak at hayaan mong mawala ang lahat
hayaan mong problema at alinlangan ay mabura
Upang ang iyong kaligayahan ang syang sumakop sayong kaluluwa
tahan na wag ka ng umiyak at sayang ang luha mo

I'm human, I make mistakes.

I'm human, I make mistakes. I've done things I'm not proud of and I have regrets. Im insecure and at times not very confident. I tend to be shy and reserved at times, but there are also times I'm outspoken and a little crazy. I've been hurt and I've been lied to time and time again, and I don't trust easy. I'm scared of falling again; afraid that the minute I start to fall, I'll end up on the ground again,asking myself, why I keep letting this happen. I'm by no means perfect, and neither is my family. In fact, my family's a little screwed up at times, and sometimes, they hurt me. I hate when people pretend to be something they're not around me. I'm stubborn. I'm judgemental. I'm not the brightest person in the world and I'm sure you can do better. But know that I'm also,curious, looking to experience things I have yet to experience. I like to sing and I want to dance in the middle of the street without any music. I love to laugh and have fun. I want to be kissed in the rain. I want to be held tight and protected. I like taking random walks without a clue as to where I'm going. I love watching movies, especially scary ones. I want somebody to look at me, the way nobody has..I want someone to look at me, in a way they've never looked at anybody. I just want somebody to take my face in their hands, look me in the eyes, and for once, tell me that I'm good enough.

Things I've Learned About Life...

1. Happy endings are for fairy tales.
2. Love is a word that gets thrown around and can cause great pain.
3. Promises are meant to be broken.
4. People change.
5. Hopes and dreams are just wishful thinking.
6. You may find the person of your dreams but chances are they've already found theirs.
7. Never listen to anyone.
8. People kill people, not guns.
9. Life is never fair.
10. After all the bullsh** is over, you die.

Hindi mo Masisisi sa Huli

sa buhay-lahat ng bagay pinagsisisihan sa huli-di naman natin alam-kung ano ang mangyayari bukas-pero alam natin na-nagbabago ang tao sa bawat paglipas ng araw at panahon-maaaring dati mahal ka nya ngayon o bukas hindi kana nya mahal-pwede ding hindi ka nya mahal pero maaari ding sa mga susunod na araw-mahal kana nya yun nga lang me iba ka ng mahal-ganyan lang sa mundo-kaya nga sinabing bilog ang mundo dahil umiikot lang ang lahat sa buhay-minsan naiiyak ka-natutuwa at bigla nalang malulungkot-tapos sasaya na naman-ang mahirap lang kase dun-yun bang nasa pahina kayo na nagmamahalan tapos sya namang pagbitaw ng isa sainyo-maaaring ikaw o sya ang umalis at mawala nalang-hindi naman kase natin hawak ang bawat isa-kahit sarili natin-minsan o napapadalas nabibitawan na din natin-sa ibat ibang dahilan-pero ang mahalaga dun-nagkamali ka man sa huli at nagsisi-nung umpisa naman sumaya ka at natutong ngumiti.

Maybe the world would be a little nicer if everyone…

•Stopped just LISTENING to a friend’s problems and started actually CARING about them. Believe me; they’ll be able to tell the difference.

•Said hello to a random stranger. Some people might give you a weird look, but you never know when you’re missing out on meeting someone amazing because of words unspoken.

•Walked away from an argument before they say something they’ll regret later. Once you set your mind to it, it’s not hard to be the bigger person.

•Stopped caring about what everyone else thinks. If you have time to care, then you’re not really living life.

•Didn’t believe what people who DON'T MATTER say. They’re just trying to hurt you, so don’t bother listening.

•Expressed what they feel. Even anger and hurt are better than no emotion at all.

•Apologized when they know they’re wrong. Pride can’t keep you company on a cold night.

•Allowed themselves to love. It’s better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all.

•Complained about their lives less. Everyone has problems, some worse than others, but complaining never solves anything.

•Tried a little harder to achieve their dreams. Because without dreams, what else are we living for?

•Helped someone even when they didn’t ask for it. Sometimes two simple little words like “Help me” becomes the most difficult thing to say.

•Prayed. It doesn’t matter what you say, how you say it, or what god you say it to, as long as you have enough faith left to care and care enough to have faith.

•Just laughed. Laughing is so much more important than we give it credit for.

•Were a bit more optimistic. We make our hell, our heaven too, with how we act, and what we do.

•Had a best friend. Friendship is a precious gift...try not to lose it.

•Moved past the bad things. There are times in life when there isn’t a solution or an explanation, and we have no other choice but to, Just. Move. On.

•Shared their wisdom. The next generation needs guidance just as much as you once did…even if they won’t admit it.

•Stopped with prejudice. Everyone deserves a chance, so give them one.

And maybe YOUR life would be a little brighter if you…

•Stopped sitting here reading this list and actually went out in the world and made a difference. Be worthwhile, make an impact!

The Pain that Kills my Everyday

It still hurt for me about everything in my past
Even though a months ago it was still there,still here.
And until now nothing will change and never be change.
The feeling inside of me will never be the same again.
I'm in love. yeah,for someone i never know who she is.
I'm in love with someone that never care for me anymore.

 
The pain was still here,and it never change.
It really hurts for me that everyday i'm dying inside.
I wanna be happy again-but the wound is still clear in my soul
Too much pain i tried to fight after all the things done.
That the best happen to me before are the worst moment i have to suffer.
I'm in love for someone that doesnt even care me at all.

 
The pain and too much scars i need to cover
That in every morning i wake up with so much regrets.
No one can come with me to tell that she loved me more.
Nothing can be celebrate about a monthsary or aniversary.
The time that i spend so much for her was all done now.
That the time i have to recieve can never replays,anymore.


The pain was still kills me inside my soul
My body is like a drunk man that poison by somebody else
The person that i didnt even know about,dont know.
And it take me millions of pain enter in my souls.
But even if the pain kills me i am still fighting,i do.
Fighting for the no reason to be win for..

Someday I'll Find my Perfect Escape

I was here lying in my bed all alone.
Listening for the quiet music Ive never been hear.
I am here so close again waiting for the morning after dark.
Thinking about everything that i know it never come

And I know it will never happen again
Because people dragging me down
People disagree,
People disapprove,
People doesn't have care at all

They didn't know what i am waiting
Nobody understand what i am supposed to tell.
Things change just like how people do,
I suddenly close my eyes with tears
Remembering all those memory brings me into a cruel life,

The pain that never erase inside my soul,
Those heartaches that i wish I'm dead to take it out from me,
A year ago,
a month,
thousands of yesterday,
the past hours,
the minutes,
and the seconds of the life.

I know now that life is imperfect
And the world seems so unfair
I promise to myself
Someday I'll find my perfect escape,
It's true that if you really wanted to get something you want,

You have to learn to sacrifice,
to get hurt,
to be in pain,
and to let your life have Scars
and the wound shall be allowed to heal,
but life seems so unfair,that's why people judged lord,
and ask for everything to be perfect even if everybody know

Nobody is perfect,
I am twenty but i am very disappointed to myself,
Disappointed for everything who seen by my eyes,
I hold my head and promise everything,
I promise someday I'll find my perfect escape,

The perfect place where no ones feel the pain,
No time that need to be wasted,
No wounded can have scars,
No people with teary eyes,
It's a perfect place to me,

It's perfect room where i always stay everyday of my life,
The place where i can find the next door of my life,
The door that we can knock someday and leave behind,
It's  gone now,
Everything is gone forever.
Love dies,Memories are fade and people die.

A Life of Being Weak

It was a tuesday when i got in our school,
I'm wearing stripes long sleeve with chaleco,
wearing eyeglasses,
The hair that never brush after waking up in the morning
But it looks weird and everybody looked at me
While i am still around-a vans shoes
And i domo kun back pack.
I am look so emo or just like korean guy
But i swear i may inspired taking photos like how uzzlangs pose
I'm a frustrated model of myself of my own arts
And my own magazine.funny ryt?but if you saw me,
You will see a sad face drawed in my face-a mask
And a reaction where nobody read and nobody understand.
I swear i am weird all th time that i speak time to time
Those wierd words or trashtalks
That why most of the people doesnt even try to talk to me
Or ask anything-expect some phylosophical answer from my words.
I had a wide mind,i'm not smart o a genius lets just say-
I speak what my brains told me.
My mum is always busy with her business-
A lot of business thats why she didnt have time
To check wheather im still there or im lost again-
My father is a servant from my mothers justice-
Whenever i am alone in my room-i just stay inside-
Lock the door,
Listening to the BLUE OCTOBER and JAMESTOWN STORY songs-
While writing peotry or sketching.
I act as if im emo but i am not totally emo-
Whenever i feel sad and disgusted with myself-
I feel relax-didnt want eat,
Didnt want to see people around me,
Didnt want to listen
Or heard noise sounds,
Or see pethetic one-
I dont like everybody-
I dont want everyone to be with me-
I just wanted to be needed
By someone who didnt ever know me.

Emo Alone

Sometimes i wanted to be alone and never talk to anyone else not just i dont like people but because i dont want them to take me away from the things i wanted to stay.

Emo Drawing2

i wrote your name in the sand and always ask if you will be forever to me, how you will be happy when we are together,i love you and thats the best i could ever tells you

Emo Drawing1

the worst thing you can do is make me fall for you,with no intention of catching me.

Emo Sketch