It's a Free World for Defeat?

I'm nineteen years old. I'm not going to fold

From a world that's dark and deaf

We've been kicked and beat. Thrown underneath

No wonder we have nothing left

I'm not saying I'm above it but I covet what's mine

The right to speak out against violence and crime

It's a free world. that's not very free

It's corruption. that's inspired me

We need to stand up and change or at least rearrange

What the media wants us to believe

We're under the public eye till the day we die

They pick what they want us to perceive

Who's got the power or the hour today

To undo what's been undone

By a presidential task force that sat on the golf course

Waiting for the battle to be won

I'm nineteen years old. I'm not going to fold

From a world that's bruised and beat

We've been suppressed and held from the victory bell

But we'll never submit defeat

Vertebrobasilar migraines/Dystonia

-i had brain therapies-and it takes 22days for 38 hours per treatments to stopped my headaches,the doctor of neurology said about the result: "i have an abnormal nerve signals and i need to be underdiagnosed-and it will take 48hours. The treatment will long to be taken in about 22days-having the test of (blood testing,brain testing,courses workshop for muscles in the brain and learning the far and near sights)i have to survive from the deep brain stimulations and to recover in good result for my artery muscles that attack my brains to begin having a migraine everytime i used to look at the lights.I don't know where i am after this therapies but all in my mind i think about you(khareen)I was cried and paralys staying inside the patient room,thinking what will happen tomorrow-but then again-i have to survive-i wanna get healed and cure my illness.I take 4 tablets of medicines everyday but i don't think if it works for me.I lost my apetite every meals i take, i just learned to drink water.darn...they cut my hair,and my voice start to lose,they take my cellphone,not allowed to drink anything only water,every midnight i am screaming because of the pain hurts me more-i believe i am not sick, the window that i always staire everytime i left alone inside my room,and it makes me weak,ugly,exhauted and fragile because of this pain,i sacrifice-i wanted to live-feel alive and be with her.but how? i'm goin crazy..

I Love Everything About You

I love how you hold me. I love how you tell me I’m wonderful. I love how you look at me funny when I say something stupid. I love how you make me happy. I love how you smile when I see you. I love how you laugh when I say something random, or stupid. I love the face you make when I snort when I laugh. I love how you ask me if I’m alright when I cant stop laughing. I love how you make me feel. I love how you tell me I look cute. I love how you like my pajamas. I love how you talk about music for hours. I love how you say sweet things to me. I love how you whisper in my ear when it’s really quiet. I love how you squeeze me so hard when I hug you. I love how I can talk to you for hours about anything, and you listen, and I listen. I love how we call each other as soon as we wake up. I love how you sound when I wake you up. I love how my dog has more sex with you than I do, just kidding. I love how you want to spend every day with me. I love how you squeeze my hand. I love how you rub my back, and kiss my neck. I love how you lay next to me, and tell me that everything’s perfect. I love how everything is perfect. I love how you see the person I really am. I love how you say we are perfect for each other. I love how you make me cry, but not because I’m upset or sad, or you hurt me, but because you made me the happiest person ever. I love how I wake up in the morning for you. I love how I anticipate seeing you. I love how you kiss me. I love how I look at the empty space in my bed, and wish you were filling it. I love how I get nervous when I see you, but feel more comfortable with you than I do with anyone else. I love how my parents love you. I love how you deal with my picky eating habits. I love how you worry about me, and take care of me. I love how you pay for me when we go places. I love how you insist everything will be alright, and make me feel at ease. I love how you keep me warm when I’m cold. I love how you give me weird looks at awkward moments. I love how you stop everything for me. I love how I’m important to you. I love how I make you happy. I love how you make me happy. I love how you make sure I stay in line. I love how I only want to be with you. I love how I only think about you. I love how I stop everything because I get distracted and have to call you. I love how you get jealous. I love how you are when you are with your family. I love being with your family. I love how I can see myself with you forever. I love how we talk about being together forever. I love how you think I have cute feet. I love how you tickle me. I love how you get mad when someone says something to upset me. I love everything about you.

A Quote For You

BANAT OF THE DAY:

"Buti sana kung lahat ng tao sa mundo ikaw-ee sana di ako matatakot kung mawala ka--ee kaso nagiisa ka lang-wala tayo magagawa jan."

MakeSence:

-Gamitin mo yung puso mo kesa paniwalaan mo ang tenga at mata mo kase babaguhin lang nito ang nasa isip mo.

NICE THOUGHT:

"bakit mo bibilhin ang isang bagay kung hindi mo naman talaga gusto-nakita mo lang sa ibang tao kaya gusto mo din magkaroon."

REAL CONVO:

Girl: maghanap ka nalang ng iba mas pa sakin.iwan mo na ako!

Boy: ayoko.

Girl: weh,nagawa mo nga dati tapos ngayon aayaw ka.

Boy: ayoko nga sabi,ang kulit mo.

Girl: bakit ayaw mo?

Boy: ilan ba ang puso ko? diba isa lang-at sayo yun-ano bang sinasabi mo na may mas pa sayo-ikaw lang naman yun..

• Ang ibon kapag pinalaya mo babalik pa rin sila sa tirahan na pinaglagyan mo-kase alam nila kung san sila mas magiging masaya-kaya kahit ilang beses mo pa sila palayain at iligaw-makababalik pa rin sila kinabukasan sayo.

• Yung kaligayahan na-isang beses mo lang sa buong buhay mo mararamdaman- <3 <3 <3  kahit araw araw ako nag-a-Update sa status ko-dadating din ang araw na-mababakante tong WALL ko.pagpatay na ako. :( 
• Minsan,gusto ko na talaga mawala sa mundo-mabura na-lalo pag nakakaramdam ako ng lungkot at takot na mawala ka. :( 
• Naging masama man ako noon-nagbabago na ako ngayon-at lahat ng yun ay dahil sayo. :( 
• Di ko nman sinabi na-ako ang maging pangarap mo-ang ibig ko lang ee-tuparin mo ang pangarap ko-at ikaw yun. :( 
• Ako yung tao na-kapag nasaktan-lalayo nalang-mananahimik-at isang araw-makikita mo-pinaglalamayan na. :( 
• Nagagalit lang ako sa tuwing pinamumukha mo sa lahat na hindi kita mahal. :( Nagbakasakali lang ako na baka bumalik pa tayo sa dati-pero sayo na din mismo galing na-hindi na yun maaayus pang muli. :( 
• Hindi naman kita niloko at pinaglaruan-di ko lang talaga napansin na-yung mga taong binibigyan ko ng advice-nagkakagusto na sakin. :( 
• Ikaw na nga yung pinakamamahal ko-sayo ko lang ginawang labing dalawa ang oras ko-at kompleto yun-lahat din naman ng tao nasasaktan kapag nagmahal-lalo na kung totoo yun-alam mo ba? nasasaktan ako kase totoo yung pinaramdam at binahagi ko sayong pagmamahal. :( 
• Kapag nasanay ka na wala ako-magiging masaya na ako-kase di kana masasaktan dahil sakin at di ka na iiyak dahil sakin-pero wag mo asahan na-masasanay ako na wala ka-kase mahirap kapag wala na yung nagpapaikot sa mundo ko. :( 
• Pagkagising sa umaga-ikaw ang inaalala-sa tuwing lunchbreak-ikaw ang hinahanap-sa tuwing matutulog-ikaw ang nasa panaginip-kaya sana-wag mo naman sabihin na-may ibang mahal ako.ikaw lang yun. :( 
• kapag nalulungkot ka-diba naghahanap ka ng ibang makakausap mo-ganun din ako-nghahanap din ako ng taong magbibigay ng payo sakin-para mas lalo tayong magtagal-kaya di ibig sabihin nun na-interesado ako sa kanila. :( 
• Di mo man nakikita ang ginagawa ko-di mo man ako nababantayan san man ako magtungo-wag ka magalala-ikaw lang ang kasama ng puso ko kahit saan pa ako magtungo. :( 
• Mas makakabuti na mamatay ako-kesa manatiling buhay at isipin mong may iba na ako.Di nako magmamahal ng iba- 
• SAD BUT TRUE: Wag mo hulaan kung uulan ba bukas o katatamtaman ang panahon-dahil umulan man o hindi-iba na bukas kesa ngayon. para mo rin hinulaan na-baka bukas mahal niya na ako-kahit alam mo na-imposible yun.
• Ano ba ang mas magandang sabihin sa taong mahal mo kapag makikipaghiwalay na siya? ->AYOKO MAWALA KA?
• ->DI KO KAYA MAWALA KA?

sa tingin nyu-may pagkakaiba ba yan?o pareho lang..

aDminwishmaSterbOy

• When I'm not there... do you think of me? When you're sad and something's bothering you... do you wish I were there to help comfort you? When you've had a long hard day... do you smile knowing that soon you'll be seeing me, and everything will seem better, even if it's just for a moment? When you lay down at night... do you look back and cherish the new memories you've made with me? And when you get up in the morning, does everything inside of you smile, knowing that this will be another day that we'll be together? because that's how I think of you baby... :'( :'(
• Not being able to hold you has got to be the hardest thing I've ever had to do. But I get to look forward to the next time you are in my arms; your smile only inches away from mine getting closer and closer until at last... our smiles meet. Something that beautiful... that's what keeps me going.
• I miss the way I used to call you and you used to call my name, I miss the way we used to talk with sweetest word ever, but most of all I miss the way you love me and my heart. I miss you...
• What I have with you is worth it. It is worth every lonely night, every tear I cry of missing you, and the pain I feel from not having you closed. It is worth it because you are my one and only. When I picture myself years from now, I see only you. No matter how painful distance can be, not having you in my life would be worse.
• If my heart had wings I would fly to you and lie beside you as you dream.
• Late at night when all the world is sleeping, I stay up and think of you. And I wish on a star that somewhere, you are thinking of me too. :(
• It's not a 'good-bye', only a long 'I'll see you later.'
• No matter how far you are, no matter how long I'm gone, you will always be with me. I will see you always as clear as day, for our love knows no boundries and never will, because you see... our hearts are one, and mine is always home.
• I wanted a perfect ending. Now I've learned the hard way that some poems don't rhyme, and some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle, or end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's to happen next.
• Someone asked me, the other day, that if I could change five things about my life, what would I change? My answer: nothing this is who I am, who I'm meant to be. I love being me; even when I'm feeling crappy and I hate myself I wouldn't change a thing.
• Life isn't about keeping score. It's not about how many people call you and it's not about who you've dated, are dating, or haven't dated at all. It isn't about who you've kissed, what sport you play, or which guy or girl likes you. It's not about your shoes or your hair or the color of your skin or where you live or go to school. In fact, it's not about grades, money, clothes, or colleges that accept you or not. Life isn't about if you have lots of friends, or if you are alone, and it's not about how accepted or unaccepted you are. Life just isn't about that. But life is about who you love and who you hurt. It's about how you feel about yourself. It's about trust, happiness, and compassion. Life is about avoiding jealousy, overcoming ignorance, and building confidence. It's about what you say and what you mean. It's about seeing people for who they are and not what they have. Most of all, it is about choosing to use your life to touch someone else's in a way that could never have been achieved otherwise. These choices are what life's about.
• It's hard to accept, but you can't change the past. You can't go back and manipulate things to the way you wanted them to happen. Because life'd be meaningless and boring and just not worth living. But you can change the future and that's a beautiful thing about life. Yes, you will make mistakes. And yes, you will have bad days - but as long as you let the past go, you'll have such a gorgeous and bright future ahead of you. Knowing that things were meant to happen. Knowing that each day you will learn something so that you keep growing to be a better person. Life is like a rope, twined in all its complexities and yet weaved into one marvelous stream that you have the chance you use something amazing from. So grab hold of it.
• I used to think that death was the hardest thing to overcome. It's not. It's hard comparable really. Death is final. You watch the casket be lowered into the ground and you mourn, but you eventually get over it. It can take years and it hurts like hell, but it's final. that person is gone and there is no fear of a repeat. With attempted suicide there is no finality. Nothing hurts more than someone you love trying to end their own life. Nothing compares.
• If I could relive my life, I wouldn't. Cause everything I've done, I've never once regretted doing them. And everything I am is everything I was meant to be.
• God saw you getting tired, and a cure was not to be. So he put his arms around you, and whispered, "Come with me." With tearful eyes we watched you, and saw you pass away. Although we loved you dearly, we could not make you stay. A golden heart stopped beating. Hard working hands at rest. God broke our hearts, to prove to us, He only takes the best.
• 'I love you' means that I accept you for the person that you are, and that I do not wish to change you into someone else. It means that I will love you and stand by you even through the worst of times. It means loving you when you're in a bad mood or too tired to do things I want to do. It means loving you when you're down, not just when you're fun to be with. I love you means that I know your deepest secrets and do not judge you for them, asking in return only that you do not judge me for mine. It means that I care enough to fight for what we have and that I love you enough not to let go. It means thinking of you, dreaming of you, wanting and needing you constantly, hoping you feel the same way for me.

Long Quotes

Somewhere between the procrastination... and the homework... and the incessant forwards... and the friendships... and the calls to each other complaining about crushes... Somewhere between the phone calls to old friends... And the "I miss yours, the "I love yours, and the "What are we doing tonight?"... And somewhere between all of the changing and growing... Somewhere between the classes... And the skipping classes... And the studying for tests... And the pretending to study for tests... And the downright NOT studying for tests... I forgot... I forgot what high school is all about. I forgot what it meant to cry... I forgot that pretending to be happy doesn't make you happy... And that pretending to be smart doesn't make you smart... I forgot that you can't just forget the past in fear of the future... I forgot that you can't control falling in love... And that you can't make yourself fall in love... I learned that I can love... I learned that it's okay to mess up... And it's okay to ask for help... And it's okay to feel like crap... I learned it's okay to complain and whine to all your friends for a whole day... I learned that sometimes the things you want most you just can't have. I learned that the greatest thing about high school isn't the parties or the drinking or the hook-ups... It's the friendships, which means taking chances... I learned that sometimes the things we want to forget are the things which we most need to talk about... I learned that letters from friends are the most important things... And that sending cards to your friends makes you feel better. But, basically, I just learned that my friends... Both old and new... Are the most important people to me in the world. AND... without them, I wouldn't be who I am today. So this is a thank you to all of my friends... For always being there. And even if we're not on good terms or we have lost touch... I still care for you... Always and forever love all you guys.

As time goes by, life has a way of rearranging itself. People enter your life, and inevitably, they leave as well. Things have a tendency to happen that can turn your world upside down. You'll come to realize eventually, that even though things are different, you are as well.

Emo Sad Photo

Sadness is when you can't find happiness you just cry.

I Was Only Chasing Dreams

I walk alone to this unknown place town

Just realize nobody ever is around I own

So i kicked the stone i was passing by

Now is the best saddest of my day

I looked at every car pass through me

Avoiding every person looked at me

Unlike the dog who enjoy following me

while other people behind me not anymore

I wake up from a nice dream of mine

That you and me is like a princess and prince

You are my princess and i am your prince

living in a fairy land we ever dream before

But you told me that i was only chasing dream

I wake up from a good and great dreams

That you and me are like a king and queen

You are my queen and i am your king

living in a castle with a lot of soldier

But you told me that i was only chasing dreams

One day i was with my friends in college

They aske me "what's goin on with you?"

I answer "nothings it's a part of growing up"

But they demand and said "na!you change a lot."

Don't stay in one place just travel around.

I wake up from a good and bad nightmaire

That you and me is only a dreamer 

You are my dream and i am your nightmaire

Living in the mind that chasing everything

But you told me to stop chasing dreams

And after a long dreams when i am sleeping

I wish to never wake up again and live inside my dream

I wish for nothing but the best for you since then

But you prove that i was only dreams for nothing to be true

For nothing to be real,so i stop and end up my life chasing all my dreams for you.

Tagalog Quotes

• Di nalang siguro ako aasa na may magmamahal pa sakin ng lubos.kahit nga sarili kong pamilya di ako magawang mahalin o pahalagahan-wala na sila pakialam sakin ibang tao pa kaya.ANGSAKLAP!
• Ganun ba talaga ako kasama-na di kaya paniwalaan kahit nasasaktan ako.hayst.worthless.
• Wala-naikwento ko lang sayo-di naman ako nagpapaawa.
• Ang buhay ko-mas masaklap pa sa isang taong namatayan ng minamahal-kase ako buhay na buhay pa pero gusto ng mamatay ng mga tao sa pailigid ko.Masakit pero ganun talaga-kailangan lang gawin ee pagbigyan sila.
• Alam mo ba yung pakiramdam na nahihirapan ka na pero di ka pa rin kayang paniwalaan ng iba? yung tipong sumisigaw kana sa sakit pero sila tuwang tuwa pa kase akala nglalaro ka lang.worst life
• Tama naman ako aa-naiisip niya lang itxt si mama pag kailangan nya pero pag sya ang kailangan ni mama-di man lang magreply-mgrereply kung tapos na yung problema-naiisipan nya din kapag abala ako-ganun sya kasama para sakin.
• Galit ako sa ate ko-galit ako sakanya pero di ko magawang ilabas-kadugo ko sya kaya ganun-pero sa tuwing nakikita ko siya-parang gusto ko tumapos ng isang buhay at unahin ang sarili ko.
• Oo na-naniniwala na ako na may diyos-kase pinaparusahan nya na ako.
• Wag ka maawa sakin aa-Ang buhay ko di naman totoong mahalaga.okay lang. :)
• My mouth is dry,all i feel this time is worse than killing life-it's just bringing me in trouble again..
• Hindi na daw talaga ako magbabago sabi ng kapatid ko-wala na daw pagasa ang buhay ko na umayos-alam mo kung bakit matigas ako-kase ayokong mabuhay dahil sa awa-pagmamahal ang kailangan ko-bat parang wala.tangina.
• Oras oras ko nararamdaman ang pagbalot ng mga ugat sa utak ko-pero di ako sumusuko -nilalabanan ko na manalo sila sa pagwasak ng utak ko.
• Buti pa ang dyablo mahalaga ako sakanya-kase pakikinabangan nya ako sa huli.

Tagalog Quotes ni Pilosopong Utak

REAL CONVO
Girl: do u love me?
Boy: no.
Girl: (cried and push the boy) i hate you!
Boy: why hate me?
Girl: cause you don't love me at all. (crying)
Boy: no,it's not what i mean.
Girl: then what is it?
Boy: i just want you to love me-only you-cause i will keep you forever if you'll do.
Girl: <3 love u 2.

aDminwishmaSterbOy
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NICE THOUGHTS:

-"kahit magpaanod ka sa dagat kung marunong ka naman lumangoy-di mo pa rin hahayaan na ipadpad ka ng alon sa kung saan-kase ikaw pa rin ang magdidisisyon kung saan mo gusto mapadpad."

(makesense)
aDminwishmaSterbOy
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BANAT of the DAY:

Girl: bakit ba selos ka ng selos jan?
Boy: ee bakit ba paselos ka ng paselos jan?
Girl: ee kase gusto ko lang malaman kung mahal moko.
Boy: ano kaba-sobrang ngseselos na nga ako ee-lalo na kung pinapakita mo na sobrang mahal na mahal moko-pati tuloy sarili mo napapabayaan mo na-dahil sakin.

wew
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ADVICE para sa mga naguguluhan:

"di mo kailangan maguluhan sa isang sitwasyon-kase kung talagang ayaw mo na-aaminin mo ito sa kanya at kung talagang may pagasa pa at gusto mo pa siya-magusap kayo-kase kahit sino pa ang tanungin mo kung ano ang dapat mong gawin-mas nakakabuti pa rin yung "KAYO MISMO ANG MAGUSAP AT MAGAYUS NG SITWASYON"

aDminwishmaSterbOy
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kapag naramdaman mo na nasasaktan mo na siya-
huwag mo ng hayaan na makita pang tumutulo ang luha sa kanyang mga mata-
yakapin mo na siya at sabihin kung gaano mo siya kamahal at gaano mo iniingatan ang isang tulad niya.

aDminwishmaSterbOy
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2ND CHANCE?
-ito yung pagkakataon na sobrang sinusulit mo at sobrang pinahahalagahan mo kase alam mo na wla ka ng pagasa sa susunod na magkamali ka. samantalang ang FIRST CHANCE binabalewala mo lang kase alam mo na mapapatawad ka pa.tsk tsk isipin mo..

aDminwishmaSterbOy
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Hindi tulad ng gameboy o online games ang sitwasyon sa isang relasyon kaya wag mo itong ikukumpara sa taong mahal mo-dahil hin di mo maaaring eRESTART O eNEWGAME kapag natalo ka at eEXIT pagayaw mo na.

aDminwishmaSterbOy
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BANAT NG MGA PANGIT:
"dibale ng pangit marunong naman magpakatao-samantalang madalas kapag may itsura-mas pangit pa samin kung umasta."

aDminwishmaSterbOy
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kung kumplikado ang relasyon niyo-hiwalayan mo na-kase di naman magiging komplikado ang isang sitwasyon kung pareho nyu pang mahal ang isa't isa.

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A Tree People

People are like a trees in the forest

They grow, wide, strong and stands alone

But trees aren't make a tears

Cause they just create a water to fall from the sky

They cry but not because they get hurt

but because they want their own happiness

They wanted to grow bigger and strong

How about the people?

They wanted to grow stronger and give up all things

Sometimes people doesnt know how to be contented

They don't know how to value things

Trees are sometimes are like immortal

When they died from disaster they starts a new life

I Wanna Grow Old With you

I was in thailand-It was march when she decided to leave their house and went far away. I planned-a lot more things to do, i want her, i love her and i wanna be with her,so i looked for a part time job to earn money to come back to philippines-it was about 3weeks while im in work- i worked hard even if i dont know how to handle it-i dont know if its work so. All i think about is her- i wanna see her,touch her,hug her and i wanna hear her voice- it's really hard cause i don't have phone to call her cause my granny doesnt give me the previledge to used phone to call someone else- i pleased her many times but she doesn't forgive me- i cried alone- i just sleep and hoping for granny's forgiveness- i said her one time again crying " i wanna talk to her granny! just give me atleast a minute just to talk with her-pleased" but i failed to get her attention-instead of giving me the phone-she used to lock me in my room-i was shocked-weak and lonely inside my room-while i keep on saying " do I deserve to have this kind of fuckin life?fuck god! why the hell did you make this to myself.i cursed you always, how do people pleased with you even they dont see you-me? dont ask me if i have faith in you cause all of my life since you make my life miserable-i start to hate you-im your sin and your my enimies." then i fall asleep.. i have dream that time- it was me in a street-walkin alone-while holding something- i dont know what it is-but i look like a weak and fragile man in my dream-maybe i am hoping for something to work out.but i always failed-i always end up crying.

After 3weeks-it was month of APRIL-i feel so excited- i have her number and all i have to do is to buy phone and sim-just to talk to her.i wanna meet her-i wanna see her smile.It was april 15-5:00 o'clock in the afternun-i was in the airport-i felt nervous and excitement-saying "yes!atlast-we will be together-when i was in the plane- i used to listened to my music and it was song title "i wanna grow old with you by westlife" i really loved to hear in that song-cause everytime i listend to it-i reminize those time we are spending all the hour in online at facebook-it was a happy moment she left me before she's gone. but i am still hoping to talk to her- i was cried and cried when my tears fall down into my chic-and i think of her all the time while i was traveling. how is she? did she eat well? is she safe? or did she make something just to be happy? i have really so many thoughts about her. then i fall asleep in the plane.....

When i was arrive-I am gladly to come back in my own country-is this philippines?I asked someone else-he answer "yup,are you foreign? I said "na,i am filipino-it was a year ago when i left this country,by the way thanks for the information-i was glad i came back here again-then the man smiled at me-saying "take care,there are so many strangers in this place." i said thanks in a louder voice cause the man is far away from me."okay sir,thanks again-same to you!"then i continue walking quickly- I envied to the other passengers, they all have sevens and relatives waiting to airport, but me? There is nothing with me that time, I never told my parents that i am going home,I'm sad but happy that I somehow, I just only think that i have to see her- i have to called her first.In an hour i am in our home- when i got there, it was my mum- She met me a slap in my face- it hurts but I admit it was my fault- She still don't forgot what prankly I could have done before she send me in thailand hell. But i admit-i accept all their blamed on me- i know and i understand them-  She can not really love me and treat as a real children. But it's okay- atleast she forgive me to stay at home even if she doesn't talk to me, all i think about is someone whom the reason why i get back home.

It was 8 o'clock in the evening-i am in my room thinking about her-i am about to give a call to her-it rang- ring,ring,ring- "hello?"said the girl in the other line-i stop-listen hard to that voice-a girl-a girl that was in my mind since the time i left my country- my heart beat fast-feeling nervous-ashame-blushing and excitement.It was her-am can't believe i am listening to her voice this time-it's like a dream so long ago that came for real and it's true-it's her voice and it's her soul speaking to me.It was the best-ever day of my life since i first listen to her voice-what else if we can see each other? maybe i will die-because of happinness.

shit happen

life become worthless..a shit happen..fuck life

tagalog Quotes And Saying

teka lang-nakikipaglaro pa ako sa mga langgam-talo ako kaya kinagat nila ako-sayang dapat ako ang panalo para sila naman ang kagatin ko.Dinaya kase nila ako-paliitan daw ng utak-tsk tsk-badtrip talaga.

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minsan ang isang buhay ng tao nakasalalay din sa buhay ng ibang tao-bakit?

kase sa oras na masaktan sila ng iba-pagtapos agad ng sariling buhay ang solusyon nila.
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minsan mahirap intindihin ang isang bagay-tulad ng ganito.

magmahalan nalang daw kayo habang buhay-pero siya naman unang bumibitaw-tapos magagalit pag di mo pinigilan.

lols-ganyan ang buhay pagibig-
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Sometimes,i wish for certain people who stop me from crying,stop me from bleeding and stop me from dying but in the end i'm always left behind.
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ang pinakabrutal na magagawa ng isang emo ay GAWAN KA NG BANGS HANGGANG LIKOD.nyehahaha dami kong tawa dito-

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bakit may mga bagay na hindi mo naman gusto mawala pero kusang nawawala sayo? kusang naglalaho at kusang nabubura.

pero ganyan talaga siguro kase hindi lahat ng bagay habang buhay nasa paningin mo.tama?

aDminwishmaSterbOy
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Sabi ng iba-bakit daw sa tuwing tatayo sila ee paulit ulit lang din silang nadadapa-

sagot naman ng iba-kase kesa magumpisa ng panibagong buhay-pinagpapatuloy nila yung nuon na nasimulan-syempre magiging bahagi pa yun sa kwento-

-"dapat next book hindi next page.(makesense)"
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wag mo samantalahin ang kabaitan ng isang tao.

tandaan mo:
"mas malakas sumuntok ang mabait kase lagi silang me lakas."
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Yung buhay daw madalas lang na naisusulat sa aklat-
-pero-aanhin pa nga ba ang aklat kung sa isip at puso mo palang ee nakaukit na siya.
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Wag ka maghamon ng away kung sa huli maghahanap ka lang din ng kakampi.

para ka lang pumila sa mahabang linya na nghanap ka ng mababayaran para lang ipila ka.
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Kung sa bawat problema at pagsubok na dadating sayo at patuloy mong pagtataguan at tatakbuhan-wala kang matatapos kundi may maiipon ka-
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Nagumpisa ka sa tuldok natapos ka sa mahabang linya-

makesense:
"hindi ka makakagawa ng mahabang linya kung di ka magsisimula sa tuldok."
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bakit kaya kahit anong ang gawin mong ilag-
natatamaan ka pa rin ng hangin?

hahaha di ko alam kung bakit naisip ko yan.
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kailangan mo maghanda lalo na kapag natamaan ako sayo

Para Sayo Hindi Ko to Babaguhin

Hindi ko alam kung bakit ko nagawa yun sa kanya-Nagsinungaling ako at dun pa sa pinakaayaw nya-Hindi ko alam magkaibigan lang talaga kami-Hindi ko din alam na sinasabi niya sa pamilya niya na kami daw-samantalang alam nya na kaibigan lang turing ko sa kanya- hindi nman yun masasabing naREJECT ko siya kase tinanggap ko pa rin siya bilang kaibigan-sinabi niya din na wala na siyang nararamdaman sakin kase me mas ibang gusto na siya ngayon-ewan ko ba-pero kahit anong gawin kung iwas-di pa rin siya tumitigil-hanggang sa nagaway na nga sila ng mahal ko-di ko na pinigilan-kase alam ko na yun ang tamang paraan-makasakit man kami-atleast para naman siya na mismo lumayo-mahal ko ang gf(khareen) ko kahit anuman mangyari-kahit ilang babae pa ang magpakita ng motibo sakin-kinakausap ko sila di dahil interesado ako kundi para payuhan na wag ako-hindi naman ako mayabang-ayoko lang talaga na makasakit ng iba kase kahit anung gawin nila-hindi nila mapapalitan ang totoong mahal ng puso ko at tanging babae na kilala ng isip ko-yun ang gf(khareen) ko-Nagsisisi ako sa tuwing nasasaktan ko siya-nasasaktan ako sa tuwing malalaman ko na umiiyak siya dahil sa akin-samantalang pinangako ko sakanya nung una palang na di ko siya sasaktan at di ko siya paiiyakin-mahal ko siya higit pa sa buhay ko-o sa ibang taong naging importante sakin-kahit siya pa ang umalis-kapag bumalik siya ako pa rin yung taong umpisa palang ay minahal na siya-ang sarap pakinggan kapag naririnig ko ang boses niya at sinasabi kung gaano nya ako kamahal-mahal ko siya di dahil mahal niya din ako o di dahil kailangan ko siya kundi-mahal ko siya dahil sakanya lang ako natuto gawing tama ang mga maliknug gawain nuon..Nasasaktan din ako sa tuwing sinasabi niya sakin na wla akong pakialam-na hindi ko siya mahal-na niloloko at pinaglalaruan ko lang siya-pero hindi ee-hindi ganun yung nararamdam ko para sakanya- pakiramdam ko- siya na yung ngbibigay ng buhay sa akin-sa mundo ko na nuon ay palaruan lang pero ngayon isang malaking bahay na hugis puso na -at punong puno ng pagmamahalan-ee ano naman kung ayaw sakin ng magulang niya--ee ano naman din kung may mga taong kontra sa amin-ang mahalaga sakin ee binigay ko na sakanya ang buong puso at buhay ko-siguro pag nawala siya-hindi ko na kayang paikutin ng magisa ang mundo ko-me tumulong man na ibang tao- hindi na yun tulad ng dati na mas masaya at mas magaan sa pakiramdam nung kami pa-mas gugustuhin ko pang mamatay nalang kesa magmahal pa ng iba at makalimutan ko siya-ayoko siya mawala sa isip at puso ko-gusto ko manatili lang siya dito sa mundo na pareho naming binuo-dahil kahit kelan walang makakatumbas ng pagmamahal na binigay ko sakanya at ng pagmamahal na binigay nya sakin-habang buhay ko na pahahalagahan ang mga bagay na ginawa at binigay niya para sakin-dahil sakanya ko lang naramdaman ang tunay na kahulugan ng KALIGAYAHAN.

Love taglog quotes and saying

REAL CONVO:(bitter sweet)
BOY: alam mo ba kung sino ang pinakamagandang babae dito sa loob ng bar?
GIRL: at alam mo din ba kung sino ang pinakasinungaling sa loob ng bar na to?

hahaha di nakapalag yung lalaki-

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REAL CONVO:(bitter sweet)
BOY: hi miss,gusto mo ba sumayaw?
GIRL: oo pero hindi sayo.
BOY: hindi moko naiintindihan,sabi ko ang taba mo sa skirt na sout mo.

hahaha palusot porke natanggihan.

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REAL CONVO:(bitter sweet)
BOY: hey,ano ba ang sign mo?
GIRL: stop.

hahaha maguumpisa palang nabasag na
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Naranasan mo na ba magmahal ng taong handang tawirin ang dagat at mga bund0k

MAIWASAN KA LANG.
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“Huwag mo nalang ako tingnan, para hindi mo na maalala kung gaano kita nasaktan.”

-PEKLAT
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girl: u promsed that u wll never cheat…

bf: nag promse na nga! anu pa gusto mo? 2parn q? dats too much!

haha.
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Ang pag-untog ng ulo sa pader ay di nanganga-hulugang ito’y gawain ng isang baliw ..

minsan,

ito ay paraan ng pagkuha ng lakas at pandagdag buhay.

-SUPER MARIO
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HoW C0me I?

h0W CoME i?

h0W CoME i?

h0W coMe I? D KtA iiWAn s
PglkbY! d2S mUNdoNG WlaNG
ktYAKAn! hoW c0Me I? d kta
bBTwan S pgLLkby! s mUNDo
NG kWALan! Ü
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BROCOLLI: i luk lyk a tree.
WALLNUT: i luk lyk a brain.
MUSHROOM: i luk lyk an umbrella.
EGGPLANT: dude? change topic
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You are the reason why i wake up early in the morning & quickly gets my phone under my pillow because i was expecting for your morning message.
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no matter how busy i am,i will do anything to get hold of you by any means,cause you are one of my PRIORITIES.
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some funny story:

husband vs. wife

isang gabi umuwi c husband gutom n gutom ,, at galit n galit
s wife namn ganun din... at nagcmula ang away

WIFE: sav ko sau magsaing k na ehh!!!!
HUSBAND: kaw ang dpat magsaing dhl babae kaw...
WIFE: ikaw!
HUSBAND: ikaw!
o' cge ganto na lang kng cnu ang gumalw cyang magsasaing!
anu deal!
WIFE: cgeh!!! kala m huh nde kita uurungan!!!


after 3 hrs,
dumating c kumpare ni husband..... ui pare inuman tau! nakita nito sa teres c husband peo nde kumikibo..
KUMPARE: ppsok n ko pare ahh!
sa sofa nakita nya si misis... nakaupo wlang kibo...
nilapitan nya at tinanong kung anung nangyare pero nde rin to kumibo
at kht anung gawin ni kumpare nde p rin kumikibot ang dalawa...
kea namn hanggang sa napagsamantalahn nya c misis peo wla p rin kibo c misis
wlang ingay... at nde p rin kumibo c mister..

KUMPARE: cgeh pre aalis n ko (nagmamadali)
pagkatapos,, lumapit c wife kay husband naiyak
WIFE: wlang hiya k napagsamantalahnn ko nde k pa rin kumibo!!!!!
HUSBAND: IKAW NA MAGSASAING!!! PANALO AKO aHiHiHi


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Sa canteen nag order ang KANO:
KANO:Will u plz giv mem a few two?
TINDERA: what, sir?
KANO: I said, "few two!"
TINDERA: ay! u want PUTO!
KANO: datz ryt!
Is dat how u pronounce it?
(tindera ngbagotbot) Buang maning kanoa, Puto lang
diay. Pa-few two, few two pah Balusan nko bi.
wat color sir, few ti or few la?
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Silence is the best answer you can give to an issue..
what's the use of admitting or denying when in the
first place, you are already judged?

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SILENCE-
-pinaka mabuting sagot na maibibigay mo sa isang pagdududang tanong...
anong silbi ng PAG AKO NG KASALANAN O PAG-DENY kung sa una palang-NAHUSGAHAN kana.

wew tama naman diba-manahimik ka nalang kesa magsalita mas paniniwalaan pa rin nila ang nakikita nila.
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Nver treat anyone like a stone, as if they don't
feel anything... because when a stone gets back
at u, they can cause real pain
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Huwag mong ituring na BATO ang isang tao,na akala mo hindi ito nakakaramdam ng kahit na ano--kase kapag ang BATO bumalik sayo-magbibigay ito ng TUNAY na SAKIT sayo.

aDminwishmaSterbOy


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This is our story...

AKO SI SHISHUKA: " i broke up with him today. i told him i am tired. he didn't even ask why.I thought he would ask me to stay but he didn't. he just let me go and just like that I LOST THE GUY I WAITED FOR SO LONG".

LEE WISHH MASTTER: " she broke up with me today. she said she's so tired, i was too hurt to ask why. i wanted to stop her from leaving but if she's not happy with me, there's no way i can make her stay so i just let her go..just like that I LOST THE GIRL I'VE DREAMING FOR SO LONG.

in the end-kami pa rin-nyahahaha
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Girl: Ang sweet ng ibang lalaki pag nagpo-propose no?
Boy: Bakit nman?
Girl: Kasi yung iba niyayaya nila mag-date tapos nasa cake yung ring.
Boy: Ah.
Girl: Wew. Parang hindi ka naman kinilig. Ikaw, pag nag-propose ka. Saan mo ilalagay yung ring?
Boy: Sa daliri mo.
Girl: :">
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Sa pag-ibig, di mahalaga ang nakaraan kundi ang kasalukuyan. Mas matimbang ang karanasan kaysa sa sakit na pinagdaanan. Ang tanging magpapatatag dito ay kapatawaran at hindi ang pagsumbat sa kasalanan.

CONVERSATION ON PHONE BETWEEN A BOY AND GIRL WHO HAVE BEEN TOGETHER FOR 5 MONTHS:

Boy: Hey, hun!

Girl: Hey.

Boy: I missed you at school today. Why weren't you there?

Girl: Yeah, I had to go to the doctor.

Boy: Oh really? Why?

Girl: Oh, nothing. Just some annual shots, that's all.

Boy: Oh.

Girl: So what did we do in math today?

Boy: You didn't miss anything that great, just a lot of notes.

Girl: Ok, good.

Boy: Yeah.

Girl: Hey, I have a question...

Boy: Ok, ask away.

Girl: ....how much do you love me?

Boy: You know I love you more than anything in this world.

Girl: Yeah...

Boy: Why did you ask?

Girl: ...>silence<...

Boy: Is something wrong?

Girl: No. Nothing at all.

Girl: ...how much do you care about me?

Boy: I would give you the world in a heartbeat if I could.

Girl: You would?

Boy: Yeah of course I would. >sounding worried< Is there something wrong?

Girl: No, everything's fine...

Boy: Are you sure?

Girl: Yeah.

Boy: Okay...I hope so.

Girl: ..........would you die for me?

Boy: I would take a bullet for you anyday, hun.

Girl: Really?

Boy: Anyday. Now, seriously, is there something wrong?

Girl: No, I'm fine. You're fine. We're fine. Everyone and everything is fine.

Boy: ......okay.

Girl: ....well, I have to go. I'll see you tomorrow at school.

Boy: Alright, bye. I LOVE YOU!

Girl: Yeah...I love you, too. Bye.

THE NEXT DAY AT SCHOOL:

Boy: Hey, have you seen my girlfriend today?

Friend: No.

Boy: Oh.

Friend: She wasn't here yesterday, either.

Boy: I know. She was acting all weird on the phone last night.

Friend: Well, dude, you know how girls are sometimes.

Boy: Yeah, but not her.

Friend: I don't know what else to say, man.

Boy: Okay, well I gotta get to english. I'll see ya after school.

Friend: Yeah I gotta get to science. Later.

THAT NIGHT:

-ring-

-ring-

-ring-

Girl: Hello?

Boy: Hey.

Girl: Oh, hi.

Boy: Why weren't you at school today?

Girl: Uh, I had another appointment with the doctor.

Boy: Are you sick?

Girl: ……..um, I have to go. My mom’s calling on the other line.

Boy: I’ll wait.

Girl: It may take a while. I’ll call you later.

Boy: Alright…………I love you.

>very long pause<

Girl: (with a tear in her eye) Look, I think we should break up.

Boy: What!?

Girl: It’s the best thing for us right now.

Boy: Why??

Girl: I love you.

-click-

THE GIRL DOESN’T COME TO SCHOOL FOR 3 MORE WEEKS AND DOESNT ANSWER HER PHONE.

Boy: Hey dude.

Friend: Hey.

Boy: What’s up?

Friend: Nothing. Hey…have you talked to your ex lately?

Boy: No.

Friend: So you didn’t hear?

Boy: Hear what?

Friend: Um, I don’t know if I should be the one to tell you…

Boy: dude, what the hell just tell me!

Friend: Uh….call this number…433-555-3468

Boy: Ok…

BOY CALLS NUMBER AFTER SCHOOL

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Voice: Hello, Suppam County Hospital. This is Nurse Beckham.

Boy: Uh, I must have the wrong number. I’m looking for my friend.

Voice: What is their name, sir?

(boy gives info)

Voice: Yes, this is the right number. She’s one of our patients here.

Boy: Really? Why? What happened??? How is she???

Voice: Her room number is 646 in building A, suite 3.

Boy: WHAT HAPPENED!?!?

Voice: Please come by, sir, and you can see her. Goodbye.

Boy: WAIT! NO!

-dial tone-

BOY GOES TO HOSPITAL, AND TO ROOM ..646, BUILDING A, SUITE 3. GIRL IS LYING IN THE HOSPITAL BED.

Boy: Oh my God, are u okay??

Girl: ..................

Boy: Sweetie!! Talk to me!!

Girl: I..........

Boy: You what?? YOU WHAT???

Girl: I have cancer and I’m on life support.

Boy: .....................>breaks into tears<......................

Girl: They're taking me off tonight.

Boy: Why??

Girl: I wanted to tell you, but I couldn’t .

Boy: Why didn’t you tell me????

Girl: I didn’t want to hurt you.

Boy: You could never hurt me.

Girl: I just wanted to see if you felt about me the same as I felt about you.

Boy: …?

Girl: I love you more than anything. I would give you the world in a heartbeat. I would die for you and take a bullet for you.

Boy: (crying)

Girl: Don’t be sad. I love you and I’ll always be here with you

Boy: Then why did you break up with me?

Nurse: Young man, visiting hours are over.

The boy leaves and later that night the girl is taken off of life support and dies, but what the boy didn’t know is that the girl only asked him those questions so she could hear him say it one last time. She only broke up with him because she knew she only had 3 more weeks left to live and thought that it would cause him less pain and give him time to get over her before she died.

NEXT DAY

The boy is found dead with a gun in one hand and a note in the other.

THE NOTE SAID:

“I told her that I would take a bullet for her, just like she said she would die for me.”

Regards

CM

My Soul Textmate

My cellphone's beeping sound woke me up one night. Used to receiving important messages only, I grabbed my cellphone and sleepily pressed the keys and read the message.
"Hi there! Care 2 b my txtmate?"
Not knowing who the sender was, I deleted the message right away and placed the phone on my bedside table. I tried to go back to sleep. I had just closed my eyes when I heard the message tone again.
"Hi there, again! Care 2 b my txtmate?" again, the message said.
"Who the hell could this be asking for a textmate at the wee hours of the night?" I asked myself.
Again, I deleted the message without bothering to reply.
I was never a 'textmaniac' - someone who enjoys texting anyone and everyone even in the wee hours of the night, not to mention during the day. My parents who were always abroad, forced me to own a cellphone. They told me that having one was more convenient - they could monitor me even if they're miles away.
I wanted to turn the cellphone off. However, since my mother was fond of calling me at night just to check if I am safe at home, I decided not to.
Just as I was about to close my eyes and return to my dreamless sleep, the phone beeped again. It was from the same number! Such determination!
"Ply reply 2 dis msg & b an angel & save me frm dis abyss of emptiness!"
I never knew why but the message struck me. I got up and pressed the keys. I realized I was replying to the message.
"Im not an angel, n if u want som1 2 save u, Im not superman. Im just a simple person whom u woke up in d mid of d nite! Nway, do I know u?" I typed.
Seconds later came the reply.
"Nope. U don't know dis lonely soul. Nor does she know u. But I want 2 b ur frnd. I'm Mikaella Cervantes. U?"
"Just call me Julius. How did u get my no.?" I sent back.
"Hi Julius, nice 2 meet u. Just shuffled the last two digits of mine" she replied.
That was the first and maybe the last time I met someone over the cellphone.
We exchanged messages and learned so much about each other that night. We only said goodbye when my alarm clock rang at 5 a.m.! I had to prepare for school!
And that was also how it all started. There wouldn’t be a day without a loving and thoughtful message from her. It was only then I learned to appreciate text messages and become eager and excited everytime my phone beeped, hoping it would be her.