A Lost and Bitter Soul, Longing for Someone to Prove you Wrong

I don’t have many friends. Alot of people that I talk to, that I say hello to. But I don’t consider any of them friends. Friends implies that you know something about that person, that you trust that person. But time and time again, you find out that even though you may think this, there will always be that one that will make you regret it. Because though your enemies may be able to maim you, you can only be betrayed by someone you trusted, right? And when you’ve been fooled into thinking otherwise for as many times as I have, you start to let it affect you. You start to question everything and everyone, until you no longer know who you can trust. And then, in one last resort to keep your heart, your soul, from breaking from the so many knives thats been put through it, when you lose all faith and the good of humanity, and that the world is all evil You become what I have. A lost and bitter soul, longing for someone to prove you wrong.

To Cherish Every Moment With You

im inlove with you.you dont know how much i love you, how much i shake when i walk in the street while reading your messages on my phone. and i save all of our online conversations..i feel a smile slip on my face at the sound of your name...i think about you most of the time. when i go to bed i cant help but fallin love with you again and again, i cherish every moment that we spend time together because im scared that one day it will never happen again. and everytime you walks in my mind i keep on singing a song title "i miss you like crazy". i dont know but this is really what i feel for you.  you are the first person i look for when i enter a room and i fall asleep to the memory of your face.. you're breathtaking and ive never seen such a gergoeous smile; but like i said, im inlove with you.

You will always be the answer, when somebody asks me what I'm thinking about.

Love is Like Waiting for A Bus

I was standing in the bus stop at my place waiting for a bus to going somewhere.. After a couple of minutes, I saw a bus coming.
When the bus came, I looked at it and said to myself, “eeee… so full…cannot sit down one”, “I’ll wait for the next one.”

So I let the bus go and waited for the second bus. Then the second bus came, I looked at it and said, “eeee…this bus so old… surely very uncomfortable one.” So I let the second bus go and decided to wait for the next bus.

After a while, another bus came. It’s not crowded and not old but I said, “eeee… no air-condition one…and the weather is so warm, better wait for the next one. So again I let the bus go and decided to wait for the next bus. Then the sky started to get dark as it is getting late. I panicked and jumped on to the next coming bus. It is not until much later that I found out that I had boarded on to the wrong bus! Got down at some appropriate stop and hired a taxi payed him thrice the money and finally reached, Thus I wasted my time and money waiting for what I want! Even if an air-conditioned bus would have come next, can I ensure that the air-conditioned bus won’t break down or will the air-conditioned be working fine?

So people.. I want to make sure that what We Want Is Not Wrong. But it wouldn’t hurt to give other people a chance, right? If I find that the “bus” doesn’t suit me, I would just press the red button and get off the bus! But wait…I am sure all of us have this experienced this before. I saw a bus coming (the bus I want of course), I flagged at it and the driver acted blur by pretending not seeing Me and zoomed pass !

The bottom line of being loved is like waiting for a bus and whether I want to get on the bus and give the bus a chance depends totally on Me and walking alone is just like being out of love If you love someone set him/her free. If he/she comes back to you, you know they are yours. If they don’t then it was never meant to be. Remember to always say what You mean. If you love someone, tell. Don’t be afraid to express it yourself. Reach out and tell someone what he or she means to You. Because when you decide that it is the right time, it might be too late. Seize the day. Never have regrets.

When you Scream Like Someone just Died

Youv tried your best to let go something you loved so much. And you let it go , closing those tearful eyes. You try to look the other the way. You try to let the feeling go. But the feeling takes control of you. You cant look away. And when you look back to the thing you loved. You wondered why you waited so long. Your face looked bright. You heard the flapping of the wings behind you. You knew it came back. But when you look back, its gone. The organisim that you used to love is gone. You regret letting the thing go. You cry for it to come back. You pound your head, you scrath youself, you tear out your flesh partley, you scream like someone just died....... but whatever you do it doesnt come back. You forgot how it looks. You forget the sound of the flapping wings. All you think about is how its doing in the cruel world. So whatever you do dont let something precious go. Or you will die of dreppesion.

There's Always Gonna be that One Boy

theres always gonna be that one guy. you know. that boy who could make you smile no matter how pissed you were at your best friend. the one who you could stay up all night texting and go to school the next day surving on an hour or two of sleep. the boy who warms your heart .... and your body by sharing his big, cumfy hoodies. the boy whos smile touches you deeply, and laugh you love to listen to. theres always that one boy who you turn to. the one boy you could hold hands with 24/7. the boy you get in trouble for, because you just HAD to sneak out to see him. the boy who kisses you just right, and you fit so perfectly in his arms. theres always gonna be that ONE boy who has to turn his back. no matter how much love you give him, he gives up. theres always gonna be that one boy who hurts you so bad you go numb. that one boy you can't get over... there's always gonna be that one boy.

Does heaven have a phone number?

Mommy went to heaven but I need her here today.My tummy hurts and I fell down;I need her right away.Operator, can you tell me how to find her in this book? Is heaven in the yellow part? I don't know where to look.I think my daddy needs her too,

at night I hear him cry. I hear him call her name sometimes, but I really don't know why. Maybe if I call her, she will hurry home to me. Is heaven very far away? Is it across the sea? She's been gone a long, long time- she needs to come home now! I really need to reach her. I simply don't know how. Help me find the number, please.

Is it listed under "heaven"? I can't read these big, big words; I am only seven. I'm sorry, operator, I didn't mean to make you cry. Is your tummy hurting too-- or is there something in your eye? If I call my church maybe they will know. Mommy said when we need help that's where we should go. I found the number to my church tacked up on the wall. Thank you, operator I'll give them a call. I cried so much

A Friend’s Promise

 if you need to talk,i'll listen.
if you need to cry,i'll hold you.
if you feel lost,i'll help guide you.
if you need to be angry,i'll let you.
if youre feeling afraid,i'll conmfort you.
if youre feeling attacked,i'll be your defense.
if you need to lean awhile,ill gve you a shoulder.
if youre feeling unsure,ill be your confidence.
if your feeling alone,ill be the friend who wont leave you.
if you need to learn to trust again,ill prove to you that you can.

A Big Dream for this Complicated World

I didn't talk to the people behind our home and it takes 2 weeks ago before I've been in a happy mood. There are people i lived with inside the apartment. But I think I am not belong to stay there. I wake up early in the morning just to go to my office to work hard. I cook my owned food and prepared for my lunch,,,i should eat first before i came out here. wanting and missing my mom that before when i wake up in the morning the food is ready i just have to sit and then eat in the dining area,unlike now that id be very dependent man in my life. Ive been office for how many year maybe i was 2 years in our company. The last time that i eat real food is last 3weeks ago and it was my dad's birthday. We flight for the province because of this kinds of celebrations.But im with myself,always,eveyrday and forever. I know that everybody doesnt deserve me in theier lives that one day I need to be left from them as one of their companion. Me with myself this time,I'm in work. making a multi tasking. Thinking about my future, my dreams, my family and my life.. People always notice my being silence. Someobdy say 'hey,are you talking?'but i just ignore them. Me with myself alone forever. I eat alone in the table and nobody was there to cooked me a food-to serve me a plate with real food. I miss those moments when my mom only call me just to eat and then after awhile.nothing. i just stay in my room, i'm not watching television much. most of the time i was in my room, writing, sketching and then listening to the saddest song ever. It was me with a scars in my foot a signs of the chance while i was in a coma before. 2010 when i start to go far away from my parents, i should have to leave and then find my own escape. This is me the man who has a big dream for this complicated world. When i was in a flight, I think about everything in my past life, specially when i was a little kids playing is the only thing i know. I didnt meant to hurt this feelings of mine but i cant control the falling tears from ym eyes. I cried a little bit, a little more wanting to go back in my past life being child. I'm twenty now a big man with a big dream. I asked myself: 'i'm a big man now,I look mature now but why is it still hard to reach my dreams?' and then i get my bag to get a drinks. I'm thirst, i never thought that its goin to be a complicated life for me. When my mom and my dad asking me to catch their dreams.I said yes.I want it. and I can make it.I know. But when i was there,i realize, its really hard. Not all the things ive seen using my eyes i will get, most of them, are needed to work harder to get that things. It's not like writing in a bond of a paper and then when you think its wrong you can erase it but life is so much harder than i know. Right now, Im asking god to take care of me, to guide me whenver and wherever i will be. I didnt talk for a long time and this silence means everything to me.,this silence was the loudest cry i made and this silence is the only way to defeat from the enimies and hates,I know this life and I got it in my Dreams..
to be continue...

MARK LEE WORDS

MARK LEE WORDS

1. Every day, I look back in and think 'look how far I've come'. That's what keeps me going.
2. the people you take for granted , are the ones you will miss the most.
3. Remember: "You are the writer of your own story, other people help you to open the next page."
4. Never be afraid to try something new because life gets boring when you stay within the limits of what you already knew.
5. A broken promises is as good as a lie
6. Life’s not about people who act true to your face. It’s about people who remain true behind your back.
7. people ask me why it's so hard to trust people,and i ask them why is it so hard to keep a promise
8. sometimes all you can do is walk away, hide your tears, and just pretend you're okay
9. i'm not sure what scares me more, that you will never start loving me or that i will never stop loving you.
10. to be old and wise, you must first have to be young and stupid
11. Silence is a boys loudest cry
12. Sometimes we expect more from others, cause we would be willing to do that much for them..
13. It's funny how in the end, you always go back, to the ones that have been there from the very beginning-just like how you treated your mom..
14. sometimes, I wish you'd pay more attention to my favorite
15. songs because the lyrics sing words i'm too scared to say.
16. dear Past, thanks for all the lessons. dear Future, I'm ready.
17. find something worth dying for, then live for it....

The Perfect Place To Say Goodbye

It's the last day i will meet the morning
The last fresh air that can hug me close today
I know this will be the last time I've seen the blue skies in the morning
And when afternoon come it would be the last time i am goin to eat lunch.
The family, friends, people, things i called my favorite
The last chance that i can see them clearly in my eyes
I admit that someday the world will forget about me
Will soon erase in the peoples memory just few of them stay
The last time i can used my tooth brush in the kitchen.
The last chance i could tell my mom how much i love her
How much i love my family and the whole part of my life
This will be the last time i ever know how to breathe
The air that comes from my soul calling by my name
The last tears that could fall apart run down from my face
The last word i could ever tell for everyone else know me
The last hug i could receive from the people who really loves me
The last story i can write in my diary
Written about what happen each day by day
I know people will never ever wanted me to stay
The last lvoe i could ever feel by someone i dont know if real.
The last enimies i could hear from them voice saying stupid jerk about me.
The perfect goodbye i could tell to everyone
This is what ive dreamed before,
The perfect world to come along with me alone
No people ive seen crying, no roses threw in my burial
The last testament that tells where the things come from when im gone
I love them, i love everybody and i love those people i will met tomorrow, for the next day and for the coming year or decades that i never make friends with them.
I am happy now, I am satisfied being nothing.
I'm done about crying each night when im alone
I'm done listening to the voice of the people who hates me
and I'm done being tired for the fuckin feelings i never explain anymore.
The last breathe that people feel
this is the perfect goodbye
This is the perfect life
Because life is for everybody
and not meant for me.
Goodbye.

I Miss my Teenage Life

Noon ang buhay ko,sobrang saya, bonding time sa mga kaibigan ko,uuwi kahit anong oras gusto, kahit napapagalitan ng magulang-okay lang-pero hindi ko kahit kelan sinisi ang magulang ko,mahal ko sila mula pa nung matuto akong tumayo at magkaron ng isip-hinding hindi ko sila ipagpapalit kahit kanino man-kung papipiliin man ako kung sino sa pagibig o pamilya-natural na pamilya ang pipiliin ko-kase knug talgang mahal ako ng taong yun-tatanggapin nya ang pamilya ko at igagalang nya ang disisyon ko-khit ano man agn mangyari.

Pagaaral lang ang lagi kong pinoproblema noon,kapag gusto ko lumiban sa klase-isang excuse letter lang-ligtas na naman ako sa exams, wala akong ibang ginagawa kundi-laskwatsa ang isipin-kung saan na aman ang tambayan, kung ano kaya ang masarap na baunin-saan pwede pumunta-kahit ano pa man-kapag me kagalt ako-hindi ko pinapansin-sila na din mismo kase ang lumalapit at humihingi ng tawad sakin-sabagay sila naman lagi me mali kaya sila nga dapat ang humingi ng tawad.

Sa bahay, kahit naman madami akong obligasyon-hindi parin ako pinbabayaan ng magulang ko, sobrang mahal ako ng papa ko at ramdam ko yun-ako pa nga ang paborito nya ee-sabi yun ng mga kapatid ko at mama ko, si mama kahit wala yan pakialam sakin-mahal din ako nyan-me mga pagkakataon lang talga na-hindi ko siya kayang unawain-sdahil siguro sa bata pa ako kung magisip noon.kahit nga binibigyan ko sya lagi ng sama ng loob-hindi nya parin nakayang talikuran ako-bilang anak nya at bilang isa sa bahagi ng buhay nya-ang sarap sa pakiramdam-sobrang saya ko ng mga oras at panahon na yun-yung tipong halos-ayoko na matapos pa ang oras na yun.


Yung mga kapatid ko, si kuya kahit na kamuntik ko pa yan mapatay nun,mahal na mahal ko parin yan-di ko din maitatanggi sa sarili ko na sobrang nagselos ako sakanya dahil mas mahal nya ni mama pero ayus lang siguro yun-naintidhan ko-kase para kay mama ako-marunong na sa buhay-kaya si kuya alang ang lagi nyang binabantyan kase mas kelangan nya ng pagunawa ng isang magulang-kita mo ngayon nagbago na din si kuya at dahil yun sa nagmature na sya-at dahil din sa isang taong minahal at natutunan nyang pahalagahan pangalawa sa mama namin-yun ay si rona-

Si ate,sobrang idol ko sya-kahit naman nong bata pako gusto ko maging katulad ni ate, ewan ko ba pero pakiramdam ko mahal na mahal din ako ni ate,, laht kase ng hingin ko-ibinibigay nya-yun tipong parang ako pa ang mas mahalaga kesa sa ibang kapatid namin kaya naman lagi ko sya binabantayan-at pinoprotektahan, ayoko kase na me mangyaring masama sakanya-pinangarap ko na makatagpo sya ng isang prinsipe na magbibigay halaga sakanya-yung tipo ng taong hindi hindi sya iiwanan kahit ikamatay pa nya iyon- pero ewan ko ngayon-nadisapoint ako nng malaman kung......
kaya nagalit ako sakanya-mula non nagtanim nako ng galit sakanya at sa taong yun-ayoko na gann sya-lagi ko nga hinihintay na sana marealize nya na-di tama yun-na iba pala ang gusto nya at d ang taong yun-ayoko talga-ayoko-

at yung mga sumonod na kapatid ko-hindin hindi ko sila pababayaan-gusto ko kahit anoman mangyari-buo parin kami-gusto ko nga kahit me asawa na sila mga kpatid ko-nasa isang home town parin kami-natatakot ako na magkahiwa hiwalay kami-ayoko mangyari yun, ayko- ipagtatanggol ko sila hanggang kamatayn-sumpa man.. wala nako pakialam kung wala ng dumating na pagibig sakin-ayoko din nun ee-gsuto ko para nalang sa kanila.

You’re Not An Angel Cause Your My Wings

Do you remember what I’ve told you before?

That you’re like a flower I’m afraid to pick.

That hard to find and hard to let go.

You know how much fear i overcome

When i start liking you.

I don’t know how to say this in a way that I hope you believe in me

I'm not god; I know it, so how can you believe me right?

But Yana, you know that you’re the only girl

That I compared to a flower.

A flower that has thorn to protect from the strangers

Whom trying to pick you and threw your gentle petals

For the long time that we still have a communication

I learned to care about you,

it started when i realize that

Even though the world left me alone,

I know deeply in my soul that I still have you

So i would like to make a promise for you

And its only for you Yana, so listen.

I promise to be here whether you need me or not, whether you felt cry o glad, or when you feel all alone, I will be your one and only companion in your world, I’m can't promise to give you the love that you really want to get but I will do my best just to be next to you. you’re the best gift that Jesus sent me from heaven-you’re not an angel cause your my wings-I can never fly without you, I don’t feel in heaven when you are with me cause I feel so much high even though your not here, and how I wish I could be an air just to go through with your body and hug you so much gently. lalala

To: Yanna Mae Fernandez

From:  Lee Wishh

A Boring Day with A Stupid Things

Everyday of my life,i only live just to GET UP-WORK-SLEEP-and then repeat. I wonder how i used to live in almost everyday like this. A feeling of nothing, seen nothing,and hear nothing, it's like i'm the only man who lived here in my own world,but i guess this is what i want,people dont blame me for acting like I-DONT-CARE,when i know that what i feel is what i ACT.but still people doesnt ever learned to understand me,maybe theres a few of them but i dont even know who are they. Everytime i go along with myself outside and stay nowhere to go,i feel like i'm invinsible.Those people who only see me are the people who used to live as a people but when i start to count them into with my fingertips theres still a few numbers of count i always have. I don't know why people disagree what i was about to talk or to speak. I speak what my mind tell me, i can share what my heart feels. i can't see those things i don't wana see,specially when it was all about nonsense or worthless. I know i'm a worse or a loser or whatever people call me but this is me,this is what i am and i can never change it. Love? what do you mean by love? i dont remember i was inlove by someone who just bring me the biggest mistakes in my life but i nver regret having this things. I'm immature, i'm fit like a skinny man walking alone in the street but this is me this is who i am. If you dont understand me, you never learned how to love me for who i am. When a morning comes i get up,and my thoughts works like a superman in the sky,i'm not a genius to make all people answer the stupid questions that even them doesnt ever know. Yeah i know i'm stupid and you dont have to talk to me again-A phylosopy man that doesnt even know how to say SORRY or how to make an apologize. This is the person,one of the god's creating mistakes. If you dont like me-i will actually think you doesnt exist at all- I love talking to strange people its like those things make me feel so much excited,i dont know but when i talk to them i feel so boastful, i can pretend, i can act as if im a winner,as if im a great and as if i dont have any sins or mistakes at all.What a boring day right? Walk alone, go to the market and then buy my own food,i dont have friends to have and feel a good band with them,i with myself,always and forever, i dont wanna teach people to understand me,to love me or to please just to be with me-if they doesnt like me i dont care-.

Depression Thoughts

I just think that all you people need someone to be there for you when you wana cry and everyone of u shud get help....because every single one of u were born 4 a reason...not to jst die wen u wana die...you die when ur supposed 2 die....when thingz get a lil bit tough u cant decide ur going to cut or something you have to pass it time will make you stronger...believing is the key....

I've learned that this darkness that seeks to consume my life is only sharing this body with me.  I will press on, sometimes like the living dead, because I have a right to try.  This is my life too and this depression cannot completely define me or I will cease to be.  Fight for your right to life; death will come in its own time.

one day youll wake up and wonder--isnt it someone missing?then youll shed a tear because you miss the emptiness.

Life is bad. It's just a bunch of aches and pains. When ever there is some good/happiness it's inevitable that it is going to end. I've resolved myself. I'm not going to  expect anything but the worst because it's inevitable. Why be caught by suprise by something you know isn't going to last. Don't be a fool, even if it does get better always know it will come to an end.

it hurts now and it will hurt more 2morrow, i will always have pain and feel sorrow...help me please im blinded by my tears and i just cant see so many devils tryna recycle my soul because where im from there's no possitive foe's.


Blue and white skies outside, blue and white pills inside. The sun is shinning outside, so why do I feel so dark inside?

he had killed me so i will kill him back  becouse it hurts' please help me before its too late.

Im scared of alot of things, but im not scared of the boogyman, the shadow or the thought of dying, the only thing im scared of, is rethinking how dumb i could be to do this to her...i loved her so much.

Tama na sa Pagiyak

Naisip mo na ba na sayang ang luha mo
Dahil sa mga walang kwentang bagay at taong iniiyakan mo
kelan ba nagamot ng luha ang sugat?
Hindi naman diba kaya tama na sa pagiyak
at tama na sa lungkot na lagi mong dinadamayan

Wag kang makinig sa mga sinasabi nila
Wag mong husgahan pati sariling kakayanan
Alam mong tama ka ngunit silay pinakikinggan pa
Hindi naman masama na ikay ngmahal lamang
kaya tama na sa pagiyak at pagmukmok jan

Isang malakas na halakhak ang dapat mong gawin
Bitawan mo ang salitang; hindi ko kayang mawala sya
Dahil hinding hindi ka talga sasaya sa dahilan na yun
Yung tinitibok ng puso mo ikanta mo
Yung sinisigaw ng utak mo isigaw mo tama na sa pagiyak

Hindi ba maganda ka naman
Hindi ba me mga kakayanan ka din naman
Mga bagay na wala sakanya na meron ka
Mga katangian na taglay mo na wala sakanila
Kaya tama na sa pagiyak ngumiti ka nalang kaya

Ayan,dahil sa kagustuhan mong sumaya
Unti unti mo ng naibubuka ang mga labi mo
Unti unti mo ng nilalagyan ng paru paru ang mga mata mo
Sikapin mong makuha ang mga bagay na ayaw ng iba
Pagkat hindi lahat ng tinapon ay wala ng kwenta
Tama na sa pagiyak at hayaan mong mawala ang lahat
hayaan mong problema at alinlangan ay mabura
Upang ang iyong kaligayahan ang syang sumakop sayong kaluluwa
tahan na wag ka ng umiyak at sayang ang luha mo

Forget About My Gray Day

sometimes i just close my eyes and keep dreaming
it's like im reaching something
that i know in reality it's hard to reach
something that i dont deserve to have
but i know i never had it all
wishing to have another life after death
hoping to make this things works forever
people feel so much disspointment about it
they say that life is hard to have in the world
i can see the stars falling from the sky
The darkness of the midnight doesnt even have a color
It's a dim-a gray day that i have to forget
It's like waiting for the storm to come soon
I never had this things to make easy as easy
I can live as wierd as i can for whatever they call me
I'm nineteen supposed to be i'm just another teenage boy
A boy with another dream that wishing to come true
But how can i ever be the boy who make his dream come true
For the real people who udnerstand me at all
Parents that never be the parents to me
People who live not actig like a real one
Friends who always there when they need me
And a puppy who shall give me strenght to fight
And when the night was still in my day
I do cry everytime i remember those pains and aches
Those beats that sounds from the brain inside my mind
Then tears shall flow into this fragile face
I dont want to live anymore
I dont want to see people and meet then lie again
It's not the world where i dreamed before
This is not a perfect life
and this is not my perfect world..

The Pain that Kills my Everyday

It still hurt for me about everything in my past
Even though a months ago it was still there,still here.
And until now nothing will change and never be change.
The feeling inside of me will never be the same again.
I'm in love. yeah,for someone i never know who she is.
I'm in love with someone that never care for me anymore.

 
The pain was still here,and it never change.
It really hurts for me that everyday i'm dying inside.
I wanna be happy again-but the wound is still clear in my soul
Too much pain i tried to fight after all the things done.
That the best happen to me before are the worst moment i have to suffer.
I'm in love for someone that doesnt even care me at all.

 
The pain and too much scars i need to cover
That in every morning i wake up with so much regrets.
No one can come with me to tell that she loved me more.
Nothing can be celebrate about a monthsary or aniversary.
The time that i spend so much for her was all done now.
That the time i have to recieve can never replays,anymore.


The pain was still kills me inside my soul
My body is like a drunk man that poison by somebody else
The person that i didnt even know about,dont know.
And it take me millions of pain enter in my souls.
But even if the pain kills me i am still fighting,i do.
Fighting for the no reason to be win for..

Someday I'll Find my Perfect Escape

I was here lying in my bed all alone.
Listening for the quiet music Ive never been hear.
I am here so close again waiting for the morning after dark.
Thinking about everything that i know it never come

And I know it will never happen again
Because people dragging me down
People disagree,
People disapprove,
People doesn't have care at all

They didn't know what i am waiting
Nobody understand what i am supposed to tell.
Things change just like how people do,
I suddenly close my eyes with tears
Remembering all those memory brings me into a cruel life,

The pain that never erase inside my soul,
Those heartaches that i wish I'm dead to take it out from me,
A year ago,
a month,
thousands of yesterday,
the past hours,
the minutes,
and the seconds of the life.

I know now that life is imperfect
And the world seems so unfair
I promise to myself
Someday I'll find my perfect escape,
It's true that if you really wanted to get something you want,

You have to learn to sacrifice,
to get hurt,
to be in pain,
and to let your life have Scars
and the wound shall be allowed to heal,
but life seems so unfair,that's why people judged lord,
and ask for everything to be perfect even if everybody know

Nobody is perfect,
I am twenty but i am very disappointed to myself,
Disappointed for everything who seen by my eyes,
I hold my head and promise everything,
I promise someday I'll find my perfect escape,

The perfect place where no ones feel the pain,
No time that need to be wasted,
No wounded can have scars,
No people with teary eyes,
It's a perfect place to me,

It's perfect room where i always stay everyday of my life,
The place where i can find the next door of my life,
The door that we can knock someday and leave behind,
It's  gone now,
Everything is gone forever.
Love dies,Memories are fade and people die.

She Left me The Biggest Thing I Ever Wanted

There was a girl, who i really crush before,It was when we are in the freshman college in the University,I don't think she will be like me too-but i swear, in her great perfect smile with a dimples,damn,i was really attracted with her,it was the orientation for the class beginning it was her with her classmates,maybe.she's wearing a red blouse and a jeans with headband in her hair, i think it was very fit to her dim color. And if she start to smile, i was feel so paralize, I don't know why,but there is always keep me smile too  and her smile give me a thousands butterfly in my stomach.Sarcastic right,but i swear,i like her. Then she start to speak with her friends, saying; " theres a guy i hate-he hit me and he never ask an apologize.shit!"and even when she get mad-shes really beautiful,her eyes full of wisdom and her voice is like an anghel who i nver know before.



I'm feel obsessed with her ad it will take me to be her stalker,haha everytime i go to school i walked near in her room and waving m hand to her.even if shes not looking at me. And mybe shes one of the reason why i always go to school late,because she always lates everytime in their class. One day we both late and its unexpectedly moment,we are in a staires and she saw me,she look at me and smile, i stop and my heart beat fast,and then she start to say "HI" to me, i feel deaf,and her voice was really amazing.I love it when she talk and smile,and her eyes wink at me,i am dead. then she run to go to her room-i was stock in the staires thinking and imagining what she left me-she left me the biggest thing i ever want.