Mas Nakakabuti Kung Wag Mo na Muna Syang Ilagay Sa Isip Mo

eto naman siguro yung tamang oras para isipin mo naman din yung sarili mo-tama na yung minsan na pagasa mo sa isang taong alam mo namang di mapapasayo-tama na sa paghihintay sa isang tao na-hindi naman dadating sa buhay mo-magpakatotoo ka-minsan kelangan din natin maranasan masaktan at magkamali sa buhay-hindi ibig sabihin na-araw araw ka ng magiging ganun-kelangan mo din naman syempre lumangoy hindi yung hahayaan mo nalang na anurin ka ng dagat patungo kung san-sa mga lugar na di mo naman alam kung ano ang mapapala mo-tao ka din naman diba-mas nakakabuti siguro na-wag mo na munag isipin yung nakakabuti para sakanya-hayaan mo naman yung sarili mo na isipin din kung san ka talga magiging masaya-pero nasaktan ka diba-naranasan mo kung gaano kasakit ang umasa at magmahal sa isang taong mali- pero isipin mo-pano naman magiging mali yun diba-kung tiyak mo naman na tama yung nararamdaman mo para sa taong yun-hindi ka naman duwag kung hahayaan mo syang mawala-ang akin lamang ee-wag mong sagarin ang sarili mo-kilala mopaba ang sarili mo?harap ka sa salamin at tanungin mo yung taong kaharap mo sa mga oras na yun-makikilala mo kung sino at ano kaba talga-normal lang sa buhay masaktan-mas mabuting gagawin mo ee-gawin mong inspirasyon yung mga taong ayaw sayo-galit sayo-at yung mga taong di makita ang kakayahan mo-masarap mabuhay sa mundo-kung malalaman mo lang kung gaano kasaya kapag ka nabubuhay ng nakakangiti ka ng malaya-siguradong aayawn mo ng mamatay at pumanaw sa mundo-pare pareho tayong tao-sa mundo-hindi ka lang sasaya kundi ppatak pa ang luha mo dahil alam mong-nagawa mo ng tama yung mga mali mo noon-kelangan mo din matuto sa buhay-lahat ng tricks malalaman mo kapag kusa mong pinagaralan yun.. at ang wag na wag mong ggawin sa sarili mo ee-WAG KA MAGSISINUNGALING SA SARILI MO-yan lang ang pinakamabisang paraan para maging masaya ka.

I miss you

awkward moment before

I'm Never Alone, Yet Not Alone

I am much too alone in this world, yet not alone enough to truly consecrate the hour. I am much too small in this world, yet not small enough to be to you just object and thing, dark and smart. I want my free will and want it accompanying the path which leads to action; and want during times that beg questions, where something is up, to be among those in the know, or else be alone. I want to mirror your image to its fullest perfection, never be blind or too old to uphold your wieghty wavering reflection. I want to unfold. Nowhere I wish to stay crooked, bent; for there I would be dishonest, untrue. I want my conscience to be true before you; want to describe myself like a picture I observed for a long time, one close up, like anew word I learned and embraced, like the everyday jug, like my mother's face, like a ship that carried me along through the deadliest storm.

When you Scream Like Someone just Died

Youv tried your best to let go something you loved so much. And you let it go , closing those tearful eyes. You try to look the other the way. You try to let the feeling go. But the feeling takes control of you. You cant look away. And when you look back to the thing you loved. You wondered why you waited so long. Your face looked bright. You heard the flapping of the wings behind you. You knew it came back. But when you look back, its gone. The organisim that you used to love is gone. You regret letting the thing go. You cry for it to come back. You pound your head, you scrath youself, you tear out your flesh partley, you scream like someone just died....... but whatever you do it doesnt come back. You forgot how it looks. You forget the sound of the flapping wings. All you think about is how its doing in the cruel world. So whatever you do dont let something precious go. Or you will die of dreppesion.

the BIGGEST impact in someones life

every girl dreams that one day she will find a boy that does these things for her. even the smallest action can have the BIGGEST impact in someones life:

• give her one of your t-shirts to sleep in.

• leave her cute text notes.

• kiss her in front of your friends.

• tell her she looks beautiful.

• look into her eyes when you talk to her.

• let her mess with your hair.

• touch her hair.

• just walk around with her.

• forgive her for her mistakes.

• look at her like she`s the only girl you see.

• tickle her even when she says stop.

• hold her hand when you`re around your friends.

• when she starts swearing at you, tell her you love her.

• let her fall asleep in your arms.

• get her mad, then kiss her.

• tease her and let her tease you back.

• stay up all night with her when she`s sick.

• watch her favorite movie with her.

• kiss her forehead.

• give her the world.

• write her letters.

• let her wear your clothes.

• when she`s sad, hang out with her.

• let her know she`s important.

• let her take all the photos she wants of you.

• kiss her in the pouring rain.

• when you fall in love with her, tell her.

• and when you tell her, love her like you`ve never loved someone before.

I Miss my Teenage Life

Noon ang buhay ko,sobrang saya, bonding time sa mga kaibigan ko,uuwi kahit anong oras gusto, kahit napapagalitan ng magulang-okay lang-pero hindi ko kahit kelan sinisi ang magulang ko,mahal ko sila mula pa nung matuto akong tumayo at magkaron ng isip-hinding hindi ko sila ipagpapalit kahit kanino man-kung papipiliin man ako kung sino sa pagibig o pamilya-natural na pamilya ang pipiliin ko-kase knug talgang mahal ako ng taong yun-tatanggapin nya ang pamilya ko at igagalang nya ang disisyon ko-khit ano man agn mangyari.

Pagaaral lang ang lagi kong pinoproblema noon,kapag gusto ko lumiban sa klase-isang excuse letter lang-ligtas na naman ako sa exams, wala akong ibang ginagawa kundi-laskwatsa ang isipin-kung saan na aman ang tambayan, kung ano kaya ang masarap na baunin-saan pwede pumunta-kahit ano pa man-kapag me kagalt ako-hindi ko pinapansin-sila na din mismo kase ang lumalapit at humihingi ng tawad sakin-sabagay sila naman lagi me mali kaya sila nga dapat ang humingi ng tawad.

Sa bahay, kahit naman madami akong obligasyon-hindi parin ako pinbabayaan ng magulang ko, sobrang mahal ako ng papa ko at ramdam ko yun-ako pa nga ang paborito nya ee-sabi yun ng mga kapatid ko at mama ko, si mama kahit wala yan pakialam sakin-mahal din ako nyan-me mga pagkakataon lang talga na-hindi ko siya kayang unawain-sdahil siguro sa bata pa ako kung magisip noon.kahit nga binibigyan ko sya lagi ng sama ng loob-hindi nya parin nakayang talikuran ako-bilang anak nya at bilang isa sa bahagi ng buhay nya-ang sarap sa pakiramdam-sobrang saya ko ng mga oras at panahon na yun-yung tipong halos-ayoko na matapos pa ang oras na yun.


Yung mga kapatid ko, si kuya kahit na kamuntik ko pa yan mapatay nun,mahal na mahal ko parin yan-di ko din maitatanggi sa sarili ko na sobrang nagselos ako sakanya dahil mas mahal nya ni mama pero ayus lang siguro yun-naintidhan ko-kase para kay mama ako-marunong na sa buhay-kaya si kuya alang ang lagi nyang binabantyan kase mas kelangan nya ng pagunawa ng isang magulang-kita mo ngayon nagbago na din si kuya at dahil yun sa nagmature na sya-at dahil din sa isang taong minahal at natutunan nyang pahalagahan pangalawa sa mama namin-yun ay si rona-

Si ate,sobrang idol ko sya-kahit naman nong bata pako gusto ko maging katulad ni ate, ewan ko ba pero pakiramdam ko mahal na mahal din ako ni ate,, laht kase ng hingin ko-ibinibigay nya-yun tipong parang ako pa ang mas mahalaga kesa sa ibang kapatid namin kaya naman lagi ko sya binabantayan-at pinoprotektahan, ayoko kase na me mangyaring masama sakanya-pinangarap ko na makatagpo sya ng isang prinsipe na magbibigay halaga sakanya-yung tipo ng taong hindi hindi sya iiwanan kahit ikamatay pa nya iyon- pero ewan ko ngayon-nadisapoint ako nng malaman kung......
kaya nagalit ako sakanya-mula non nagtanim nako ng galit sakanya at sa taong yun-ayoko na gann sya-lagi ko nga hinihintay na sana marealize nya na-di tama yun-na iba pala ang gusto nya at d ang taong yun-ayoko talga-ayoko-

at yung mga sumonod na kapatid ko-hindin hindi ko sila pababayaan-gusto ko kahit anoman mangyari-buo parin kami-gusto ko nga kahit me asawa na sila mga kpatid ko-nasa isang home town parin kami-natatakot ako na magkahiwa hiwalay kami-ayoko mangyari yun, ayko- ipagtatanggol ko sila hanggang kamatayn-sumpa man.. wala nako pakialam kung wala ng dumating na pagibig sakin-ayoko din nun ee-gsuto ko para nalang sa kanila.

You’re Not An Angel Cause Your My Wings

Do you remember what I’ve told you before?

That you’re like a flower I’m afraid to pick.

That hard to find and hard to let go.

You know how much fear i overcome

When i start liking you.

I don’t know how to say this in a way that I hope you believe in me

I'm not god; I know it, so how can you believe me right?

But Yana, you know that you’re the only girl

That I compared to a flower.

A flower that has thorn to protect from the strangers

Whom trying to pick you and threw your gentle petals

For the long time that we still have a communication

I learned to care about you,

it started when i realize that

Even though the world left me alone,

I know deeply in my soul that I still have you

So i would like to make a promise for you

And its only for you Yana, so listen.

I promise to be here whether you need me or not, whether you felt cry o glad, or when you feel all alone, I will be your one and only companion in your world, I’m can't promise to give you the love that you really want to get but I will do my best just to be next to you. you’re the best gift that Jesus sent me from heaven-you’re not an angel cause your my wings-I can never fly without you, I don’t feel in heaven when you are with me cause I feel so much high even though your not here, and how I wish I could be an air just to go through with your body and hug you so much gently. lalala

To: Yanna Mae Fernandez

From:  Lee Wishh

Depression Thoughts

I just think that all you people need someone to be there for you when you wana cry and everyone of u shud get help....because every single one of u were born 4 a reason...not to jst die wen u wana die...you die when ur supposed 2 die....when thingz get a lil bit tough u cant decide ur going to cut or something you have to pass it time will make you stronger...believing is the key....

I've learned that this darkness that seeks to consume my life is only sharing this body with me.  I will press on, sometimes like the living dead, because I have a right to try.  This is my life too and this depression cannot completely define me or I will cease to be.  Fight for your right to life; death will come in its own time.

one day youll wake up and wonder--isnt it someone missing?then youll shed a tear because you miss the emptiness.

Life is bad. It's just a bunch of aches and pains. When ever there is some good/happiness it's inevitable that it is going to end. I've resolved myself. I'm not going to  expect anything but the worst because it's inevitable. Why be caught by suprise by something you know isn't going to last. Don't be a fool, even if it does get better always know it will come to an end.

it hurts now and it will hurt more 2morrow, i will always have pain and feel sorrow...help me please im blinded by my tears and i just cant see so many devils tryna recycle my soul because where im from there's no possitive foe's.


Blue and white skies outside, blue and white pills inside. The sun is shinning outside, so why do I feel so dark inside?

he had killed me so i will kill him back  becouse it hurts' please help me before its too late.

Im scared of alot of things, but im not scared of the boogyman, the shadow or the thought of dying, the only thing im scared of, is rethinking how dumb i could be to do this to her...i loved her so much.

Tama na sa Pagiyak

Naisip mo na ba na sayang ang luha mo
Dahil sa mga walang kwentang bagay at taong iniiyakan mo
kelan ba nagamot ng luha ang sugat?
Hindi naman diba kaya tama na sa pagiyak
at tama na sa lungkot na lagi mong dinadamayan

Wag kang makinig sa mga sinasabi nila
Wag mong husgahan pati sariling kakayanan
Alam mong tama ka ngunit silay pinakikinggan pa
Hindi naman masama na ikay ngmahal lamang
kaya tama na sa pagiyak at pagmukmok jan

Isang malakas na halakhak ang dapat mong gawin
Bitawan mo ang salitang; hindi ko kayang mawala sya
Dahil hinding hindi ka talga sasaya sa dahilan na yun
Yung tinitibok ng puso mo ikanta mo
Yung sinisigaw ng utak mo isigaw mo tama na sa pagiyak

Hindi ba maganda ka naman
Hindi ba me mga kakayanan ka din naman
Mga bagay na wala sakanya na meron ka
Mga katangian na taglay mo na wala sakanila
Kaya tama na sa pagiyak ngumiti ka nalang kaya

Ayan,dahil sa kagustuhan mong sumaya
Unti unti mo ng naibubuka ang mga labi mo
Unti unti mo ng nilalagyan ng paru paru ang mga mata mo
Sikapin mong makuha ang mga bagay na ayaw ng iba
Pagkat hindi lahat ng tinapon ay wala ng kwenta
Tama na sa pagiyak at hayaan mong mawala ang lahat
hayaan mong problema at alinlangan ay mabura
Upang ang iyong kaligayahan ang syang sumakop sayong kaluluwa
tahan na wag ka ng umiyak at sayang ang luha mo

I'm human, I make mistakes.

I'm human, I make mistakes. I've done things I'm not proud of and I have regrets. Im insecure and at times not very confident. I tend to be shy and reserved at times, but there are also times I'm outspoken and a little crazy. I've been hurt and I've been lied to time and time again, and I don't trust easy. I'm scared of falling again; afraid that the minute I start to fall, I'll end up on the ground again,asking myself, why I keep letting this happen. I'm by no means perfect, and neither is my family. In fact, my family's a little screwed up at times, and sometimes, they hurt me. I hate when people pretend to be something they're not around me. I'm stubborn. I'm judgemental. I'm not the brightest person in the world and I'm sure you can do better. But know that I'm also,curious, looking to experience things I have yet to experience. I like to sing and I want to dance in the middle of the street without any music. I love to laugh and have fun. I want to be kissed in the rain. I want to be held tight and protected. I like taking random walks without a clue as to where I'm going. I love watching movies, especially scary ones. I want somebody to look at me, the way nobody has..I want someone to look at me, in a way they've never looked at anybody. I just want somebody to take my face in their hands, look me in the eyes, and for once, tell me that I'm good enough.

Things I've Learned About Life...

1. Happy endings are for fairy tales.
2. Love is a word that gets thrown around and can cause great pain.
3. Promises are meant to be broken.
4. People change.
5. Hopes and dreams are just wishful thinking.
6. You may find the person of your dreams but chances are they've already found theirs.
7. Never listen to anyone.
8. People kill people, not guns.
9. Life is never fair.
10. After all the bullsh** is over, you die.

Hindi mo Masisisi sa Huli

sa buhay-lahat ng bagay pinagsisisihan sa huli-di naman natin alam-kung ano ang mangyayari bukas-pero alam natin na-nagbabago ang tao sa bawat paglipas ng araw at panahon-maaaring dati mahal ka nya ngayon o bukas hindi kana nya mahal-pwede ding hindi ka nya mahal pero maaari ding sa mga susunod na araw-mahal kana nya yun nga lang me iba ka ng mahal-ganyan lang sa mundo-kaya nga sinabing bilog ang mundo dahil umiikot lang ang lahat sa buhay-minsan naiiyak ka-natutuwa at bigla nalang malulungkot-tapos sasaya na naman-ang mahirap lang kase dun-yun bang nasa pahina kayo na nagmamahalan tapos sya namang pagbitaw ng isa sainyo-maaaring ikaw o sya ang umalis at mawala nalang-hindi naman kase natin hawak ang bawat isa-kahit sarili natin-minsan o napapadalas nabibitawan na din natin-sa ibat ibang dahilan-pero ang mahalaga dun-nagkamali ka man sa huli at nagsisi-nung umpisa naman sumaya ka at natutong ngumiti.

You're too Young to know Pain

How can you know what pain is? You're too young to know pain. You're too young to know real hurt."

"Maybe you're right. I don't know pain. I guess sitting by the phone for hours waiting for someone to call, but knowing they won't isnt pain. Crying myself to sleep for hours, because every word they say cuts me worse than the knife that cuts my wrist isnt pain. I guess having my heart ripped out and thrown around every day by someone new isnt pain. Waking up alone every morning and going to sleep alone every night isnt pain. I guess you're right. I'm too young to know pain."

me and someone else

Meaningful Quotes About Love and Life

Ang buhay parang sapatos lang daw yan na matagal mong naSTOCK sa closet-kung kelan gusto mo ng gamitin saka naman to masisira ng kusa.


Minsan ang tao-mapapansin mo-masaya pa lang sya tapos mamaya nyan umiiyak na-ganyan daw talaga kase-minsan kala mo kaya mo pero pag napatunayan mo na-hindi mo pala talaga kaya-kaya hihingi ka ng tulong sa iba-me mga magbibigay ng tulong-me mga magaalok ng tulong at syempre meron din naman mga taong tatanggihan ka.

Mahirap magmahal lalo na yung di mo man lang nasisilayan ang ngiti nya sa mga labi-di mo man lang napapanood na natutuwa sya at ngsasaya dahil me mga bagay na nagpapaligaya sakanya-okay lang sayo yun-basta makita syang masaya kahit hindi ikaw ang dahilan nito.

Hindi mahirap ang buhay-nasasabi lang yan ng mga taong mahina ang loob-pero mas lalong wla namang mahiang loob kase lahat naman nakakaya diba-kung nakaya nya nga-bakit ikaw-syempre kakayanin mo din-tatayo ka lang lagi kapag nadadapa ka na.

Nabuhay daw ang tao para maging maligaya-ginawa daw ang bibig para gamitin sa pagtawa-pero bakit minsan ang buhay nasasaktan din at ang bibig mismo ang nagpapakita na umiiyak din pala ang kaligayahan na gusto mo.

Ang buhay para ding SAYAW -hindi ko kayang sabayan.


Kung sa tingin mo wala akong pakialam sayo dahil nagagawa ko pang kumain at magpakasaya-pwes nagkakamali ka-dahil ayoko na sirain ang buhay ko dahil gusto ko na ako ang mgbibigay ng lakas ng loob sayo para kayanin ang problema mo.


Pano ka matututo sa buhay kung iniiwasan mong madapa-

Wala naman ako ibang hiniling para sayo diba-di ko naman hiniling na sirain mo ang buhay mo dahil lang sa pagmamahal mo sakin-ang gusto ko lang ee ako yung maging dahilan kung bakit ka nagtatagumpay at kung bakit wala kang pinagsisisihan sa disisyon mo.


Hindi dahil walang ngmamahal sayo iisipin mo nang wala kang silbi at wala kang kwenta-mali ka-dahil meron ka pang pinangangalagaan at yun at kahit kelan di ka iiwanan-

ANINO:

Hindi mo ko masisisi kung mawala man ako sa paningin mo sa tuwing susubukan mong magtago sa kadiliman-andun pa rin ako di mo lang makita kase kelangan mo lang akong pakiramdaman.


kahit maging yoyo man ako sa buhay mo-hindi pa rin ako kaylanman mapapagod na magpabalik balik sa buhay mo-alam mo kung bakit? dahil alam ko na sayo lang ako sasaya at di sa ibang tao.

Kaylan pa ako napagod na humingi ng tawad?-kaylan ba ako nagsawa na suyuin ka?-kaylan ba yung araw na pinabayaan kita?-at kaylan ba ako nawala sa buhay mo?kung meron man-hindi ko na matandaan dahil naisantabi ko na ang buhay ko para sa pagmamahal sayo.

The Pain that Kills my Everyday

It still hurt for me about everything in my past
Even though a months ago it was still there,still here.
And until now nothing will change and never be change.
The feeling inside of me will never be the same again.
I'm in love. yeah,for someone i never know who she is.
I'm in love with someone that never care for me anymore.

 
The pain was still here,and it never change.
It really hurts for me that everyday i'm dying inside.
I wanna be happy again-but the wound is still clear in my soul
Too much pain i tried to fight after all the things done.
That the best happen to me before are the worst moment i have to suffer.
I'm in love for someone that doesnt even care me at all.

 
The pain and too much scars i need to cover
That in every morning i wake up with so much regrets.
No one can come with me to tell that she loved me more.
Nothing can be celebrate about a monthsary or aniversary.
The time that i spend so much for her was all done now.
That the time i have to recieve can never replays,anymore.


The pain was still kills me inside my soul
My body is like a drunk man that poison by somebody else
The person that i didnt even know about,dont know.
And it take me millions of pain enter in my souls.
But even if the pain kills me i am still fighting,i do.
Fighting for the no reason to be win for..

Someday I'll Find my Perfect Escape

I was here lying in my bed all alone.
Listening for the quiet music Ive never been hear.
I am here so close again waiting for the morning after dark.
Thinking about everything that i know it never come

And I know it will never happen again
Because people dragging me down
People disagree,
People disapprove,
People doesn't have care at all

They didn't know what i am waiting
Nobody understand what i am supposed to tell.
Things change just like how people do,
I suddenly close my eyes with tears
Remembering all those memory brings me into a cruel life,

The pain that never erase inside my soul,
Those heartaches that i wish I'm dead to take it out from me,
A year ago,
a month,
thousands of yesterday,
the past hours,
the minutes,
and the seconds of the life.

I know now that life is imperfect
And the world seems so unfair
I promise to myself
Someday I'll find my perfect escape,
It's true that if you really wanted to get something you want,

You have to learn to sacrifice,
to get hurt,
to be in pain,
and to let your life have Scars
and the wound shall be allowed to heal,
but life seems so unfair,that's why people judged lord,
and ask for everything to be perfect even if everybody know

Nobody is perfect,
I am twenty but i am very disappointed to myself,
Disappointed for everything who seen by my eyes,
I hold my head and promise everything,
I promise someday I'll find my perfect escape,

The perfect place where no ones feel the pain,
No time that need to be wasted,
No wounded can have scars,
No people with teary eyes,
It's a perfect place to me,

It's perfect room where i always stay everyday of my life,
The place where i can find the next door of my life,
The door that we can knock someday and leave behind,
It's  gone now,
Everything is gone forever.
Love dies,Memories are fade and people die.

A Life of Being Weak

It was a tuesday when i got in our school,
I'm wearing stripes long sleeve with chaleco,
wearing eyeglasses,
The hair that never brush after waking up in the morning
But it looks weird and everybody looked at me
While i am still around-a vans shoes
And i domo kun back pack.
I am look so emo or just like korean guy
But i swear i may inspired taking photos like how uzzlangs pose
I'm a frustrated model of myself of my own arts
And my own magazine.funny ryt?but if you saw me,
You will see a sad face drawed in my face-a mask
And a reaction where nobody read and nobody understand.
I swear i am weird all th time that i speak time to time
Those wierd words or trashtalks
That why most of the people doesnt even try to talk to me
Or ask anything-expect some phylosophical answer from my words.
I had a wide mind,i'm not smart o a genius lets just say-
I speak what my brains told me.
My mum is always busy with her business-
A lot of business thats why she didnt have time
To check wheather im still there or im lost again-
My father is a servant from my mothers justice-
Whenever i am alone in my room-i just stay inside-
Lock the door,
Listening to the BLUE OCTOBER and JAMESTOWN STORY songs-
While writing peotry or sketching.
I act as if im emo but i am not totally emo-
Whenever i feel sad and disgusted with myself-
I feel relax-didnt want eat,
Didnt want to see people around me,
Didnt want to listen
Or heard noise sounds,
Or see pethetic one-
I dont like everybody-
I dont want everyone to be with me-
I just wanted to be needed
By someone who didnt ever know me.

She Left me The Biggest Thing I Ever Wanted

There was a girl, who i really crush before,It was when we are in the freshman college in the University,I don't think she will be like me too-but i swear, in her great perfect smile with a dimples,damn,i was really attracted with her,it was the orientation for the class beginning it was her with her classmates,maybe.she's wearing a red blouse and a jeans with headband in her hair, i think it was very fit to her dim color. And if she start to smile, i was feel so paralize, I don't know why,but there is always keep me smile too  and her smile give me a thousands butterfly in my stomach.Sarcastic right,but i swear,i like her. Then she start to speak with her friends, saying; " theres a guy i hate-he hit me and he never ask an apologize.shit!"and even when she get mad-shes really beautiful,her eyes full of wisdom and her voice is like an anghel who i nver know before.



I'm feel obsessed with her ad it will take me to be her stalker,haha everytime i go to school i walked near in her room and waving m hand to her.even if shes not looking at me. And mybe shes one of the reason why i always go to school late,because she always lates everytime in their class. One day we both late and its unexpectedly moment,we are in a staires and she saw me,she look at me and smile, i stop and my heart beat fast,and then she start to say "HI" to me, i feel deaf,and her voice was really amazing.I love it when she talk and smile,and her eyes wink at me,i am dead. then she run to go to her room-i was stock in the staires thinking and imagining what she left me-she left me the biggest thing i ever want.

It's a Free World for Defeat?

I'm nineteen years old. I'm not going to fold

From a world that's dark and deaf

We've been kicked and beat. Thrown underneath

No wonder we have nothing left

I'm not saying I'm above it but I covet what's mine

The right to speak out against violence and crime

It's a free world. that's not very free

It's corruption. that's inspired me

We need to stand up and change or at least rearrange

What the media wants us to believe

We're under the public eye till the day we die

They pick what they want us to perceive

Who's got the power or the hour today

To undo what's been undone

By a presidential task force that sat on the golf course

Waiting for the battle to be won

I'm nineteen years old. I'm not going to fold

From a world that's bruised and beat

We've been suppressed and held from the victory bell

But we'll never submit defeat