I was asked awhile ago by someone if I regretted everything that has happened. I said no. I don’t regret anything, especially any relationship, no matter how badly it may have ended. What we learn from those relationships is what makes it all worth while. We learn how to laugh, and how to have a true smile. One of those smiles you only get when you know you’re holding one of the most important people in the world, at least they are to you. You learn how to fall in love, and what love really means. There is no greater feeling in the world than being in love. It’s like every little piece of your life finally fits perfectly, and you realize what you were missing all those years, even though you never realized it. The thing about love is you know when you’re in love. No one is going to tell you, and you’re not going to question it or wonder if you really are. It’s not a maybe thing; it’s definite. You learn how to trust someone with your heart, though you know they’ll probably end up breaking it. But it’s the heartbreaks that we learn the most from. We learn that if you truly love someone, sometimes you have to let them go, even though they were your whole world, even if it was for just a short while. You learn that it is impossible to forget what you had, even years later. There’s something always in the back of your mind, especially with your first true love. You find yourself sub-consciously comparing everyone you’re with to that person that you fell for first. But the most important lesson you learn from relationships is how to forgive. This is also one of the hardest lessons, because you have every excuse in the world to never talk to them, or forgive them. You gave them your whole heart, and they handed it back in pieces, without glue to fix it. But the thing is, it will stay broken until you learn how to forgive them. You never really heal and move on unless you forgive them, and until you can, you will blame future loves for things that the last person did. So this is why I never regret anything I’ve done, or any relationship I’ve had. I would never trade the months of indescribable happiness for anything, even knowing the heartache that ended those blissful months. Because if you’ve never had a broken heart, then you can never really know what it’s like to be so in love, that nothing else in the world matters. And it is totally worth it.
I don’t have many friends. Alot of people that I talk to, that I say hello to. But I don’t consider any of them friends. Friends implies that you know something about that person, that you trust that person. But time and time again, you find out that even though you may think this, there will always be that one that will make you regret it. Because though your enemies may be able to maim you, you can only be betrayed by someone you trusted, right? And when you’ve been fooled into thinking otherwise for as many times as I have, you start to let it affect you. You start to question everything and everyone, until you no longer know who you can trust. And then, in one last resort to keep your heart, your soul, from breaking from the so many knives thats been put through it, when you lose all faith and the good of humanity, and that the world is all evil You become what I have. A lost and bitter soul, longing for someone to prove you wrong.
And here I am, thinking about you. It's amazing how my mind can spend hours, even days, thinking in what you said, what you did, where you went, what little smile you gave me :) that's the best memory, you made me feel like there was a fire inside me. During minutes, hours, days and nights I think about u. It's just like an addiction, with the difference that real adictions make u feel horrible, but my adiction to you makes me feel happy for a week...
I know that probably u haven't thought of me for a looong time, but you should know that I don't; I spend my whole day thinkin of you, so I guess the only thing I can do is hope someday you'll love me as much as I do!!!
why? why do we fall for those who cant catch us, and ignore those who love us. why do we cry over those who only mean to cause us pain, and waste our time on someone who is just trying to bring us down. we cannot force ourselves to love, just as we cannot force another to love us. we can only be someone who is capable of being loved. who you need to be with isn't always the hottest girl or the the one that girl everyone would die to be with. Maybe sometimes the people that we are really meant to be with are the ones that make us smile. the ones that we can share awkward silences with. Maybe we are supposed to be with the one who is so wrong for us that it makes it right. someone who makes us see them for who they really are. I think that we need to accept that our princess may not be what we expected and that maybe... just maybe shes a little bit more ...
Breathe deeply,
Blink away those tears
Step forward
Open your eyes
And walk away from the pain.
I know, its great. It’s a great pain.
The memories, they are precious to you.
Even though that’s all they are,
I know they mean more to you than almost anything.
I know you’re trying to decide between what’s best for you and what you want.
But I promise that if you give it a chance, the one who is better for you will end up being what you want.
I know, it’s difficult.
Each step will hurt like hell,
Because you’re walking away from everything you once believed in.
Walking away from the one you loved.
But there is nothing for you there.
Not anymore.
It’s best to close the door gently as you walk away.
Don’t slam it.
Bitterness isn’t the way to go.
Just slip away into the sunlight.
You shine on your own,
But its time you let the world see you,
And let the sun warm your skin.
You always loved to dance in the rain.
Keep dancing.
You’re good at smiling through the storm.
Even through all the heartbreak,
You never stopped giving hope to everyone else.
You got a little weary.
It’s affected you, certainly.
You’ve cried so many times.
Those bruises on this heart of yours?
They’re a faded yellow,
But I know it seems as though they’ll never fade.
But they will.
Only if you let them.
I know you feel like running away.
Like sinking into the shadows,
To escape the world and all its pain right now.
But what you need to do…
Baby girl, you know this new guy…
He loves you for you.
He loves you,
And he won’t give up on you.
Run into his arms.
Sink into his love for you.
Show yourself to him.
He wants to see you
To know you.
Breathe deeply,
Blink away those tears
Step forward
Open your eyes
And walk away from the pain.
Because he’ll be there,
With his arms spread wide,
A smile on his face,
So happy to see that you’ve finally come ‘round.
eto naman siguro yung tamang oras para isipin mo naman din yung sarili mo-tama na yung minsan na pagasa mo sa isang taong alam mo namang di mapapasayo-tama na sa paghihintay sa isang tao na-hindi naman dadating sa buhay mo-magpakatotoo ka-minsan kelangan din natin maranasan masaktan at magkamali sa buhay-hindi ibig sabihin na-araw araw ka ng magiging ganun-kelangan mo din naman syempre lumangoy hindi yung hahayaan mo nalang na anurin ka ng dagat patungo kung san-sa mga lugar na di mo naman alam kung ano ang mapapala mo-tao ka din naman diba-mas nakakabuti siguro na-wag mo na munag isipin yung nakakabuti para sakanya-hayaan mo naman yung sarili mo na isipin din kung san ka talga magiging masaya-pero nasaktan ka diba-naranasan mo kung gaano kasakit ang umasa at magmahal sa isang taong mali- pero isipin mo-pano naman magiging mali yun diba-kung tiyak mo naman na tama yung nararamdaman mo para sa taong yun-hindi ka naman duwag kung hahayaan mo syang mawala-ang akin lamang ee-wag mong sagarin ang sarili mo-kilala mopaba ang sarili mo?harap ka sa salamin at tanungin mo yung taong kaharap mo sa mga oras na yun-makikilala mo kung sino at ano kaba talga-normal lang sa buhay masaktan-mas mabuting gagawin mo ee-gawin mong inspirasyon yung mga taong ayaw sayo-galit sayo-at yung mga taong di makita ang kakayahan mo-masarap mabuhay sa mundo-kung malalaman mo lang kung gaano kasaya kapag ka nabubuhay ng nakakangiti ka ng malaya-siguradong aayawn mo ng mamatay at pumanaw sa mundo-pare pareho tayong tao-sa mundo-hindi ka lang sasaya kundi ppatak pa ang luha mo dahil alam mong-nagawa mo ng tama yung mga mali mo noon-kelangan mo din matuto sa buhay-lahat ng tricks malalaman mo kapag kusa mong pinagaralan yun.. at ang wag na wag mong ggawin sa sarili mo ee-WAG KA MAGSISINUNGALING SA SARILI MO-yan lang ang pinakamabisang paraan para maging masaya ka.
Girl: I think I like you Boy: You think? I think you must be mistaken. Girl: no, I like you Boy: I don’t think you like me. I think you like the company. I think you like the conversations we have. I think you like that someone listens. You like the feeling that someone is always there for you. But should you remove me from the equation and place someone else in my spot, you would feel the same way. So you see, you like the feeling but not ME. Girl: Please don’t tell me what I feel. I like you…in fact, I love you. Boy: Would you do me a favour? Girl: Anything Boy: I want you to close your eyes and imagine the following. Imagine yourself in 10 years. I want you to imagine how you look in 10 years. What kind of clothes will you wear. I want you to imagine where you will be working in 10 years. I want you to imagine your family and how they look. I want you to imagine your future car. I want you to imagine your kids on a Saturday afternoon as they play in the backyard. I want you to imagine their first bike ride. I want you to get it all in there. Imagine your house, furniture, everything. I want you to imagine your life.
Okay can you see it all in front of you? Girl: yeah, I see it. Boy: Now, did you see me anywhere in there? Girl: yes I did. Boy: and where would that be? Girl: Well, obviously you were right there with the kids…after all you are their father!!!! Boy: (long pause) I love you too.
im inlove with you.you dont know how much i love you, how much i shake when i walk in the street while reading your messages on my phone. and i save all of our online conversations..i feel a smile slip on my face at the sound of your name...i think about you most of the time. when i go to bed i cant help but fallin love with you again and again, i cherish every moment that we spend time together because im scared that one day it will never happen again. and everytime you walks in my mind i keep on singing a song title "i miss you like crazy". i dont know but this is really what i feel for you. you are the first person i look for when i enter a room and i fall asleep to the memory of your face.. you're breathtaking and ive never seen such a gergoeous smile; but like i said, im inlove with you.
Love is when there are a million things you want to say to someone, but when they look you in the eyes and hold you in their arms, nothing in life matters other than being with that person at that moment.
and now i found the best-nakita ko na yung isang taong magbibigay ng kalgayahan sa buhay ko-yung isang tao na magpupuno sa pagmamahal na pinagkait sakin ng aking nakaraang buhay- mahal ko sya higit pa man-sakali mang magbago pa ang isip nya-mananatili akong ngmamahal at magpapahalaga para sakanya-iingtan ko yung pgmamahal na ibinibigay nya-dahil alam ko naman na hindi yun sapilitan kundi yun din yung naramdaman nya nung una palang-mahal ko sya higit pa kesa mga sa mga bagay na pinahalagahan ko noon paman-handa akong iaalay lahat ng sakripisyo para lang sa pagmamahal nya-gusto ko-alam nya at ramdam nya na buo ang pagmamahal na binibigay kopara sakanya- tapos balang araw-pwede nya ng sabihin sa sarili nya na"MAS MASAYA SA PILING NYA":gusto ko malaman nya na higit paman wala nako ibang hahanapin pa-katulad ng mga salita na binitawan ko-higit padun ang kaya kong patunayan-sa paglipas ng panahon-at pagbabago ng oras meron samin-iniingatan ko lahat ng mga sinsabi nya-pilit na sinusulit yung mga pagkakataon na pagsasama naming dalawa-na balang araw-hahanap hanapin parin namin ang isat isa..
Mula ng magkakilala kami, sabi ko sa sarili ko, "GUSTO KO TONG TAONG TO."yun yung salita na nasabi ko sa sarili ko. Napunta sa pacomment comment- pa like like sa facebook naming pareho- pero nung araw na yun-me ibang mahal sya-mike ang pangalan nun- nawalan ako ng pagkakataon na sabihing gusto ko sya- pero mula nun-patuloy parin kaming ngkakausap-
lagi ako natutuwa sa tuwing ang mga notifcation ko ee-galing sakanya-masarap sa pakiramdam yun diba-me mahal din pala ako nung mga panahong iyon- pareho kami me kanya kanyang mahal- pero nanatili kami sa pagiging magkaibigan-
lumilipas ang mga araw-di parin kami ngkakasawaan-hanggang sa..
SINGLE.
nagkalabuan ba? pero balita ko-SELOS ang dahilan-mejo selosa daw sya kaya wala ng pagmamahalan sakanila ang namamagitan-pero ako nanatiling me mahal pa din-
hindi naman sa nangangaliwa ako o me third party sa pagmamahal ko sa gf ko-mahal ko naman yun-at alam nya yun-di ako ngkukulang sakanya-umabot kami ng isang taon- pero sa buong taon na yun- isa sya sa mga babaeng pinagseselosan ng gf ko-
hanggang sa...
araw araw kami ngaaway dahil sa mga babae na binibintang nya na-KAIBIGAN ko lang talga.
mahirap bang paniwalaan yun-hindi naman sa lahat ng pagkakataon ee dapat sakanya lang yung panahon ko-me mga bagay din naman na-KELANGAN AKO MISMO-
hindi naman sa nagmamayabang ako na-GWAPO AKO-O HABULIN- pero siguro dahil sa mga salita ko o mga payo ko na naibibigay sakanila ee-yung tipong unti unti na silang nahuhulog sa akin- at hindi ko yun ginusto- walang halong malisya ang pagbibigay ng payo ko para sakanila-wala din ako balak na-habulin ang atensyon nila-para daw magmukhang "SIKAT?" wala akong pakialam-basta ako pag ngmahal-FOCUS-
hindi ngtagal-makalipas ang isang taon-
SINGLE.
pero patuloy parin ang usapan namin sa chat-madaming nalilink na mga babae sakin- kada linggo-ngpapalit ako ng real status sa fb-yung iba-sineseryoso ako- yung iba naman-alam nila ang limitasyon- me mga nahuhulog sakin-meron namang gusto ako dahil sa mga magagandang kuha ko sa litrato-
pero sya-bibihira magpalit-patuloy ko lang na sinisilip ang mga larawan nya-dun ako lagi nakatutok sa ALBUM nya-stalker ba matatawag mo sa ginagawa ko? na yung lahat ng updates nyang status-pinagkokonek konek ko-
chat kami:
she: hi kuya.
nagulat ako kase "KUYA?"na tawag nya sakin..
kaya naman para di sya mapahiya-sinubukan kong magreply.
me: hi bunso ko.
natuwa sya dun-at mukhang okay lang sakanya yun-kuya naman din tawag nya sakin ee-lagi kami ngkukulitan-yung tipong-pinapakita namin sa GROUPCHAT na-nasa iisang bahay lang kami-at sinasabi pa nyang nasa KWARTO KO SYA- saya ko nun ee-kso- KUYA lang ba talga ako sakanya?
puro tanong nalang lagi ko sinasabi sa sarili ko-andami dami nyang kaibigan sa friendlist nya na sobrang gugwapo at magagarang lalaki na me dating-
basta ang pagkakakilala ko sakanya-MABAIT SYA-hindi ko naman masasabi na nagustuhan ko sya dahil MAGANDA sya-ewan-di ko kaya mawala sya ee- yung tipong- gusto ko lagi sya ang mauuna magchat sakin-kase alam ko naman na-SAKIN ANG ORAS NYA SA PANAHONG IYON. sympre di nyanaman ako pagtatyagaan kung WALA AKONG SENSE kausap diba?
syempre masarap sa pakiramdam-madami na din nakapagsabi kung-nililigawan ko daw ba sya- pero wala ee-sabiko-nalang lagi-
"HINDI,BUNSO KO YAN EE."
bigla nalang isang umaga-
-----ADD AS FRIEND------
yun yung nakita ko nung bisitahin ko ang profile nya-nagulantang ako sa lungkot-ang akala ko talga dinelete nya na ako-nalungkot syempre- sino ba naman di malulungkot dun-sa dinami dami ng mga friend mo sa list mo ee- yung importanteng tao para sayo pa ang naUNFRIEND-
post agad ako sa wall ng group namn at mabilis kong naclick yung-ADD AS FRIEND button- natatakot ako na sa dami ng friends nya ee di nanya ako maconfirm ulit..
tagal ko nghintay-di kase sya masyado nagoonline-marahil abala sa iba-pero okay lang yun-alam naman siguro nya na-nandito lang ako bilang KUYA para sakanya-na kapag malungkot sya ee-gusto ko ako ang kakausapin nya-
nakakagigil lang kase hanggang ilang taon na di ko pa nasasabi sakanya na"MAHAL KO SYA/" madaming beses sya nagagalit sakin-kala ko minsan gusto nya ako pero umuurong un kapag parang balewala lang sakanya na kinaumagahan parang walang nangyari-
lagi nya ako tinatanong kung TOTOO ba yung mga real status ko sa fb-pero di ako ngsinungaling sakanya-aminado ako na-papalit palit yun pero-hind naman yun seryoso-minsan hinihiram ang fb ko para lang maging panakip butas- gamitin para makamove on ng mga friend ko sa fb-pumapayag ako-wala naman din masama dun diba-
SINGLE KAYA AKO.
me mga panahon na-nawawala sya sa isip ko-siguro dahil sa minsan ee me naka real status na sya sa fb-tumagal din sila nun-sabiko- mahal nya nga yun-kase NAIINGGIT NGA AKO EE-biruin mo nabubuksan nung bf nya yung FB nya-kaya dinako ngchachat dun-nabago ang lahat-ngmahal din ako at sinubukan ang iba-andami dami akong nagugustuhan- at dahil
nagugustuhan ko sila sa dahilang"MAGANDA LANG" kaya mabilis na nawawala nalang bigla-
dumadating nga sa punto na sa tuwing naluugkot ako at wala magawa-nakatambay ako sa paint-sinusubukan ko syang iguhit- pero kahit sa paguhit-SABLAY ako-kaya naisip ko na-
IMPOSIBLE NAMAN NA MANGYARI YUNG NAIISIP KO-pangit ko ee..
minsan din naamin nya sakin na-CRUSH nya daw ako dati-nagustuhan ko yun-nanlaki pa yung mata ko para lang mabasa ng malinaw yung sinabi nya-kaya ngkaron din ako ng pagkakataon para amining-CRUSH KO DIN SYA.
NAGPASALAMATAN LANG KAMI PAREHO.
lumipas ang mga araw ng bigyan nya ako ng bagong mamahalin.nasabi ko nalang..
"BAT NYA AKO PINAMIMIGAY?"
mali talga tong nararamdaman ko kase sya na mismo pinagtutulakan ny a ako-KUYA lang talga ako para sakanya-
pero di ko naman pinatulan yung binigay nya ee-mga magaganda pero di ko gaano kagusto-mababait din pero iba parin yung hanap ko ee-
SUPLADO-
SNOB-
NAGBAGO KANA-
CHOOSY-
MANHID-
ilan lamang yan sa mga sinasabi sakin ng mga nakakausap ko-hindi lang kase nila naintidihan-hindi ako choosy o suplado o manhid-ayoko lang talga na magkaron sila ng dahilan para mahulog sakin-kase wala naman ako balak na magmahal-
lagi nalang ako gumagawa ng mga FS ng mga kafriend ko sa fb-gumagawa ako ng mga patama-para sakanya-para naman sakali na mabasa nya ee malaman nyang sya-hanggang....
isang gabi:ONLINE AKO.
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****onaiza like your photo
sabiko-online sya-diko sya chinachat agad ee-sya talga mismo nghahanap sakin-nasanay na ko dun ee-hehe d naman sa nagpapahabol ako-KUYA nga diba-hahanapin lang pag me kelangan ang BUNSO.
onaiza typing message......
she:kua ko.
me: bunso hello.
she:musta?
me: okay lang kaw ba?
she:ok namn din, musta pala kayo ni she..
me: ah wla,chat lang.
she:bakit?
me: wala nga-mgkaibigan lang kami.
she:bakit nga?
me:bakit iniisip mo ba na liligawan ko sya-di ko naman sya gusto bunso ee- :)
she:gusto mo ligawan kita?hehe
me:ano?
she:ayaw mo?
me: di naman bakit mo namn ako liligawan.loko to.
she:rejected ako?
me: di naman- seryoso kaba?
she:oo seryoso ako-
me: di na kelangn,basahin mo ang profile ko.
she:nabasa kona-
me: ano sagot mo?
she:oo yan sagot na yan.
me: seryoso ka?
she:oo nga po matagal na kaya kitang mahal, :p
me: matalga na din naman kitang mahal ee-noon pa.
she:pero diba sabi mo crush mo lang ako?
me: crush can fade-pero di kita hinayaan na mawala diba?nawala ba ako sayo?
she:oo nga nu- :) iloveyou
me: i loveyou too. :*
sa paguusap na yun-natameme talga ako ng sobra-biruin mo-gusto nya din ako-tagal ko nghihintay diba-pero nalungkot ako kase-
SYA PA TALGA ANG NAUUNA LAGI-kahit sa pagchat-
hanggang sa pagamin-
ewan ko ba-duwag ko din kase pag nakaramdamn ako ng pagseryoso sa isang tao-takot din kase ako marejexct- tsaka-kitams.. mas tumagal kami nung nagkunwari lang akong KUYA nya-mas pinili ko yun-para dumating yung panahon na-matututo din sya-
eto na nga-natuto sya-KAMI NA-ang saya diba-haha yung pakiramdaman na-parang unti unti ng nagiging malinaw yung ginuguhit kung mukha nya sa paint. :D saya talga.
sa mga nagtyaga magbasa ng storya namin- salamat- sana maging inspirasyon to para sainyo..
lesson: hindi mo kailangan madaliin ang isang tao para lang mahalin ka-kung para kayo sa isat isa-mangyayari-kahit madami pang tao ang dumaan sa buhay nyu.wag magmadali- love will lead you for the person who truly deserves it.
BABAE says
marunong ako maglangoy
pero ang problema, nakakalimutan ko kung pano pag nandiyan na siya
para may sumagip
Jas Ten Lee Rubio says
yun lang
masyado mo kase iniisip na
sa pagpapaanod mo me isang tao na sasagip sayo kahit di ka pa humingi ng tulong
its called expecting or assuming
BABAE says
korak ka diyan
pero kasalanan ba mag assume kung may dahilan naman kung bakit nag aassume?
Jas Ten Lee Rubio says
kung nasa probinsya at walang dagat sa lugar ng taong dapat na sasagip sayow anu gagawin mo-maghihintay gang sa dumating sya-kahit alam mo na obvious naman na walng pagasa o matatagalan pa
BABAE says
yun bang, umm\iiwas ka na tapos lalapitan ka
Jas Ten Lee Rubio says
di naman kasalanan magassume
ang mali dun ee
dun kana nakatutok sa pag aassume
ee me ibang way naman para mangyari yown
BABAE says
panu?
teach me nga
tutal expert ka
Jas Ten Lee Rubio says
sa buhay
di mo kailangan
maghintay
maghanap
o mamilit ng isang tao para lang mahalin ka
o maibigay sayo ang dapat na gusto mo
sa buhay ang kailangan lang gawin ee
makontento sa kung ano meron
kung ayaw sayo
at walang paraan
dont hesitate to push yourself in that things
mas lalo ka lang masasaktana t magmumukhang tanga sa harap ng nakararami
tandaan mong
expecting is one way of hurting yourself
BABAE says
galing ah
Jas Ten Lee Rubio says
BABAE says
pak na pak
copypaste ko nga
hahaha
Jas Ten Lee Rubio says
pero kase ang mga tao mas
pinapauna nila sa pila yung mga di naman karapatdapat at bawal-yun nga yung sinasabi nila na-masarap daw ang bawal-see-dun palang pwede mo ng masabing tanga ka
-magpopost sa status"KAILANGAN KO NA MAGDEACTIVATE NG ACCT SA FB DAHIL WALA NG DAHILAN PARA GAMITIN ITO"
(bakit kanya ba yung facebook?
-iiwas-
1.di na gagamit ng phone o kaya e off nalang.
2.magpapalit ng sim
3.mag-g gm ng mga pagpaparinig sakanya.
4.di na pupunta sa lugar kung san sila madalas magpunta
(bitter bitteran ang drama diba)
-pero masdan nyu-
di pa rin nya matitiis na magonline tapos gagawa ng bagong acct na nagpapahayag na-"ITS A NEW ME"
-at habang binabasa mo to-naiinis kana sakin-iniisip mo na-ang sama ko-pero aaminin mo-totoo to.
-Oh kwento ko ulit bago ko pumasok. Eto, nagtetext sya pero gm naman ngayon. Buo na phone nya di ko alam kung kailan pa. Pero yun nga, nagtetext pero gm. Double send pa. Di ako nagrereply kasi wala pa kong load pero kung meron man.. .mainis lang ako kasi gm kaya malamang di din ako magreply. lam mo dati, mapa gm o pm man text nun, nagrereply ako agad. Kahit minsan wala na ko load sa parehong network niya, yung other sim ginagamit ko. Tapos pag wala talaga, kahit gabing gabi lumalabas ako makapagpaload lang at mareplyan sya. Tapos pag siya, pm na ko ng pm, walang reply. Reason nya lowbat o nakaoff o walang signal o walang load. Pero ramdam ko naman na dahilan lang yun. Hahaha. maya na ulit.
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-hindi sapat na dahilan ang mga GM GM na yan-ang masasabi ko lang misaker sayo- TIGILAN MO NA ANG KAHIBANGAN MO-MABABALIW KA LANG SA KAKAISIP MO SA ISANG PANAGINIP NA MAAARING MAGKATOTOO-TANDAAN MO-NA-KUNG TOTOO ANG ISANG BAGAY-HINDI KANA MAGDADALAWANG ISIP NA MAGTANONG O PATUNAYAN YUN-KASE NGA TOTOO AT HINDI KALOKOHAN-
Nasasaktan ka kase gustong gusto mo yung ayaw sayo-Umiiyak ka kase hindi mo alam kung pano ulit magsisimula-dahil ayaw mo. Nalulungkot ka ngayon kase hindi mo alam kung sino ba talga ang para sayo-tapos yung taong nagmamahal sayo-at laging nanjan sayo-hinayaan mo mawala-tapos ngayon Dissapointed ka-kase masyado kang nageexpect-
pag ang buhay ng isang tao sinira mo-wag na wag mo itong ikukumpara sa anumang bagay o pangyayari-dahil kahit paulit ulit na umiikot ang mundo-hinding hindi din sya titigil hanggat di nakakapaghigante sayo-
simple lang naman yun diba-kung ayaw sabihin agad-kesa naman paasahin pa-tapos sa huli-"HINDI" lang naman ang sagot mo-nuh kala mo sa mga tao-LARUAN para kolektahin-INBOX para ipunin-tapos pag nawala na siya-diba hahanapin mo at mamimis mo din-tapos mageemote ka na "SANA BINIGYAN KO SYA NG CHANCE-KASE MAHAL KO NA PALA SYA"-ngayong nakikita mo sya sa iba na MASAYA na-sino ngayon ang kawawa-diba ikaw lang mismo-
kung magbabago ka talga-hindi mo na kailangan pang bigkasin o sabihin pa yun-di mo kelangan paulit ulit na sabihin-di ka naman siguro ngsesend ng GROUP MESSAGE para lang sabihin na"MAGBABAGO NAKO"-mas prayoridad mo parin dapat yung ikinikilos mo-ano naman pakialam nila kung magbabago kana-tapos iba naman ang pinapakita mo-tapos para sakanila-IKAW PARIN YAN-buti sana kung nasa paa mo na yung ulo mo-hahaha
minsan natuto ako magmahal,naging maligaya sa piling ng aking mahal,dun din ako natuto kung pano maging matapang-maghintay-magpaubaya-umasa at masaktan ng di inaasahan-pero me natutunan din ako nung nawala ang taong mahal ko-mas masarap parin naman talaga maging SINGLE-hindi nga lang MASAYA.
sinabi nya lang na crush ka nya-di kana napapakali sa kakaisip mo jan-na baka mahalin kana nya-hakhak-kaya ka nga nasasaktan ee-dahil jan sa kakaexpect mo ng sobra-di ka marunong makontento-inalok lang kase ng potato chips-di na tinitigilan hanggat di nauubos-haha
May buhay na hindi para sayo ngunit nararanasan mo
May taong hindi para sayo ngunit napapasayo
May mga bagay na hindi nakalaan sayo pero nakukuha mo
At hindi porke hiniling mo at di mo nakuha ee hindi na mapapasayo-
minsan o mas madalas hindi pa ito dumadating
dahil alam nyang hindi kapa handa para harapin ang kinatatakutan mo.
"ANG MASAKTAN"
mahalin mo lang sya-mahalaga dun sinasabi mo kung ano yung nararamdaman mo-wag mong pilitin na mahalin ka nya-wag mong hilingin na-SANA LHAT NALANG NG TAO SA MUNDO MAGALING MAGMAHAL-AT HINDI MAWAWALA SA TABI MO"-dahil hindi ganun kadali yun-sa tingin mo ba-habang buhay mong hawak ang paborito mong laruan-hindi nman diba-at hindi mo rin masasabi kung hanggang kelan mo to masasabing-PABORITO o GUSTO-dahil lang ba sa "BAGO AT USO ITO?"o dahil sa "MAGANDA TO SA PANINGIN KAYA GUSTO MO?"-
bat kaba natatakot masaktan-tapos gustong gusto mo naman magmahal-hindi nga isa lang ang minamahal mo ee-mdalas kahit me mahal kana-di mo parin napipigilan na magkaron ng paghanga sa iba-yung tipong hindi mo nakita sa taong mahal mo ngayon-pero di naman ibig sabihin na mahal mo na yun-pipigilan mo parin ba yung sarili mo-kung kahit tanga ka sa paningin ng iba-dun ka naman pakiramdam mo MASAYA ka.
hindi sa lahat ng oras-iintindihin ka ng taong mahal mo-paminsan minsan-isipin mo muna yung sitwasyon-bago ka magdisisyon-kase iba naman ang nararamdaman nya sa nararamdaman mo.
kapag naramdaman mo na nakakasakit ka na sa ibang tao-yun na ang tamang oras para itigil mo ang isang bagay na alam mo din na MALI-kesa ipagpatuloy mo pa yun-mas dadami ang mga taong madadamay mo.
alam mong kaya mo pero ayaw mong subukan-parang pagabut ng isang bagay na kahit kayang kaya naman pulutin ng kamay mo-iniuutos mo pa ito sa iba.
-normal lang naman sa mga tao na ayawan yung taong ngkakagusto sakanila-pero ang ayawan at tanggihan ang taong mahal naman pala nya ee isang kahibangan-hindi ko masasabing tanga ka pero ang masasabi ko lang kaibigan-NAGSAYANG KA NG ORAS-mahal mo mahal ka?ano pa gusto mo mangyari? naghihintay ka ng iba pang paraan nya para mapatunayan na totoong mahal ka nya at di ka nya sasaktan? wag kang paperpekto jan-dahil kapag nagmahal ka-di mo maiiwasan ang pagkakamali-ee bakit ikaw-di mo ba nasaktan yung taong mahal mo dati>? diba me nagawa ka din na ikinagalit nya at kaya sya nasaktan-kaya wag mong iisipin na-BAKA MASAKTAN NYA LANG AKO SA HULI-dahil wala ka namang matututunan kung lahat ng bagay ee hindi mo susubukan-pare pareho lang nman tayong makakasakit- hindi ka perpekto kaya wala kang karapatan para tanggihan ang mga bagay na dapat na mangyari sayo-ngayon kung me mahal ka at hindi mo naman mahal-PANGGAGAMIT ANG GINAGAWA MO-hindi nakakabuti na manggamit ka ng ibang tao para lang sa pansarili mong kaligayahan-dahil sa mga dahilan na wala naman talgang kwenta kung tutuusin-pero dahil nga gusto mong ipakita sa kanya na wala na sya sa buhay mo-NANGGAGAMIT KA-diba tama-itanggi mo man na hindi at paulit ulit mong itago ee-ganun parin naman ang tawag dun.
hindi ganun kadali ang pagpapatawad-lalo kung sobrang nasaktan at nahamak ang buong buhay mo-sinasabi nga nila na”dyos nga ngpapatawad,ikaw pa kaya.”pero ewan-wala naman atang ginusto ang mg tao kundi ang maging masaya-pero bakit sa tuwing gugustuhin nilang sumaya ee dun naman sa puntong yun sila kailangan masaktan-CHOICE DAW YUN-KUNG BAKIT KA NASASAKTAN-pero CHOICE din ba talga na-KAHIT AYAW MO NAMANG MASAKTAN-nararamdman mo parin masaktan?DIBA hindi naman-kaya di mo din masisisi ang mga taong nasasaktan at nakakaranas ng mga bagay bagay na di naman talga inaasahan o hiniling-yung sakit-kahit pilitin mo ang sarili mo na MAGING MASAYA-NAHAHALUAN LANG NG KALUNGKUTAN AT SAKIT NA DATING NARAMDMAN MO-kaya pano mo nasabing choice yun-kung di mo naman talga ginusto?
magmahal ka man o hindi mararanasan mong masaktn ng di sinasadya at wala sa plano-dahil para sa lahat-mas naniniwala parin tayo na- KADALASAN NA MANGYARI YUNG MGA BAGAY NA HINDI MO INAASAHAN kesa sa mga bagay na gusto mong mangyari.
mahirap magmahal ng sobra-mas mahirap din naman na magmahal ng kulang-pero di mo naman magagawang mahalin ang isang tao na FAIR lang diba-kase nga LOVE IS UNFAIR-kahit ipagpilitan mo pa na-PANTAY LANG ANG PAGMAMAHALAN NAMIN-NAIINTINDIHAN NYAKO AT NAIINTINDIHAN KO DIN SYA-pero aminin mo-hindi sa lahat ng oras at bagay ee NAGKAKAINTINDIHAN kayo diba?hanggang sa mapunta sa sitwasyon na TAPOS NA ANG LAHAT-at ang tanging magagawa mo lang ee magtanong sa sarili kung-SAN BAKO NAGKULANG?
alam mo ba na hindi marunong pumili ang puso sa taong mamahalin?kaya nga diba-nasasabi natin na-LOVE IS BLIND-dahil sa panglabas na itsura-pansinin mo-kapag maganda o gwapo ang isang tao-pangit ang mahal-najan din yung-AGE DOESNT MATTER-kase merong mga taong ngmamahalan kahit may malayong agwat sa edad-tapos sasabihin mo o ng ibang tao-“SA DINAMI RAMI NG TAONG MAGUGUSTUHAN BAKIT SAKANYA PA?”pero kahit ikaw diba-napupunta sa sitwasyon na ganun-samantalang kung magmamahal ka sa taong me itsura-bibihira ang nagtatagal diba-lalo kung-PAREHO ME ITSURA-kase nga NOBODY IS PERFECT-di nagtatagal ang relasyon nila kase sa PANLABAS NA ANYO SILA bumabase-nanjan na din yung-LOVE AT THE WRONG TIME-kase nga akala natin sila na-yun pala sa ibang tao sila nakatakda-at ang pinakamapunto dun ee-LOOKING FOR A PREFECT LOVE-yun yung mga tao na naghahanap ng perpektong pagmamahal sa isang tao-gusto nila na kung ano gusto nila makuha nila-sila din ang madalas na MAWALAN o MATAGALAN sa paghahanap ng taong mamahalin-dahil ang puso di marunong magbigay ng limitasyon sa nararamdaman-kapag nagmahal sila sige lang-kahit nga diba ayaw mona-pero yung puso mo patuloy parin ngmamahal-
Maaaring Hindi Pero Totoo Hindi ko maintindihan ang tunay na nararamdaman Sa tuwing kausap ka ako’y masalimuot sa katahimikan Kasama ka nga ngunit animo wala sa katinuan Nagbabadya ang aking labi na sabihin ang nararamdaman Ano nga ba itong nadarama ko-sa tuwing ngiti mo ay mapapansin ko
Heto ako kasama ka,namumula aking puso sa kaba Mga mata na syang nagpapaliwanag sa nadarama Nandito ka-kasama ko ngunit anong aking kaba Nagtatanong ang isip ko san ba lahat nagsimula ito isang tanong ngunit di ko masabi ang kasagutan ko
Mahal kita ngunit parang hindi mo nakikita Gusto kita pero parang di mo nadarama Na ang aking pagsinta sayo giliw iniaalay pa Ngunit sa tuwing kausap na-urong sulong aking labi sa kaba Mahal nga sabi kita-sigaw ng puso kung ikaw lang ang nais Dahil nagsusumamo sayo ang tunay na nasa isip ko
kausap ka-ngunit nalilito sa bawat tanong Sa bawat salita na maaaring bigkasin ng aking labi Oh bakit di mo madama itong aking pagsinta Dalangin ko sa dyos puso ko ay pakinggan mo Isang hiling na katangi tangi sa akng pandinig
Ngunit bakit sa paglipas ng araw ikay nagbago na Di mo na pansin ang dati kong tawa at ngiti Di naba kita muli pang napapasaya Ano itong aking nadarama bakit parang naglalaho na Pero hindi ko parin hinayaan na ito ay mangyari
Isang salita at ilang letra sa alpabeto Ang nais kong aminin saiyo ng dire diretso Pero sana ako muna ay pakinggan mo Sapagkat eto na naman ako ay natotorete sayo Isang tanong isang sagot mahal kita mahal mo ba ako?
minsan akala ko-mahal ko sya-kase nararamdaman ko na gusto ko na sya-minsan naiisip ko-sana di magbago ang pagtitinginan naming dalawa-dati kase hindi kami pero parang kami-kasalanan ko yun-kase imbes na ipagtanggol ko sya sa gf ko-mas hinayaan ko nalang sya na mas mahal ko-pero kahit nararamdaman ko na-na mahal ko talga sya-naging duwag parin ako noon-sa pagaakalang-di magiging maganda kung iiwanan ko ang gf ko sa dahilan na-dahil may ibang mahal na ako-kahit naman nung break na kami nung gf ko-sya parin yung gusto ko-yung mahal ko at yung namimis ko-pero ngayon-mukhang ako naman ang naghahabol ng atensyon sakanya-kse ngayon-sya naman ang parang walang tiwala sa nararamdaman nya para sakin-
at dun ko napatunayan na-magsisi ka man sa huli-hindi mo na mababago o mababalik pa ang nangyari.
dumating yung araw na-nakilala mo sya ng di mo inaasahan- dumating yung oras na-minahal mo sya ng di mo pinaalam sakanya- dumating yung mga sandali na-nasasaktan kana kase di mo masabi sakanya ang nararamdaman mo- hanggang sa dumating sa punto na-nawala na sya nung sinabi mong-MAHAL KITA.
PAGMAMAHAL ba o pagiging MAKASARILI?
mahal ko sya pero sabi nya di pa ito ang tamang panahon para magmahalan-hindi pa daw ito yung karapat dapat na sitwasyon para magmahalan kaming dalawa-sinabi nya na-hintayin ko sya hanggang sa matutunan na nya akong mahalin-binilin nya na-sana pagbalik nya mahal ko parin sya-sinabi nya sakin na-mangako daw akong aasa na darating sya at babalik para sakin-pero apat na taon na akong naghihintay at umaasa-at sa apat na taon na yun-wala syang pinangako na babalik at mamahalin nya parin ako-puro lang ako-
-Ako ay hindi simpleng tao kundi walang kwentang tao na pwede mong kausapin ano mang oras mo gustuhin, pwede mo gawing panakip butas, pwede mo hanapin pag kelangan mo lang- pwede mo mahalin kahit lokohin mo lang- lahat ng yan pwede para sakin- ako lang naman kase yung sinasabi nilang-walang kwentang tao na pwede mo makilala habang buhay kapa-kung di mo naman ako makikilala-maaaring mapanaginipan moko- maaring di moko makilala pero pwede moko mahanap-kakaunti lang naman kase ang mga totoong tinuturing kong kaibigan-mas madami kase sa mundo na nilikha ng diyos para kontrahin ang mga layunin na gusto mo iparating sa lahat-andami dami ko daw sinasabi pero wala namang laman-wala naman ako magagawa-ayoko naman din pakita sa kanila yung isang tipo ng tao na-gusto nila-ee papano naman ako? di ba pwede magpakatotoo-okay sige, magbasa ka nalang para mas makilala mo ako-wag mo nalang pakialaman ang mga salita ko-alam ko naman na WRONG GRAMMAR talga ako pagdating sa wikang INGLES-pero wala nga ako magagawa-yan lang naman ang paraan ko para malaman ko kung san ako mali-pero kun sabagay-ano ba naman ang TAMANG nagawa ko-hmmm wala ata-pero para sakin-ginagawa ko kung ano ang sinasabi ng puso at isipan ko-
I am much too alone in this world, yet not alone enough to truly consecrate the hour. I am much too small in this world, yet not small enough to be to you just object and thing, dark and smart. I want my free will and want it accompanying the path which leads to action; and want during times that beg questions, where something is up, to be among those in the know, or else be alone. I want to mirror your image to its fullest perfection, never be blind or too old to uphold your wieghty wavering reflection. I want to unfold. Nowhere I wish to stay crooked, bent; for there I would be dishonest, untrue. I want my conscience to be true before you; want to describe myself like a picture I observed for a long time, one close up, like anew word I learned and embraced, like the everyday jug, like my mother's face, like a ship that carried me along through the deadliest storm.
I was standing in the bus stop at my place waiting for a bus to going somewhere.. After a couple of minutes, I saw a bus coming.
When the bus came, I looked at it and said to myself, “eeee… so full…cannot sit down one”, “I’ll wait for the next one.”
So I let the bus go and waited for the second bus. Then the second bus came, I looked at it and said, “eeee…this bus so old… surely very uncomfortable one.” So I let the second bus go and decided to wait for the next bus.
After a while, another bus came. It’s not crowded and not old but I said, “eeee… no air-condition one…and the weather is so warm, better wait for the next one. So again I let the bus go and decided to wait for the next bus. Then the sky started to get dark as it is getting late. I panicked and jumped on to the next coming bus. It is not until much later that I found out that I had boarded on to the wrong bus! Got down at some appropriate stop and hired a taxi payed him thrice the money and finally reached, Thus I wasted my time and money waiting for what I want! Even if an air-conditioned bus would have come next, can I ensure that the air-conditioned bus won’t break down or will the air-conditioned be working fine?
So people.. I want to make sure that what We Want Is Not Wrong. But it wouldn’t hurt to give other people a chance, right? If I find that the “bus” doesn’t suit me, I would just press the red button and get off the bus! But wait…I am sure all of us have this experienced this before. I saw a bus coming (the bus I want of course), I flagged at it and the driver acted blur by pretending not seeing Me and zoomed pass !
The bottom line of being loved is like waiting for a bus and whether I want to get on the bus and give the bus a chance depends totally on Me and walking alone is just like being out of love If you love someone set him/her free. If he/she comes back to you, you know they are yours. If they don’t then it was never meant to be. Remember to always say what You mean. If you love someone, tell. Don’t be afraid to express it yourself. Reach out and tell someone what he or she means to You. Because when you decide that it is the right time, it might be too late. Seize the day. Never have regrets.
Youv tried your best to let go something you loved so much. And you let it go , closing those tearful eyes. You try to look the other the way. You try to let the feeling go. But the feeling takes control of you. You cant look away. And when you look back to the thing you loved. You wondered why you waited so long. Your face looked bright. You heard the flapping of the wings behind you. You knew it came back. But when you look back, its gone. The organisim that you used to love is gone. You regret letting the thing go. You cry for it to come back. You pound your head, you scrath youself, you tear out your flesh partley, you scream like someone just died....... but whatever you do it doesnt come back. You forgot how it looks. You forget the sound of the flapping wings. All you think about is how its doing in the cruel world. So whatever you do dont let something precious go. Or you will die of dreppesion.
Why hurt yourself? Why cut your own body as if it wasn't hurting enough with the heartbreak? Does it really feel good or are you just drowning under the influence of the media or role models you look up to that hurt themselves when things go wrong?
Here is my advice to those beautiful people whose lives went 'all wrong', to the intelligent beings who 'can't catch a break'.
It is not the end of the world.
Why waste your time, creasing your face in sorrow and spilling hot tears down your cheeks over someone who can't see how valuable you really are? God has a plan for all of us, a script if you will. Everyone was born to LIVE. Everyone was born to LOVE. Everyone was born to HURT. Because we are only HUMAN, and as humans we must be reminded of the challenges and hardships to earn the right of walking on this Earth.
Your fated other is out there, born for YOU. If you keep hanging your head that lovely person is going to walk right by you without noticing the beauty of your soul.
"Keep your head up, hold it high, look at the world, straight in the eye." - unknownmind
I'm woke up late in the morning- so i got paranoid to complete my task this day. MULTI-TASKING is my job. FACEBOOK'hahaha but i dont think if i was really happy having this kind of job, but i need to work hard- just for my own needs- for my mom to prove that i can do more than what she expect to me. It's a brave morning yard. After taking bath i put a cologne just to keep me smell good. I admit that im not that super great smells. I have similarity with my dads personality. A bored boy who dreams for somthing SMALL- just for his family. It was 8:13 o'clock, i need to be hurry. I texted our HR.to update what time im arrive in our office. Standing beside the street whil waiting for a cab.
A minute, there was a gurl who wear great dress, a girl with a blonde hair, it's raining she doesnt even have umbrella to keep herself from the rain, so i ask her where was her location.
ME: hi, your too wet. were you goin?
GURL: hmm (she stair at me) VALERO. why?
ME: oh, (great eyes) that was near from my office. would you like to come with me?
GURL: sure?
ME: yah, im late, so you want?
GURL: okay,c'mon.
We ride in a cab together. I give her my handkerchief just to make her dry. Her voice is great,so lovely, i was with her while looking outside the street. It's almost 8:45, we keep silence, and then suddenly she speak.
GURL: by the way thanks. (give her hand to me)
ME: oh, no problema, its my pleasure.
GURL: okay.
9:34 when we reach our building, i open the door of cab to goin down-i hand her next to me. She smile and then I ask to send her in the office.but she cant. She said that im too much late and i have to hurry. TIME IS TOO SMALL SO I DECIDED TO GO FIRST. SAYING bye. This is not the first time i was with someone everytime i went to our office. Is this destiny or it is only meant to be? Anyway im late so i have to go.
But im so stupid, why i always forgot to ask their names-everytime ive encounter somebody else outside.
Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with "Do it By 10's". At the end, choose 15-35 people to be tagged.
Be honest, you know your friends will comment and write something if they think you're lying.
TEN ARE YOUs
1. Are you single – yes yes yes
2. Are you happy – no no no
3. Are you bored – i like being myself-im not emo- im just alone-
4. Are you white – yes
5. Are you Italian – No
6. Are you intelligent – idk
7. Are you honest – im a lier
8. Are you nice – if your nice
9. Are you Irish – no.
10. Are you Asian – Yeah !
TEN FACTS
1. Full Name – Lee "bengbeng" Arr
2. Nicknames – lee, teng, bengbeng, lalala, master.
3. Birth place – my moms wound
4. Hair color - blonde
5. Natural hair style - bangs
6. Currently living at – The peninsula-
7. Birthday – November 25, 1992
8. Mood – uknown, depressed, bored.
9. Favorite color – gray
10. One Place you'd like to visit – U.S.A
TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE
1. Have you ever been in love – EWAN
2. Do you believe in love at first sight – NO.
3. Do you currently have a crush? – I DONT CARE
4. Have you ever been hurt emotionally – IDK
5. Have you ever broken someone's heart -- IDK
6. Have you ever had your heart broken – I FORGOT SOB* SOB*
7. Have you ever liked someone but never told them – YES.
8. Are you afraid of commitment – I JUST DONT LIKE IT.
9. Who was the last person you hugged – TEDDY(MY STUFF TOY)
10. Who was the last person you said I love you to? – I DONT SAY I LOVE YOU.
TEN THIS OR THAT
1. Love or lust – FOOD
2. Hard liquor or beer – SODA
3. Cats or dogs – MONKEY
4. A few best friends or any regular friends - NO FRIENDS.
5. Creamy or Crunchy – CREAMY-
6. Pencil or Pen – PENCIL-IT HAS ALWAYS AN ERASER
7. Wild night out or romantic night in – WORSE NIGHT EVER
8. Money or Happiness – MONEY
9. Night or day – NIGHT
10. IM or phone - IM
TEN HAVE YOU EVER
1. Been caught sneaking out- IDK
2. Seen a polar bear – YEAH,WITH HIS WIFE
3. Done something you regret – I REGRET WHEN FALLING INLOVE
4. Bungee jumped – YES. I LIKE IT WHEN I DEPRESSED
5. Eaten food that fell on the floor – NO.IT'S JUST A WASTE OF TIME.
6. Finished an entire jaw breaker – IDK
7. Been caught naked – NO.IM SENSITIVE.
8. Wanted an ex bf/gf back – NOTHING.
9. Cried because you lost a pet- NO.I KILL THEM BEFORE.
10. Wanted to disappear – I NEVER EXIST.
TEN PREFERENCES IN A PARTNER
1. Smile or eyes – SMILE.
2. Light or dark hair – LIGHT
3. Hugs or kisses – SEX HAHAHA
4. Shorter or taller – I DONT CARE
5. Intelligence or attraction – INTELLIGENCE
6. Hot Topic or Hollister – HOT TOPIC
7. Funny or serious – SERIOUS.
8. Older or Younger – OLDER-BUT IVE ALWAYS HAD YOUNGER THAN ME.
9. Outgoing or quiet - QUIET
10. Sweet or Bad – BADSWEET
TEN HAVE YOUS
1. Ever performed in front of a large crowd - YES.
2. Ever talked on the phone for longer than an hour - YES. TALKIN TO MYSELF.
3. Ever tried walking on your hands – I WILL TRY.
4. Ever been to a rock concert – NO.I HATE NOISE PLAY.
5. Ever been on a cheer leading team? – I DONT DANCE.
6. Ever went skinny dipping? – IT DPEND.
7. Ever been on a blind date – NO.
8. Ever went ice skating – YES.I TRIED TO SWIM
9. Ever owned a BMW, Mercedes Benz,Volvo, Escalade, Hummer or Bentley? – THIS DECEMBER.YAY.
10. Ever been in a circus? – YES.
10 WOULD YOU RATHERS
1. Go bungee jumping or cliff diving? – BUNGEE JUMPING- IT FEELS GOOD WHEN YOU ARE DEPRESSED
2. Watch a Horror Film or a Chic Flick? – I ALSO SEEN REAL GHOST.
3. Go to Hawaii or Aspen? – NEVERMIND
4. Play spin the bottle or truth or dare? – TRUTH OR DARE-AND IVE ALWAYS BUSTED.
5. Cheat or be caught cheating? – NO.
6. Read or watch? – READ.
7. Text or Call? – I DONT USE PHONE FOR TEXTING OR CALLS.I USED PHONE BECAUSE OF MY MOM AND MOBILE FACEBOOK.
8. Sing a Rebecca Black Song or a Justin Bieber Song? - HAHAHAHA
9. Quiet and Happy or Loud but Hurting? – QUIET BUT IT HURTING
10. Go on Facebook or Tumblr? – TUMBLR.IT'S MY JOB.
10 RANDOM FACTS.
1. I LIKE POTATOES
2. I ALWAYS LOCK MYSELF IN MY ROOM.
3. I HATE NOISE.
4. I HATE CHOCOLATES.
5. I DONT CARE ABOUT YOU
6. I LOVE MY FAMILY-BUT THEY HATE ME.
7. I LIKE WALKIN IN THE RAIN.
8. I LOVE EATING-MORE RICE.
9. I LIKE BEING WEIRD
10. IM SENSITIVE, I KILL PEOPLE.
10 LASTS
1. Last phone call you made – MOM
2. Last person you hugged -- MY PET. HE'S JUDAS AND THAT WAS 2 MONTHS AGO.
3. Last person(s) you hung out with – MY CHILDHOOD FRIEND
4. Last time you worked – HIDDEN KILLER.
5. Last person you tackled – MY PET.
6. Last person you IM'd--- UNKNOWN.
7. Last person you texted – MOM
8. Last person(s) you went to the movies with? – OLDER SISTER.
9. Last person you webcammed with? – ITS NOT ME.
10. Last persons/things you missed – MY HOUSE.
theres always gonna be that one guy. you know. that boy who could make you smile no matter how pissed you were at your best friend. the one who you could stay up all night texting and go to school the next day surving on an hour or two of sleep. the boy who warms your heart .... and your body by sharing his big, cumfy hoodies. the boy whos smile touches you deeply, and laugh you love to listen to. theres always that one boy who you turn to. the one boy you could hold hands with 24/7. the boy you get in trouble for, because you just HAD to sneak out to see him. the boy who kisses you just right, and you fit so perfectly in his arms. theres always gonna be that ONE boy who has to turn his back. no matter how much love you give him, he gives up. theres always gonna be that one boy who hurts you so bad you go numb. that one boy you can't get over... there's always gonna be that one boy.
I can sit here with you forever. I don't need to touch you. I don't need to hear your voice. I don't even have to look at you. As long as I know that you are here besides me. If I can smell your scent that I've grown to adore more than that of roses, hear you breathe and feel your warmth in the air around me, I'll be happy all my life...
Mommy went to heaven but I need her here today.My tummy hurts and I fell down;I need her right away.Operator, can you tell me how to find her in this book? Is heaven in the yellow part? I don't know where to look.I think my daddy needs her too,
at night I hear him cry. I hear him call her name sometimes, but I really don't know why. Maybe if I call her, she will hurry home to me. Is heaven very far away? Is it across the sea? She's been gone a long, long time- she needs to come home now! I really need to reach her. I simply don't know how. Help me find the number, please.
Is it listed under "heaven"? I can't read these big, big words; I am only seven. I'm sorry, operator, I didn't mean to make you cry. Is your tummy hurting too-- or is there something in your eye? If I call my church maybe they will know. Mommy said when we need help that's where we should go. I found the number to my church tacked up on the wall. Thank you, operator I'll give them a call. I cried so much
I think that's what's wrong with the world; no one says what they really feel, they always hold it inside. They're sad, but they don't cry. They're happy, but they don't dance or sing. They're angry, but they don't scream. Because if they do, they feel ashamed and that's the worst feeling in the world. So everyone walks with their heads down and no one sees how beautiful the sky is.
every girl dreams that one day she will find a boy that does these things for her. even the smallest action can have the BIGGEST impact in someones life:
• give her one of your t-shirts to sleep in.
• leave her cute text notes.
• kiss her in front of your friends.
• tell her she looks beautiful.
• look into her eyes when you talk to her.
• let her mess with your hair.
• touch her hair.
• just walk around with her.
• forgive her for her mistakes.
• look at her like she`s the only girl you see.
• tickle her even when she says stop.
• hold her hand when you`re around your friends.
• when she starts swearing at you, tell her you love her.
• let her fall asleep in your arms.
• get her mad, then kiss her.
• tease her and let her tease you back.
• stay up all night with her when she`s sick.
• watch her favorite movie with her.
• kiss her forehead.
• give her the world.
• write her letters.
• let her wear your clothes.
• when she`s sad, hang out with her.
• let her know she`s important.
• let her take all the photos she wants of you.
• kiss her in the pouring rain.
• when you fall in love with her, tell her.
• and when you tell her, love her like you`ve never loved someone before.
if you need to talk,i'll listen. if you need to cry,i'll hold you. if you feel lost,i'll help guide you. if you need to be angry,i'll let you. if youre feeling afraid,i'll conmfort you. if youre feeling attacked,i'll be your defense. if you need to lean awhile,ill gve you a shoulder. if youre feeling unsure,ill be your confidence. if your feeling alone,ill be the friend who wont leave you. if you need to learn to trust again,ill prove to you that you can.
I didn't talk to the people behind our home and it takes 2 weeks ago before I've been in a happy mood. There are people i lived with inside the apartment. But I think I am not belong to stay there. I wake up early in the morning just to go to my office to work hard. I cook my owned food and prepared for my lunch,,,i should eat first before i came out here. wanting and missing my mom that before when i wake up in the morning the food is ready i just have to sit and then eat in the dining area,unlike now that id be very dependent man in my life. Ive been office for how many year maybe i was 2 years in our company. The last time that i eat real food is last 3weeks ago and it was my dad's birthday. We flight for the province because of this kinds of celebrations.But im with myself,always,eveyrday and forever. I know that everybody doesnt deserve me in theier lives that one day I need to be left from them as one of their companion. Me with myself this time,I'm in work. making a multi tasking. Thinking about my future, my dreams, my family and my life.. People always notice my being silence. Someobdy say 'hey,are you talking?'but i just ignore them. Me with myself alone forever. I eat alone in the table and nobody was there to cooked me a food-to serve me a plate with real food. I miss those moments when my mom only call me just to eat and then after awhile.nothing. i just stay in my room, i'm not watching television much. most of the time i was in my room, writing, sketching and then listening to the saddest song ever. It was me with a scars in my foot a signs of the chance while i was in a coma before. 2010 when i start to go far away from my parents, i should have to leave and then find my own escape. This is me the man who has a big dream for this complicated world. When i was in a flight, I think about everything in my past life, specially when i was a little kids playing is the only thing i know. I didnt meant to hurt this feelings of mine but i cant control the falling tears from ym eyes. I cried a little bit, a little more wanting to go back in my past life being child. I'm twenty now a big man with a big dream. I asked myself: 'i'm a big man now,I look mature now but why is it still hard to reach my dreams?' and then i get my bag to get a drinks. I'm thirst, i never thought that its goin to be a complicated life for me. When my mom and my dad asking me to catch their dreams.I said yes.I want it. and I can make it.I know. But when i was there,i realize, its really hard. Not all the things ive seen using my eyes i will get, most of them, are needed to work harder to get that things. It's not like writing in a bond of a paper and then when you think its wrong you can erase it but life is so much harder than i know. Right now, Im asking god to take care of me, to guide me whenver and wherever i will be. I didnt talk for a long time and this silence means everything to me.,this silence was the loudest cry i made and this silence is the only way to defeat from the enimies and hates,I know this life and I got it in my Dreams.. to be continue...
It's the last day i will meet the morning The last fresh air that can hug me close today I know this will be the last time I've seen the blue skies in the morning And when afternoon come it would be the last time i am goin to eat lunch. The family, friends, people, things i called my favorite The last chance that i can see them clearly in my eyes I admit that someday the world will forget about me Will soon erase in the peoples memory just few of them stay The last time i can used my tooth brush in the kitchen. The last chance i could tell my mom how much i love her How much i love my family and the whole part of my life This will be the last time i ever know how to breathe The air that comes from my soul calling by my name The last tears that could fall apart run down from my face The last word i could ever tell for everyone else know me The last hug i could receive from the people who really loves me The last story i can write in my diary Written about what happen each day by day I know people will never ever wanted me to stay The last lvoe i could ever feel by someone i dont know if real. The last enimies i could hear from them voice saying stupid jerk about me. The perfect goodbye i could tell to everyone This is what ive dreamed before, The perfect world to come along with me alone No people ive seen crying, no roses threw in my burial The last testament that tells where the things come from when im gone I love them, i love everybody and i love those people i will met tomorrow, for the next day and for the coming year or decades that i never make friends with them. I am happy now, I am satisfied being nothing. I'm done about crying each night when im alone I'm done listening to the voice of the people who hates me and I'm done being tired for the fuckin feelings i never explain anymore. The last breathe that people feel this is the perfect goodbye This is the perfect life Because life is for everybody and not meant for me. Goodbye.
Noon ang buhay ko,sobrang saya, bonding time sa mga kaibigan ko,uuwi kahit anong oras gusto, kahit napapagalitan ng magulang-okay lang-pero hindi ko kahit kelan sinisi ang magulang ko,mahal ko sila mula pa nung matuto akong tumayo at magkaron ng isip-hinding hindi ko sila ipagpapalit kahit kanino man-kung papipiliin man ako kung sino sa pagibig o pamilya-natural na pamilya ang pipiliin ko-kase knug talgang mahal ako ng taong yun-tatanggapin nya ang pamilya ko at igagalang nya ang disisyon ko-khit ano man agn mangyari.
Pagaaral lang ang lagi kong pinoproblema noon,kapag gusto ko lumiban sa klase-isang excuse letter lang-ligtas na naman ako sa exams, wala akong ibang ginagawa kundi-laskwatsa ang isipin-kung saan na aman ang tambayan, kung ano kaya ang masarap na baunin-saan pwede pumunta-kahit ano pa man-kapag me kagalt ako-hindi ko pinapansin-sila na din mismo kase ang lumalapit at humihingi ng tawad sakin-sabagay sila naman lagi me mali kaya sila nga dapat ang humingi ng tawad.
Sa bahay, kahit naman madami akong obligasyon-hindi parin ako pinbabayaan ng magulang ko, sobrang mahal ako ng papa ko at ramdam ko yun-ako pa nga ang paborito nya ee-sabi yun ng mga kapatid ko at mama ko, si mama kahit wala yan pakialam sakin-mahal din ako nyan-me mga pagkakataon lang talga na-hindi ko siya kayang unawain-sdahil siguro sa bata pa ako kung magisip noon.kahit nga binibigyan ko sya lagi ng sama ng loob-hindi nya parin nakayang talikuran ako-bilang anak nya at bilang isa sa bahagi ng buhay nya-ang sarap sa pakiramdam-sobrang saya ko ng mga oras at panahon na yun-yung tipong halos-ayoko na matapos pa ang oras na yun.
Yung mga kapatid ko, si kuya kahit na kamuntik ko pa yan mapatay nun,mahal na mahal ko parin yan-di ko din maitatanggi sa sarili ko na sobrang nagselos ako sakanya dahil mas mahal nya ni mama pero ayus lang siguro yun-naintidhan ko-kase para kay mama ako-marunong na sa buhay-kaya si kuya alang ang lagi nyang binabantyan kase mas kelangan nya ng pagunawa ng isang magulang-kita mo ngayon nagbago na din si kuya at dahil yun sa nagmature na sya-at dahil din sa isang taong minahal at natutunan nyang pahalagahan pangalawa sa mama namin-yun ay si rona-
Si ate,sobrang idol ko sya-kahit naman nong bata pako gusto ko maging katulad ni ate, ewan ko ba pero pakiramdam ko mahal na mahal din ako ni ate,, laht kase ng hingin ko-ibinibigay nya-yun tipong parang ako pa ang mas mahalaga kesa sa ibang kapatid namin kaya naman lagi ko sya binabantayan-at pinoprotektahan, ayoko kase na me mangyaring masama sakanya-pinangarap ko na makatagpo sya ng isang prinsipe na magbibigay halaga sakanya-yung tipo ng taong hindi hindi sya iiwanan kahit ikamatay pa nya iyon- pero ewan ko ngayon-nadisapoint ako nng malaman kung......
kaya nagalit ako sakanya-mula non nagtanim nako ng galit sakanya at sa taong yun-ayoko na gann sya-lagi ko nga hinihintay na sana marealize nya na-di tama yun-na iba pala ang gusto nya at d ang taong yun-ayoko talga-ayoko-
at yung mga sumonod na kapatid ko-hindin hindi ko sila pababayaan-gusto ko kahit anoman mangyari-buo parin kami-gusto ko nga kahit me asawa na sila mga kpatid ko-nasa isang home town parin kami-natatakot ako na magkahiwa hiwalay kami-ayoko mangyari yun, ayko- ipagtatanggol ko sila hanggang kamatayn-sumpa man.. wala nako pakialam kung wala ng dumating na pagibig sakin-ayoko din nun ee-gsuto ko para nalang sa kanila.
I don’t know how to say this in a way that I hope you believe in me
I'm not god; I know it, so how can you believe me right?
But Yana, you know that you’re the only girl
That I compared to a flower.
A flower that has thorn to protect from the strangers
Whom trying to pick you and threw your gentle petals
For the long time that we still have a communication
I learned to care about you,
it started when i realize that
Even though the world left me alone,
I know deeply in my soul that I still have you
So i would like to make a promise for you
And its only for you Yana, so listen.
I promise to be here whether you need me or not, whether you felt cry o glad, or when you feel all alone, I will be your one and only companion in your world, I’m can't promise to give you the love that you really want to get but I will do my best just to be next to you. you’re the best gift that Jesus sent me from heaven-you’re not an angel cause your my wings-I can never fly without you, I don’t feel in heaven when you are with me cause I feel so much high even though your not here, and how I wish I could be an air just to go through with your body and hug you so much gently. lalala
Unsoundly. They toss and turn, trying to understand the mystery of the living. They know so little about what it's like to fill a new prescription for glasses and suddenly see the world again, with a mixture of disappointment and gratitude ... Also, they don't dream. For this reason, they have one less thing to talk about. In a backward way, when they wake up they feel as if there is something they are forgetting to tell each other. There is disagreement among the angels as to whether this is a result of something vestigial, or whether it is the result of the empathy they feel for the Living, so powerful it sometimes makes them weep. In general, they fall into these two camps on the subject of dreams. Even among the angels, there is the sadness of division.
->Di ko obligasyon na pilitin ang isang taong ayaw.
->Kesa makipagusap o sumama sa isang taong ayaw ko-mas gugustuhin ko pang maglakad lakad magisa.
->may mga taong makikitid ang utak,yung mga tao na kahit anong halaga o dami ng paliwanag mo-hinding hindi ka parin maintindihan
->Madalas nga talga na may mga taong pakialamero/ra o nanghihimasuk sa buhay mo-lalo na yung mga taong mahilig maghukay ng nakaraan-
(bat pa nga ba paguusapan-wala na yun diba-tapos ano iisipin nya na apektado ka pa-nakalimutan na nga kaya di na binabanggit ee tapos ipipilit pa nya sayo-ano gusto nya tumakbo ka paatras?)
->Minsan yung tao alam na nga na mali-magtatanong pa kung ano ba yung nagawa nya-
(anong paliwanag pa ang gusto nyang marinig?yung mga salitang mas masasaktan sya?)
->Mas gugustuhin ko pang matulog buong hapon kesa naman makinig sa mga kwento mong di naman talga nangyayari sa totoong buhay.<-hek
->Hindi ako matalino,kung me mali ka man na nakikita o napapansin sakin-sabihin mo-pero wag ka maghintay ng kung anong komento galing sa bibig ko-kase alam mo na ang sagot dun-natanong mo nga ee sigurado me iniisip ka din na posibleng sagot ko.
->yung mahal mo-kesa naman magkwento sa ibang tao na me taong nagmamahal at nakikiusap sayo para lang mahalin mo sya-di nalang ako magsasalita
->wag kang matakot magkamali at masaktan-kase yung mismong pagsilang sayo-ginagawa ka palang iniisip na ng iba na isa kang pagkakamali-at dun nasaktan ang magulang mo.diba?
->oo wala akong kaibigan-mas gugustuhin ko pang magpanggap na me kaibigan kesa naman magkaron ng mga sinungaling na tropa.
Love is when there are a million things you want to say to someone, but when they look you in the eyes and hold you in their arms, nothing in life matters other than being with that person at that moment.
